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Almost 1 year holding a full-time job...

List to do :
1. Insurance
2. Dental checkup for implant
3. Credit card application
4. Vaccine for cervical cancer
5. Bank book changing
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Look how i left out my personal life due to hecitc job

I'm going to reject 1 job assignment.


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I dont know if i should accept or believe in fate. Whenever i went for fortune telling & stuffs, comments are
" you are smart"
" you will success in your career "
But i want balance you see, maybe i am just greedy. God is fair afterall. Some people is lack of ceertain area but strong in others.
My job life, thankfully is much smoother till now with bumps & stuffs
My school life is ok even though i dont top in class or whatso ever
My family is ok
but My <3 life is always bad, i think its my problem
So god somehow is fair afterall because theres always something that's they will make you lack

Back to career
I think afterall i am a girl. I put in emotions in my work. Today i have a talk with my group leader. She told me about the direction of my further career task & stuffs. Actually, i have to say, I am happy. Because the task she's going to give me is more challenging & obviously she's trying to give me a chance to perform

I am glad that I have such a great boss & she believe and give me a very good opportunity  ( provided that i do properly)
But of course, when you received new assignment, you gotta dump away your own current assignment
The trouble came in then., i dont want to dump my current assignment. Maybe its because that's the first fcuking job assignment that i got for my whole life & thus I put in emotions /feelings and stuffs. So its hard for me to dump away

If i get 2 assignment together, the workload is heavy & my boss isnt very positive of that. either i need to try persuading her or i dont know???!!
Ok, i admit mostly is because i hate to leave this business partner, his name is xxxxx.
Too proud of me to admit.
He can be pretty much an asshole and i got pretty angry./fed up with him but he still have his charms on me. :(
Even how angry i am at him, if his email wrote " Dear Liling, ........" , ok hopeless......................
At the end of the day, i'll try to support him in whatso-ever of his request as much as possible.
The funniest part is, we havent met before because he's sao paulo counterpart , while I'm in Singapore office
He is an asshole
So i am stupid with all the emotional stuffs getting into me.

&& then here come with the human relationship  part - my coordinator who support & work with me. Its complicated. Some things its hard to say.
Especially it due to another person emotion
Its really difficult i need to learn how to break bad news, of both the change & her conduct especially she's treating me as a friend not collegue. ( i really appreciate it)

I need to sort of my thoughts tonight. Then i can move on