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UNREASONABLE ENTRY-strictly for unreasonable people.
freak la. do you u noe tat if students get nervous they tend not to do well? and it is tat it is neccesary for EXTRA lesson. even though monday was a hoilday. y other dun hab.and u habing it. i noe it is for our own good. and u cannot sleep if u dun do it. they can study for others subject too. but can student hab a very very short break PLS?- even though it wrong for me to demand break. xD it not time for us to hab break NOW. at these crictical moment. i should be proud and happy to hab this GOOD teacher. but sumhow. xD spolit my mood. i eating dinner then and i saw the news. nowadays. i am sorrie. but sumhow i cannot help it. i really really REALLY wanna to smash my phone cause of U. u are very very good to us. and it obvious tat who i am refering to.

*i wanna stress tat. pls dun get offended.
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dear diary` i am HERE to update my ENTRY again. i got SO ANGRY and IRRATED again. because of math. todae is math day. and i am busy afterwards. i chiong THREE exam paper at ONE go. and everytime i dunno how to do one question i THINK of mr chia. his FACE. i got more fed up. xD credits to mr chia HUH? i hab to struck at home to do homework. x( unreasonable reason to u guys but no choice. i cannot direct my brain to think tat WAY. yah. and new picture UPDATE. more crazy now. my earhole is still not done yet. and i dun like my skin. my skin was LOUSY.










my table. as u can compare from the last entry. xD it get messier. and i am TOO lazy to tidy it.










my floor. HORRIBLE right.? the first piece of paper is math. MATH again. my toes? nice?hahas.

todae i went to see dr soh again. my pimples did recover a tiny little bits and then i ASK him stupid question. and my skin on my HANDS are DRIED UP. xD tat was terrible. i got shock and ask kk about tat. xD hmm. ~ his eye was as usual bright and big. he is interested in my side pimple again. and i told him tat i got go SQUEEZE the pus out as wat he told me and it still grow back the pus. he look look look. touch touch touch. and sae he NOE y. and i ask him. he reply - cause there to much posion in there. WAT a lame reason huh? but it right. xD i PURPOSELY clip up my fringe before going in SO tat he will not mess up my hair. but in the end. he DID mess up my hair. my bill went up to 95 again. xD terrible. and todae got add extra ingredient. TAT is. the pimple ream. specially use on my side pimple. he found out tat my side pimple was horrible and terrible. so i hab to use different pimple cream. and is STRONG. cause he sae use 5 days if it is recovered. then DUN use anymore. u noe. use 5 days onli lei. the cream. xD mean the cream is STRONG. and i found out tat i keep changing pimple cream. HE todae also STRESS tat i CANNOT go under the sun. - sound serious huh? and i ask him can extend my pe . and he AGREE without any hestition. YEAH. i loving it la. BEST is extend till camping. i dun nid go camping LOL. i LOVE camping style. but i dun like going through those high and low elements. which i sort of afriad of. if there is no high and low element thing in the camping. i will definitely like camping. definitely. and HE asked ME if i am primary or secondary SCHOOL. xD he asked me TWO times. u noe. TWO. i LOOK like a primary school kid meh? NO LA. definitely not. xD and yah. before i go in. i saw the *jamine tea girl* hahhas. last time alway go buy bubble tea one. and i hear her sae tat she got friend 2 or 3. i think. come and look for dr soh. one times 300 to 4oo dollars. then their face are RECOVERED. in the period of 3 to 4 monthes. hahahs. and my mother was thinking. REALLY? me too. GOD. this dr soh really SO good huh? tml dun nid to school and i am HAPPY. especially monday. CAUSE it a long day. lesson till 3.



















MY MEDICINE. xD
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dear diary. i am back to update. i am in a DAMN bad mood now. y? cause of homework lo. i am SO damn fed up. especially after looking thorugh the math paper. LOOKING through onli hor. i like dun noe how to do the surds on. FEEL so dumb. nah mind. i let u GUYS see how CRAZY i am now. xD












SEE. i even open my hello panda . which actaully is for my brother and EAT IT. i am so siannas. MATH PAPER ON THE FRONT. x( and wat more irrating is tat i RECIEVED three msg about the change in question. i just SWTICH OFF My phone totally. foul mood NOW.










i was SO irrated and BAD MOOD tat. i just crash my paper when i start at the first question- becasue i dunno how to do math paper 2 first question. PATHETIC. xD


overall. i chose not to touch math. xD i decided t do math corrections and chem mid-year paper. xD irrated already. yah. hmm. stop saeing how irrating. let sae yesterday. went to town wif yL and cyn. TAT WAS WORST . i change my cloth 3 times and i still cannot find the right one. so. too bad. i gib up. i just wear watever la. and tie my hair. i think i dun really wear very nice to town yesterday. xD ahya. nah mind. and i GOT JEAN SKIRT. hhahas. and went there buy earrings . i should buy at jp mah. ahya. i regert spending 90 cents more on the earrings. yesterday was INDEED a earring day. xD i brought 3 pairs of earrings. and i look at my ear hole. not RECOVERED yet. so no choice. i hab to pray hard to recover FAST so i can wear. hahhas. xD and cyn also brought three. yL brought one. and cyn brought the pencil case. hmm. i hab NO comments. cause hmm. hers. hahahs. but still kk la. i think of her pencil case. and then cyn brought two pair of earring at jp. the owner got so IRRATED BY HER. but she really hab BAD service. not becasue the earring there is SO nice. or i will not go there BUY. anywya. i prought one pair. i wanan buy another. BUT . i hab no money. so i will be back to buy another pair on TUESDAY. cyn was so good tat she lend me wear here EARRINGS. THANK CYN. hahhas. xD

todae. wedding BELLS ringing. hahhs. YAH. todae got ppl weding. i will type more tml. but i going to wedding dinner later liao lo.~ i already CHOSE my clothes. not very formal. la. my LENG LENG CLOTHES. yah . i forget to iron my clothes. i going do tat now. and afternoon hab buffet. and i got irrated when ppl ask me my PIMPLES. this show tat my side pimple is VEYR VEYR EXTREMELY serious. dr soh- i going to visit u tml and ask u stupid but important question. xD

my sis table~




















my table~hahahs. xD math on the table . xD again.

















My brother table~

the above tables all not taken by todae or this week. this are taken on the days i MC from school. i was so bored at home. so i take them.
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dear diary. i m back to update. after reading my last entry. i feel.hmm. kk la. xD and i found out tat THE OTHER CLASSES got 6 midyear paper. JUST like us. is onli tat mr chia gib us to do onli. x( todae was GOOD. i dun feel much. is onli tat i start my day badly. first period was math. and i was SO tired. and dun really listen much to the lesson. and the e math test. i DUN HAB COMPLETE finish. xD i wasted too much time at the first question. i should be doing badly for the second question. and i HATE popiah. like tat speel ba. I WANNA vomit when i see ppl eating tat. xD no offend to popiah LOVERS. and we hab a LOOONG LOONG week end. and i GOT A GREAT GREAT SURPRISE. i eat kfc for lunch. I HAB no intention to eat lunch. but then mL brought the meal and hang it outside my house. and i SAW it wif a note tat. dear. - stop stuffing food to me. hahhas. BUT then i was happy. and . hmm. ahya. i dun dare to type out. i think he should hab rush to school after putting it. xD later going to town wif cyn and yL. and i am now HAPPILY eating my kfc meal. the superstar MEAL. again. i think. and. i going to chiong physic and chem soon. chiong one first. xD i told my dad dun cook my dinner. and i think he sort of get irrated. NAH MIND. todae was GOOD. especially NOT hearing mr chia voice when he is teaching 3d. i think cause they habing a test. and i LOOK at my pimples. i was SO sad. i wanna TO BE PIMPLE FREE. and yah. i wanna BUY new CLOTHES . top. i going to see town got asnything i like one. then i buy. xD hahahs. STOP it. i will suffer this weekend just like all other students because there are teacher* who gib so many homework. xD end here. going to town SOON.
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dear diary . i am here to blog. let me vent out my anger FIRST. before i put in wat happened todae.

before tat. i wanna sae. DUN GET OFFENDED OUT THERE. cause it unreasonable.

HEY. thank to mr chia. because of ur homework. I cannot GO out and BUY clothes. and S-T-U-C-K at home and cannot buy clothes for my wedding dinner on saturday. and i HATE it lo. i promised my mother and my sister on tuesday. and cause of math homework i cannot go out. xD FREAK. i hate it la. and flood us wif homework. especially the weekend la. how many worksheet has he print. u will see toh liling s-t-u-c-k at home again and start doing math like mad. and will suffer from depression SOON .stop grumbling. the three class are all like tat. not onli u. cause i hab not onli math to handle. u noe it cruel. but u hab no choice right? and i could hear his voice. todae. it so uncomfortable hearing two teacher voice. it like tat. and i seriously dun like it. miss bavani still told me last year tat. - onli two teacher teachers upper sec. one is dunno who and another one is mr chia. and gib mr chia better he will focus much more. now i noe how he FOUCS more. MISS BAVANI. i love u and can u come back. - more leng leng time . xD i am unreasonable. i NOE. but i just wanna VENT out my anger. but anyway. my mood was spoiled seeing the math worksheet on my study table and knowing tat i have to do it. especially tml i hab e math test.

LET ME BE NEUTRAL FIRST.
standing in mr chia place: he a teacher and he wanna his student to do well. he is SO GOOD tat he morning went to rush and print worksheet just for his STUDENT to prepare for exam. he is good and logically. every teeacher wanna their student to do well. and he is not an exception too. he dun care the aunt gib him BLACK face. and everything. he just wanna print the worksheet. and is ME who is unreasonble tat i dunno how to ORGANISE my time or i can go to jp. and i should not think like tat cause. studies come first since i am a students. SO? he has good intention and try all his best. - so mr chia is right huh? i am an unreasonable girl HERE. and I JUST GOT IRRATED BY HIM. sumhow. even those tiny little thingy tat other find it nothing. i sumhow got irrated.when he did NOTHING. nothing at all. sorrie mr chia. i am ME. tat me.

stop it. i wanna stress again. PLS DUN GET OFFENDED WHEN U SEE THIS. it is my own thinking. ty. and HERE. saeing too much spoiled my mood. back to wat happened todae. todae was shock. assembly. at classroom. no CHECKING of shirt and skirts. and then hmm. lesson was boring too. and every teacher coming in are going through test paper. went to restock for the snack corner todae wif cyn. and then yL and helena went to eat. i forget the IMPORTANT STUFF. i should not. ahya. nah mind. and then english lesson. i was half- day dreaming. miss wong call me. i was shock. luckly i was onli HALF daydreaming. looking back. i think i crap too much in the beginning already. oh. nah mind. i feel uneasy. i stress again. PLS dun get offended. it my own thinking ONLI. i just venting out my anger. and todae. kk come back to school his wound is better liao. not so bloody as yesterday. but LOTS of pus la. eat fruit plus- onli hab strawberry. so DISGUSTING. but i still eat. cause there is nothing to eat already and is boring. and yah. MRS YIP. i went to find her AGAIN. she not in AGAIN. y she not in. xD i so uneasy lo. one day dun find her. one day i uneasy. and yL got so tired of going to HOD liao. cause nowadays . i will start telling her. WE GO FIND MRS YIP AFTER SCHOOL. hahhas. sorrie yL. i was too happy tat i can go japan. and hmm. mr low maybe going to JAPAN too. xD HUMANITIES. hahas. mdm siti. ty. my test answer got FLASH up. is TWO question summore lo. hahas. i was shock. cause first time i hab. y answer flashed up. even thoguh my handwriting was horrible. but i dun mind. and as i mention above. i hab e math test tml . wish everyone and me good luck . hahhahas. end here. xD
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dear diary.i am back here to update liao. xD keis la. todae was quiet a terrible day. especially PE lesson. tat pe teacher is SUANING ME AGAIN. this time call me MORE horrible thing. i DUN WANNA tat. freak. stupid. and ppl start calling me. xD i TOTALLY dun look like her lo. pek. and then here
Ll: todae can go buy toto liao.
yL: y
LL: cause mr chia never gib homework.
yL: laugh
then. i saw one a-math midyear paper passing down. todae just finish test and there is HOMEWORK. xD freak mr chia. I HATE YOU. can u gib me a BREAK. even though mid-year is around. no is NEXT thursday. and math test todae. i will pass. but maybe not tat well- cause I HAB TWO QUESTION dunno how to do. x( ahya. nahmind. xD i wish midyear exam would be over soon. and i wanna my one MONTH break. so tat i can GET out of fhs. and NOT seeing mr chia for one month. seeing his face make me sian~ after school. i dun wanna comment much la. u la. xD y u come! no la. i should not *blame him. cause he also dunno. and yah. i crapping wif desmond LOTS todae pe. we see ppl playing captain ball. and it WAS funny. and we two start picking out MISTAKES of our class. xD no offend. when i play caption ball. i may hab make mistake too. but it real. it irrated me when i see. so i TRY to close one eye. LOOk at the ball onli. - desmond was like saeing. - 2 to 1 2 to 1. then i was saeing obstruction steping. hahhas. xD nah mind. dun get offended. yah. play captian ball. i think our class boys play pretty violent. and ALOT ppl injured.
GET WELL SOON KOK KOENG AND KENNETH.
went home after asembly. actaully wanna to stay back for mole remedial. and it seem like NO ONE stay. so i go home. xD ahya. todae should find mrs yip one. ahya. i will find her tml. xD. yL eat wif helena for lunch todae. assembly was as usual sian la. but not really tat sian at the community singing part. cause kind of quite entertaining. hmm. then mr chia tell us to stand to gib support. WATDE. call ur class stand can liao. still call my class. xD maybe some are enthu to stand. and then i dunno the other row la. but from me to the end of the whole. all very leng leng one. then i was the first to sit cause i see other ppl sit. and everyone follow me sit. hahahas. LOL. should be like tat la. if anyone think it is not wat i sae.- pls tell me. i will change. cause i not sure about tat. and mdm oen . as usual tok alot of morals and crap. miss womg was sitting in front of me. and i am SO scared tat she will catch my fringe. xD and mr ng never come todae. should be la. didn't see him todae at assembly and when it is time to check our attire. it gm to check. but he is quite leng leng. just look like tat onli. end here. ~
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dear diary. i am bACK to update agian. CAN sumone TAG my tagboard. SO plain lo. y my tagboard alway no peep tag de. i going to take away my tagbox soon. put there like TOO extra. LOL. xD here to tag. this is THE FRESHLY new photo. LOL. nice mahs. fist time take photo wif ym and bL. and the one wearing red one is taken at the SCIENCE centre. hahahs . THANK JUNXIAN. xD. see two cute girl up there. onli if i hab my pimple-free face. hahhas. not long afterall. xD HOPE so la. i going to see big eye THIS week and ASK him stupid but IMPORTANT question about my pimples AGAIn. and ask him to gib me to excuse from PFT. hahhas. xD then i dun nid to take liao. xD FREAK. and the pe teacher. keep teasing me. he die die also rmb y i never PE. cause he should be thinking this is the LAMEST reason he heard before after taking pe lesson for SO many years. kies la. xD then crap wif zuiyoung and desmond todae. dun really crap lots. cause i studying for the english spelling. xD. and then after school went to eat pizza HUT. yah. wait. before tat we went to find the HOD mrs yip. cause i wanna HAND IN THE FORM. one day i dun hab hand in the form. one day i uneasy. i am DAMN excited LOL to go there. but too bad. cyn and yy NOT going. nah mind. xD and yah. back to the pizza hut. went there to eat lunch exprss and i NOT habing dinner todae. - i gib my father excuse as i am too full. but actually when it reaches like 6 plus my stomach would not be full. but if i eat so much . later i FAT. so - best . dun eat so much. xD kies. and we did a nice nice decoration on the BONES. kies. BONEs. hahas. and it was quite funny all the way. went home wif cyn. yL took 243 bus. and cyn wait for me . WE went to change the caculater battery TOGETHER. hahhas. xD like tat la. i got scolded by bs square-minded- . xD *hmph* hahhas. i admited la. i am square-minded. then yah. i forget to mention. mr chia lesson todae. there was a FUN conversation.-
mr chia:too bad i dun hab 3 periods wif u. so i hab to rush.
yL to me: it good tat we dun hab 3 periods wif u. xD
me and yL: laughing.
sumthing like tat. hahahs. kies la. but if u dun think is funny. then nah mind la. xD cause we both like laughing. AND now. i feel very uncomfortable cause my earstick is pok in ear. is sort of struck in the middle. "behind hole" cannot find the "front hole" . xD and todae went to gib wr present also. she smiling at me. and i see her smile. i was like. HAPPY inside cause *- dun wanna continue. xD physic test. i got 20/27 xD i DUN DERSERVE the mark . LOL. cause first- i got alittle tips . second- i dun understand i just MEMORISE THE ANSWER word by word. and working by working. - tat y i got it correct. x( . mid year around the corner and i HAB to study hard. i WILL and MUST. i dun wanna to be the below ten- the middle can already. mean like 20 to 30. there my ideal range. i dun need myself to top in class or top 10. and yah. hmm. one the way home. i saw the guy wif his father. - tat was my younger times de playmate. he is in sec 4 now and in ***yi. and i NEVER tok to him when we grow up eventually. and HE is good lo. i rmb alot of times when he play wif me when i AM small la. xD kind of playmate. then i tell cyn about it. and cyn told me HIS latest news. MY GOD. i hear already i was like SHOCK. - even though i admit he look beng now. but i BELIVE he is good still- maybe because he is my playmate when i was YOUNG. maybe he just sumhow lose his path. so i think he is GOOD. we are really good playmates when we were young. now i hab a lot of flashback in my brain. - i noe once we played the vampire game. he is good and NOT beng.
i miss mL now. he having lesson and i CAN'T msg him.xD
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dear diary. i am back to update my blog. FEEL so good lo. like everyday come back and update. cause i LIKE blogging. no la. cause i learn tat from blogging i can relieve my stress. and not coop it myself. i dun CARE who reading it la. todae went to buy wanrong present. actually is share wif jq. but later dun hab. so we went to buy for wanrong after school todae. walk quite a lot of rounds at jp. and yah. her birthday is yesterday. hey. sorrie. i here to write.
WISH U A HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY Wan Rong.
i wish i can cancel the belated. and yah. back to it. hmm. got a cute teddy bear. a milk bottle and CHOCLATes. cause suddenly i rmb tat wr like chocolates TOO. hahhas. so i brought one. shared by yy fiona and ME. and yah. the more the merrier to go japan lo. and U start first la. then in the end u don't wanna go. xD i was so pek la. after hearing tat. and physic test. even though i got a little tip. but sum question not in the tys one. i DUNNO how to do. i think. this time. i will nto fail la. but will pass onli by little bit. AND the chem. my god. i am GOING to buck up liao. cause. - i got 3.5/ 20 LOL. first time i got a test so low one. can count one. 1 + 1 + 1 +1/2 = 3.5. there sumone lower than me. cause i saw the 15 percent on the screen. i wonder who was it. nah mind. i WILL and MUST conquer mole. hahahs. will study this weekend yah. ~ and then on the way home. i got mL msg. FINALLY. i waiting his msg for the whole LONG day. LOL . hahhas. miss him la. xD dunno lei. suddenly miss him la. xD i was wondering y. and this week i hab wedding dinner. i going to wear until nice nice go. hahahs. BUT too bad. my ear spoilt the whole thing. CAUSE. it is infected. and i cannot even pok one earstick in. LOL. i try later AGAIn. i brought the start earring todae. maybe asking mL to go too? miss WONG never come todae. hahhas. i was BAD. x( but really la. she should not come on wed and thursday mah. got 2 period. todae she SHOULD come. cause monday she alway leng leng one. ahya. and yah. i HATE mr chia. todae last two period keep hearing his voice. i am scared of his voice. his eyes. everything of his. - because he teaches math. i noe it a lame excuses. but. i am irrated sumhow. and can he be MC for one day? - y didn't he get sick and rest for 1 day. the longer the better.
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dear diary, i come and update my blog. OMG la. y didn't u tell her? walau. kies. stop it. maybe there is misunderstanding in between i. i will be calm and ask u wat happened before i do my conclusion. i see the conversation wif another person. i more PEK liao. walau. y in the hell. do u forget or wat.

thank cyn. for lending me the coat thingy la. i dunno wat tat call. i rush down go find here. and TY CYN. she is on the way to buy caculater. ahya.i dunno how to spell.hahahs. xD and todae i went to science centre. AND . the judge i MALU infront of GOT COME. i think he forget wat i sae already. cause he seem so. but i am still UNCOMFORTABLE. no one noe it was him. until later he sae. - oh. u are the group doing the canal right? . and yah. i WANNA apologise to mdm siti. it not mdm siti crapping wif the judge. IS the judge crapping wif mdm siti. the judge MORE crap to CRAP about lo. and they both standing in front of me and yL. see them crapping. waseh. sians. and then yah. got scold by tat miss chua i think. dunno wat her name la. also geograpghy teacher. cause we were late for 30 mintues. and when we CAME she gib us a very freaking and angry face. she dun let yL go eat lunch. AND yL was SO angry. LOL. if u stand in yL stand. she is right. but if u stand on THE TEACHER STAND. she is right too. so both are right. xD. hmm. then was fun todae la. got this sch children. two of them. one girl and one boy. VERY enthu. no ppl come to this exhibition. they go bring ppl in. sum look interested.sum are not. and then we saw liao keep laughing lo. i noe the sch. but I dun wanna sae. LATER ppl get offended. and we gt free LUNCH. from the SENOKO. thank senoko. xD hahahs. provided each of us 5 dollars for macdonalds. but too bad. i cannot eat macdonalds. i just go in grab a sundae and a ice-cream cone and start eating LOL. hahahs. and wen tto science centre play. u NOE WAT. got one weighing machine. i went up to weigh. i WEIGH **** NO WAY . cannot be **** one lo. ahya. i feel uncomfortable.


yesterday WAS cool. i saw jasmine tag. and i wanna to blog this in too. hahahs. went to jasmine house. we went "camping" there. mL was there too. and hmm. jiahao was there also. hahahs. xD see jas and jH. look good har? hey. jasmine. he a good guy. xD hahhas. and then i went on teasing them. cause u keep teasing me too. hahahs. xD and we crap lots LOL. hahhas. and we hab girls' talk too. and the guys. - yah. boys talk. hahhas. and then i was worrying how mL and jH chatting. since they see each other for the first time. in the end. they chase both girls OUT. hahhas. xD and they were chating well. hahhas. and i cuaght a little about them saeing styling of hair. xD i NOT PURSPOSELY one. is accidentally one. afterall. jH and mL become friends huh they got phone. and yah. I SAW the aunt again. rmb yah? when i mention a anut keep looking at mL and me at the time 08 april 2006 . tat mL birthday tta day. she saw me again. but she sae nothing.- stare as us as usual. i think she wanan ask. but dun dare to ask.
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dear diary. i am back to type. i am SO tired LOL. sian. i did physic and math. lest chemistry and one more physic. and i AM tired of the homework. i SWEAR i will be out of my hosue shopping SOON once midyear is OVER. i dun wanna be the last 10 person in the class then. x( i loading songs now. and i hearing xing qing now. like kind of more relax de feel there. hmm. kies. tml going to tat science centre. dunno wat we are suppose to do. WEARING thing. yah. think back. some one sae the sentence tat quite sort of "hurt"me . ahya. it not purposely de. NOT LIKE THE GUYS. - u can also where s. nah mind.

and i wonder how many people hear the media. hey. tat one CAN use de hor. i put in a of effort in tat. SO TRY it. hahhas. ty. xD and i hearing new songs. going to add new songs in too. yeah. i am praying hard for kok koeng. xD yah. i EATEN 2 mamee yesterday. causing my pimples to grow. xD lesson learn. no mamee allowed. i saw tat freaking guy online. xD end here.
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typed at yesterday. - 20th april 2006

Dear diary. I am going to PANG liao. Wa. Cannot tahan. Now I am typing in mircosoft and lots of red red thing come out already. Bad bad bad. And I dunno y. BLOGGER suddenly cannot. So I typing here. I feel like STABBING myself. xD. It was bad. And HORRIBLE. It onli a small tiny little thing. And yes. YOU GUYS. stop it. I NARROW-MINDED when it comes to this kind of thing. And u pls SHUT ur big FAT MOUTH. Will u die if u dun open ur mouth. I can answer it to u. NO. and I mean it. I went to do sum self-thought. Asking cyn jq and yL. Thanks for the truthful remarks. Ty. And then I noe this year I offended lots of ppl. DUN IRRATED me and I WILL not irate u can. But now I NOE. Guys ARE IRRATING. and all guys are the same SAME SAME. Hate guys. xD dun get offended. And sorrie if I do. I am now DESPERATE and wanna QUICK help. And I am GOING to do sumthing VERY EVIL and MEAN when my face get WELL and sort of “qualified” for it. Wait till then. I am evil and mean. U will NEVER dream tat before.i wore a S one. NOT a XXL one. I can wear pmk S size one. And not M size one. And so . stop it pls. I noe I am above average. And my face is BIG. I hab my own limits NOT like you. You and lastly YOU.
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dear diary. i was feeling so DAMN uneasy todae. because * . nah mind. i just feel uneasy. sorrie hor. i didn't mean to do it. can u forgive me? and i swear there will not be next time. school life is already boring and without u. it will be damn boring. xD.

todae judges for the geograpghy project came. good tat the judge tat i malu in front one dun hab come again. OR i will be like very nervous. but in the end our group dun really present well. and there are 4 judges coming. two are the "difficult customer" which ask alot of quetsion. i was wondering - can u stop asking. then sum question we dun really noe. and then our whole group just stare at them. and they continue to explain. ahya. not really well done. and kenneth wanna present. but then bL come back so cannot. SORRIE hor. kenneth. <--- hope he see tat. and there are refreshment. AND yes. refreshments. there are sandwich. hmm. dunno wat spring roll size one. green green colour. and then there was one thing inside got curry potato one. and YAH. that STUPID guy out there call me PIMPLE GIRL. got so HURTED lo. and i told him . u will DIE after two month. - i think he dun really belive it la. but wait and see. YOU. i noe i am narrow-minded.

yah. and then. the EARRING. so stupid. i wake up in the morning. the earring suddenly move out of my earhole. and my ear hole hab pus already. and then was so pain. so i keep poking back to the earhole. but i cannot find the earhole. so . poke until got blood. so pain. then no CHOICE. i gib up. i leaving it alone. i wonder will the earhole close anot. then i hab to pierce one more again. and i MALU again. "pus" i pronounce like "plus" then got LAUGH by ppl. and yah. tml need to change seat liao. wa. freak. i dun wanna change seat. no. i should put like tat . i DUN GIB A DAMN who i am sitting wif. i onli GIB a damn if i am sitting behind anot. if i siting in front. i will not be able to learn properly. because. i will eel very very uneasy. and i MEAN it. if tml i am put in front. i will CRY. really. i cannot stand sitting in front facing miss wong. kies. end here.
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dear diary. i am BACK to update already. hmm. i got lots to sae. but no time to type. cause i going to study pressure SOON. kies. here i go . tml judges come. and i am so SCARED. pray hard tat the judge last time come de DUN COME again. and i wanna sae SORRIE CYN. sorrie i pangseh u. xD i noe u are VERY angry now. but sorrie la. HOPE u see it. hmm. oral todae. i was too nervous. even though i read KK la. but then. there was a nervous tone. and she ASKED me alot of question. and tml is pe. i love pe lesson NOW. but i still find it bored. though. tml pe. hahahs. and yah. i SHOULD be going to japan. i told my father. and he agreed. going to find the teacher-in-charge too. hahahs. later going to call yy and yL liao. to ask the japan thingy. i FINALLY can go japan. no. i prefer. korea. kies. end here.
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dear diary. i am back to update liao. sianns. i suddenly hab a sort of sian feeling la. maybe because i seen my pimples on the mirror. my side pimples. was so .YUCKS. tat wat i wanna sae. got the hmm. pus inside. but i dun dare to pinch. even though the doctor sae can. but i just DUN DARE. when will mmy pimples be kies? . hmm. then wat more. the trip. xD ahya dunno go where. i suddenly hab the URGED not to go le. ahya. nah mind. let me write. nothing much happened todae. is onli minor minor thing. ahya. STOP IT. i my mind is thinking of my pimples. and then i hab cca. todae was interesting. i dun feel like typing MORE. then hmm . then after school go kk house. sort of help him inhis math. but i dun hab help much. cyn too. and then cyn . hmm. * dun wsnana to comment much. but ME. got scolded by my mother once i reach home. just scream at me la. then i quiet lo. then slowly slwoly she calm down. then everything kk liaos.and i saw someone nick. i wonder if she is refering about me. and YAH. YOU. gibing me COLD-SHOULDER. i dunno y. and i DID NOTHING. dun wnana think more la. cause i htink think. i will jump conclusion. then maybe my conclusion is wrong. and blame the wrong person. end here. i going to look at my pimples again. the side pimples all got pus OR already got the "die skin" there liao. by right can peel and squeeze liao. but i dun dare. cause the side pimples are WORST. and i HATE my pimple face.
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dear diary. i am BACK TO UPDATE blog liao. i am SO happy lo. cause i maybe can GO JAPAN lo. hahhas. miracle la. i told my father everything here and there. and sae my edsave got . 678.52 dollars. and if i go perth if will be free. and if i go china. it will be free and IF i go shanghai i tiwll be free too. PROVIDED tat the school susided 1000 for me. hahahhas. and YES. i love my dad. i thought he is realistic. but he NOT. he sae . if japan cheaper he will let me go. hahhas. i tml then go count and ask teacher further more and more. hahhas. xD hmm. kies. but i prefer go perth. ahya. i dunno.kies. IT U TAT START FIRST. SO DUN GRUMBLE TOO MUCH. dun hab to eat lunch. cause i am full. eat lunch-cum-dinner todae. i am now thinking over where i wanna go liao. ahya. think think think. dunno where la. xD now is can go . but dunno where to go. WOOTS. i go ask my father again. he sae CAN. my god. i too happy at night cannot sleep liao. i dunno lei. ahya. sae back. todae . pe was SHUANG. cause i dun hab pe. and when the pe teacher ask me why. i sae because of my pimples. then he gib me a LAME look- i think he is wondering if why in the hell got such a lame reason one. and i ask him about pft. he sae. get a doctor consent. so i can dun take. COOL. hahhas. but kind of uneasy there. i also dunno y. kies. end here. todae was too tired. i dun feel like typing. LOL.
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hey. i am in a bad mood now. just ahb a fight wif sumone in msn. is not fight la. sort of. maybe. he dun take it seriously. but i do. and i am narrowminded de. when sumone sae my pimples. HEY . stop it. kies. i hate it. and is a GUY again. wat u sae i dun mind. just stop saeing my pimple. wat de hell. and i wanna vent out my anger. dun care if he going to see tat. guys. WATCH out. and i one day i will make them suffer. and i SWEAR. i dun CARE. and i wanna it. words could hurt ppl especially narrow-minded people like me. i noe it my fault for starting it first. xD i am just unreasonable.


leave tat aside. i show u guys. my NET FRIEND> finally got his pic. he send me. hmm . .like 3 years liao. sec 1 noe de. i got two net friends. the two netfriend in real life very close wif one another one. i show u one first. and it not mL kies. i will post mL soon. i already pick ONE. hahhas. sorrie i didn't got ur consent to put this in. but i bet he never noe. hahahs . sorri hor.

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dear diary. the title of todae dr soh. so if u find it boring/just keep this. hahhas yah . todae. i meet wif cyn. cause cyn wanna see how BIG his eyes is. and so she accompany me to see doctor. ohya. guys. do u notice below my mouth is better? huh? even the doctor OVERLOOK tat area. or am i too confidence? . he is DAMN interested in my side pimples. i come three times. three times he touch my pimples. and on the SAME spot la. and then ask this ask tat. then hmm. use magnifing glass AGAIN. and found out tat i hab PUS in my pimples and too serious so hab to change cream. dunno wat cream tat is. is like sort of earhole those liquid one. xD ahya. i dunno. hmm. he also use his hand o SQUEEZE my pimples. saeing the same old thing- 2 month later ur pimple problem will solve. sumwhere this. i just nod myy head. and wonder the same phrase AGAIN. and then i ask him STUPID but important questions. he did not find it wired to hab the dry skin under and above my lips. but was little bit shock about my red face in the morning which thanks to tat GUY out there tellling me. and i start asking ppl around. and indeed . it a fact. and so he decided to gib me ONE MONTH pe excuse. GUYS. ONE MONTH hor. hahahs. *proud* first time got so long off from pe. i am wondering how my pft 2.4km running liao. i going to ask tat PE teacher tml. and from tml on. i dun nid to bring PE. xD . ahya. like desmond lau liao. he also sit there. but i cannot sit there. i cannot exposure to SUN. sun. xD sumtimes i like sun lei. hen now totally cannot expose to it liao. or wat cause severe sunburn. i going to take a snap shot on my pe excuse. hahahs. AND . yah . the doctor is UNDERSTANDING. - he noe tat i am those who are too ai mei to CLIP up my fringe so he didn't add this demand in. but ask clip it up at home. hahhas. he noe tat girls tend to look more on their appearance. xD so nervous before i go in. but then after tat can liao. and yah. he mention tat CYN is my sister. at first i sae yes. then later before i go. i just ask him again. and then he sae she look older. so i look chidish-er la? hmm. the sae medicine. yah. i saw his little cute daughter. her eyes is as big as his. like father like daughter. hahahs. xD .if he is the same age as mee- i may get dian dao. but too bad- i like mL more. hahahs. yah. and i wanan add. mL school reopening TML. hahahs. wish u good luck for ur next term. miss me hor. hahas. cause alway school reopen. both of us will hab very little time left. x(
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i just happened to look into my file and found this TWO picture. hahhas. this is sinyee and me AGAIN. hahahs. wanna take more picture wif here next time i see her. i TAKE MY CAM there. hahhas. xD

hey. i come and update my blog liao. nothing to do now. and going out later. maybe town0ing soon? hahhas. xDg oing to study tml. xD. hahhas. hmm. i just browsed through ppl blog. i saw the big heading of tat day` tat is. - the wednesday netball game. hmm. look like it is played violently. huh? . keis. tat my view. it my mine. pls dun get offended. AND if dun like my view. just ignored it. - it may be an extra` catian ball is just a game. so dun take it so serious and play So violently. violent would make the game good. but then overdoing is NOT good. i hear lot of ppl injured then. wat more important is - sportmanship. keis. STOp. i dun wanna sae so much liao. like very extra. xD i forget to hand in my zhouji . AND i need to hand in on monday. dunno will get scolded not. xD i think of a way to prevent myself from getting scolded then. xD

SUDDENLY hab the urged to go to sch. dunno y. i think cause of the oppurtunity fund lo. but it nto definitely the LESSON PART. tml going see dr soh and yes. i am excited to it. AND i feel like tell tat doctor - stop saeing my pimple problem will be solved. i WANNA to see the RESULT. where the result? i wanna ask him. but it is too unreasonable- cause i onli start eating the medicine two weeks. and i got alitle bit of result. a tiny little one. i see my pimple yesterday. and it spoiled my bmood. y in the hell life so unfair. ppl hab no pimples. and i habe PIMPLES. i wanna no pimples too. and my forehead sort of going to be conquer by tat pimples. and i DREAD this fact. - i waanna to run away from this reality. but too bad. once i place a mirror in front of me. - i cannot run elsewhere. i hab to face it. and i not BRAVE enough to face it. tat my fear - to face it. and i tink of tat stupid GUY out there. saeing my pimple. yah. it my view. i will grow up detesting guys alot. i am now destest guy quite alittle liao. guys. u are so realistic. xD ur eyes wil be totally brighten up when u cute little girl walk past. and the next moment i see u flirting wif them. i see lots of this situation. is not tat i jealous. is tat i was wondering myself - face can change so fast one? ai SWEAR i will detest guys lo. this whole HATRED of guys start when i was in primary school. and u guys. STOP DIGGING MY PAST. if i really wanna tell u . i will and DEFINITELY tell u. at least i find sumone in the world tat is not so destesting as u guys out there. guys. one day u will get ur punishment out dere. and i MEAN it. if i got a chance. i WILL make ur life miserable. and TRUST me. i will wait till tat day BEFORE i die.i maybe sterotyping. i duno. but how come seem like guys around me 99.5 percent are like tat one. xD wat moral we are taught like- dun judge the person by looks are all CRAP. yah . crap. trust me. can we dun hab cme lesson. it useless when crap are teach. everyone is realistic. me too. and NO ONE cared. teachers are realistic too. and so they cannot touch on this topic themselve also. ya. i saw MALE teachers who are like tat too. i dunno if i am over-sensitive . and maybe i am oversensitive. and yah. i most likely changing sch NEXT YEAR. fullstop. i most likely will not take the my o level in this damn sch which i hab to see tat chia everyday. and i bet not much ppl will be sad to see me go. i suddenly wanna hear SAD song. so i press my blog de -kiss goodbye and i start listening. i become saddder now. - so sad. ` it my view. pls dun get offended.
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dear diary. i was doing my pressure worksheet when suddenly i think of sumthing.
hey girl . stop copy me pls. i noe it just a MINOR thing. but u still copy me. and i noe i am narrow-minded. and i so can u pls erase of the thing in ur *workbook. even though u DID make an effort to change the thing* abit. but it still very obvious tat u copy from me. AND u sae tat at first is not onli you did is is a group of peeps. but y i see onli one ppl doing it? i noe i am narrowminded. and YAH. i am. so pls ca u stop doing it.sorri if i offended u. but i am too irrated.

i am in bad mood now. because i think of tat. and then guys. DUN BE SO SAD ABOUT WHAT you read. and then i in msn chatting about ppl liao. xD more and more fun . haha cannot tell who i goossiping wif la. and sae about mr ng and mr chia. CHIA CHIA CHIA. i hate you. everyday die die also see you.

kies. and then continue. todae i was at home. hmm. very bored. i hab nothing to do . and a GOOD NEWs. i maybe can go petrh liao. yesterday i tell my father about the oppurtunity funds tat happened tat i FALL UNDER NEEDY PEOPLE. and maybe can suside so money for me. and then my father dun hab sae anything and just sae tell me to comfirm if i really FALL ON NEEDY PUPILS. and my mother sae .i f the price is reasonable . i am go. yah. all i nee to do. is monday . i RUSH DOWN to the general office. perpahs ask yy cause she sae gerneal office can ask. then go see the cateria and then PRAY HARD i am in the needy pupil and meet the cateria then i go caculate how much my parent needa pay. and then ask my father again. and if EVERYTHING WENT SMOOTHLY> i can go. but then it not all. i hab to ask yL and yy if they wnan go. i need sumone to ACCOMPANY ME. u noe. i will be lonely if no one wanan to accompany me.

next week. judges coming. i hab to pray hard. hope tat the one i malu in front of never come and pray hard my pimples look good. and then yah WATCH OUT YOU. sae my pimples. i will SUAN u in half year later. you wait and see. xD i will recovered one day. even though now there is stil alot of pimples. but got decrease liao . onli alittle minor one. so noone see its.i going to see big eye doctor again sunday. stop it la. bad lo. call ppl big eyes. he is dr soh. cannot wait to hop down and ask him y under my lips willl crack and y in the morning my face will red. and all these stupid but important question to me. i am out to seek revenge once my face is free from pimple. and i hab the list of name in my head now.wait and see. xD if dr soh really treat well my pimple. my god. i going to to thanks him a BILLON. i am desperate now.
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dear diary. todae i went school in a sweet mood- cause miss wong got *ask me y i didn't come* even though is just a small little tiny thing. but i am happy about tat. and i dun really hate miss wong tat much then. hahahs. xD yah. hmm . go sch. todae. bag very heavy good tat cyn ask her father come pick me up and i dun nid to TAKE BUS. i tok her father van- which hab air-con. wif kk . hahhas. xD thank cyn and her father.

then reach sch. first three to reach- i was so surprise- cause i first time like tat- hahahs. then tat chinese teacher come into the class- freak tell me do sumthing. sian lei. still ask me : are you my class? u dun look like. wa. then i was sort of -_-" . then parade square pass miss fong MC . hahhas. so proud. i THREE day never come. but then dunno how i going to catch up. not much la. miss wong is in a bad mood todae. - i dunno. i just feel tat she is in bad mood. hmm. oral - picture discription. blallalallas. xD then we hab chem next. not fun - practical not like practical. and i dun understand- result in three day never come school YENYEE miss me. hahhahs. xD recess. went to find low and ask him to teach me pressure. he dunno i three day never come liao xD maybe is not a big deal la. - i just hmm look BIG the whole thing. xD . ahya. then chia rush toward me. gib me answer to the question liao lo. xD hmm. then i pass him my e-math book. he hmm sae lots of things la. i forget wat he is saeing. but sumthing like wat happened to me blabaals. xD all this la. hmm. but then i still dun like him. then after tat biology lesson. go through test paper. xD my bio result dropped. ahya. xD STUDY harder. then miss foong told us alot of things to encourage us. all tat la. then math lesson. - i was very so anxious. i chiong gragh. i plot 4 times still cannot see. then chiong then mr chia sae Liling u dun nid to rush. take ur time. tml hand in also never mind. slowly. somewhere there. i so malu. i just shake my head and then dun even dare to turn my head to him. so malu. then hmm. humanties. TEST. ahya. then i tell myself dun crap so much. but i cannot help but keep crapping. wa. too much crap. not good. cause soruce based cannot crap one. hmm . kies la. i wanna end here.

i dunno if i am really too over-senstive or wat la. wat *the person done is like hmm . biased towards me. dun seem tat *the person is as good as other ppl. i dunno la. i KEEP thinking back and back lo. and gib excuse tat it is onli human normal reaction. all these. blablabla. but then i still cannot persuade myself. how lo. ahya. i dun wanna to be like one-sided onli. then very malu like tat lei. and turst me. the person will not sae out de if he is really up to tat *thing tat i am thinking la. i dunno. i will do more things to draw conclusion. but i still cannot persuade myself la. cause it like wat i notice is those very small tiny little thingy de. is VERY lo. i dunno. i wanna to shout out the name- ******
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THANK YOU CYNTHIA YILING MARCUS JASMINE KOK KEONG CHONG WAI ZUI YOUNG HELENA miss WONG mr KOH mr CHIA who hab help me during thid three days mc and thanks you guys for ur concern. ~ if i miss anyone out. pls tell me .

dear diary~ lallas. i am back to update liao. TODAE I NOT IN SCHOOL again. at home so sian. i decided to go school todae de. but then last night my fever gone up AGAIN. and then needa msg mr govin again. i wonder will he think tat i was tricking him anot. hmm. i hear from cyn lots of things about school. and math homework lots of them. yestrerday she past me homework. morning i was looking and doing through - i still noe much la. biology. noe how the semi-lunar valve did BUT i dunno the liver part. - i dunno CHEM. tml chiong chem- after school go look for mr koh. yah. back to noraml AGAIN. need to see mr chia face evryday AGAIN. sianns. and i hear tat teachers miss me- cnanot put in this way la. lots of teacher ask me y i never come to sch. hmm. yah. i wonder how the morning flag rising~ hear tat it checking ur fringe ad skirt. xD . tml i must go fake fake also liao. xDhmm. morning rush homework. i still habing fever . ish onli tat i ate the medicine and the fever is down. ~ later going to meet up cyn again to do homework together. must reach home by 7 or my fever coming up AGAIN. tml going to bring pills to sch. AND YAH . i swallow 6 PILLS in the morning todae. it kind of freak me out. tml i needed swallow tat again. haxis. - two fever- 2 antiboditic - 2 pimples medicine. disgusting. sort of freak me out. kies. end here. a boring boring post indeed. but it not boring afterall. cause for the past 2 days.i was so bored at home- i decided to take picture of my house which i find it MESSY MESSY MESSY.i will post the photo when i am FREE. thsi time sick because i play too much ms and blogging liao.
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~dear diary. i come and update liao. despite my temperature is rising. i still come and blog lo. so loong never blog was sort of miss it la. two day never go school. yah. let start saeing last lat night. went back to see doctor soh again. this week i going to see him TWICE. dunno be happy or wat la. yesterday go there my tempeearture was higher - i hab to wait till my mother come home - so the condition become worse. my mother crap alot wif tat doctor. and then hmm. i was too tired and my sore throat was too pain. - so i dun hab notice much about him. too bad i will see his eyes on sunday again. i onli noe he wore a PINK collar shirt la. tat all. hmm. got THREE days of MC. three days. todae wanna to go sch. but too bad. my mother sae cannot. i dunno i wanna go school anot tml. - looking at my condition. and i will CHIONG my studies once i return to sch. i hear peeps here and there tat bio and math cham. not ONE ppl sae. ish LOTS ppl sae. -_- start to feel uneasy. going to find chem teacher to teach me on thursday or friday ba. xD i was freaking boring at home and my hand was at HIGH temperature. i was sleeping and sleeping and sleeping. very sian. THANK CYN AND YL. yah. yesterday cyn pass me the homework and I DUNNO how to do sum. did anyone miss me in sch?. who called me todae.? the phone start wif 68 de.
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dairy diary, iam sick todae. xD bad bad day. la. hmm. i went to school. - found out tat my temperature was 37.5 i went home. reach home my temperature wat 38. xD went to sleep. FIRST ONE call my father- and u he sae u wana run away from school har? the moment i heard- was was DAMN hurt la. -_- even though i keep complainm to him how bad my sec life was. - i will also not be so follishto run away from school. sian- first time see my msn messengers no peeps online. for the entire fuhua-ians and same age as me de ppl. - tat bad. then yah. i go home- every fuhua-ian walking to sch stare at me. - i hate the feeling la. then at home- my father come back from night shift - reach home scold me first - cannot stand la. then my mother call. she was MORE caring. - she ask me. and i hear from kk tat best is go back to tat dr soh there- big eyes. agfain. so later then go take mc from him- i wonder will he gib anot- if will not i hab to write parent letter. - xD best he gib la. ten actauilly wanna call marcus bring me see doctor but then i suddenly rmb he went to downtown todae. du n wanan spoil his day- at night then msg him la. i msg jasmine liao. xD hahahs. i hab to wait until 5 plus then can go see doctor when my mother reach home from work.xD bad bad bad. hab to stand the high temperature la. - this time the fever is DAMN odd lo. even though it may be disgusting - but i still hab to sae. i put the thermoter in my mouth is shows 38 then i put my thermoter AGAIN in my armpit* it show 36.9 confuse me. i dunno i habing fever anot. kies la. i end here liao. xD - dunno tml got go sch not. i was very irrated when i saw the a math notebook on my table-> needa do if i going to school tml . freak. hate to do homework. and i go KAJIAO cyn. sorri ar. i was too bored at home- ven though she reply very slowly- but at least she got reply. - i ask her bring my e-math book to me. and she agreed. thank CYN. xD
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i am back to update liao. y my tagboard alway so abondoned de. come on guys. pls come and tag lei. xD haix. kies. hmm . lots of ting to update.

yesterday was mL birthday right. as u seen the beginning of the post. yah. hahhas. this year was a different celebration- everything keep it to sweet and short. and most importantly . it SIMPLE. hahahs. hmm. later show u guys wat i takened yesterday. hmm. stay overnight at mL house. went his house at 10pm. i will never be so brave to step out of my cosy little house at 10. so he come fetch me la. we take bus. then got one aunt keep looking at me and mL. dunno y. maybe she found it wired la. y so late stil there. and then he start blowing candles at 11.55. tat was not so accurate then. but i hear tat jasmine and jason hab earlier on celebrate his birthday too. so he hab 3 CAKES. wa. tat good lo. hahahs. xD then stay overnight. his dad and mother came home at 11am i think. went down greet them. so nervous. the first word they ask me is - you wanna extra mattress for the night. too numb to speak anything la. xD shock dao. afterall.-they are not so mean as i think. hahahs. and then i sleep in marcus bedroom. we are innocent. we did nothing other than sleeping. hor. JASMINE.poking on his things AGAIN. more and new interesting stuff. - and i can lend some of his funky funky pants to ym. hahahas. xD. yah. actaully the cake was in disgusting state la. we dun eat much- onli eat two little peice. the rest was used to play- waste food. xD . then chat chat chat chat. - i saw marcus BABY PHOTO. so funny and his primary six photo too. hahahs. i was laugh out loud lo. xD hmm* and then no choice i hab to take out my baby photo- which is passport size to let him see. - he too. see LOL. and start laugh. yahs. hmm . chat lots la. lalallalallas. ~ bad and good things. and studys and life. and afterall we make a life-long promise- hahahs. hope the promise is alway remain. xD hmm . then when to brush my teeth and then sleep at 3 plus. i think. xD and yah. JASMINE- stop patting my head like a dog. hahahs. xD even though i like it quite lots. but u making my hair messy- xD pls tolerate me. xD and then yah. sleep til l10 plus i think - and then i woke up see tat marcus still lying him his king-sized bed- SO i go tickle him - and he wake up too. BAD. i am evil. hahhas. then went to eat breaskfast tat his aunt may cooked. hmm. then i was sent home = cause i am too tired la. wanna sleep. x( dun really sleep well. now like going to fever. then after tat meet cynthia up. went cut hair. bad bad bad. i tye up was like left onli few strands of hair lo. NO HAIR LEFT. the fringe is nice. - but it dun suit me cause of my pimple face. x( pathetic. tml i dun noe go school how liao. xD and cynthia cut her fringe . her fringe is just all rigth NOT TOO SHORT la. can can can. dun be too worried. xD











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brought a newbie t-shirt for him . xD the price tag is THERE too. i take it awayxD
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hey. i am back to update liao. YAH. todae ish 8 april 2006 . hmm. i hab 18 days never update liao. hahahs. cause todae ish mL birthday LOL. i purposely 18 days earlier dun wanna to post de. this marks that he is 18 this year. hor. grow old liao. hahahs. xD
HAPPY BIRTHDAY mL.
hahahahs. such a long long time nevr update liao. so this entry i am going to crap lots lo. got up and downs. PASSER-BY . pls dun get offended. sorrie. i wanna to vent my anger out. so long never post blog. sort of not very adpated to it la. hahahs. so if peep wif no patience. just skipped this entry lo. i going to start scolded and venting out my anger lo.

this 18 days. i dun really leave well. life is not so good afterall. kies. let start from the speech day. speech day. i was in malaysia. show u some pictures. xD





so. wat if i am in malaysia. also no much help lo. a loner LILING la. i feel damn uneasy during the cultural night tat time. dun really ahb the mood to play though. i still rmb. it was bbq buffet that day. but i dun eat much. i keep looking at the watch. those who is not as close as me de will ask me if i hab anything on. but it good that jasminejust help me answer NO. everyone in the sch then. and i was not. some do cip so band and co. yah. performing group. y am i surrounded wif so many performing group. this make me more and more left out lo. wat so good about begin in the performign group? yah. some ppl maybe cause interested. as i sae above PLS dun get offended. y am i stuck in this sch wif so many ppl performing group lei. i usually hab to go home myself during mondays. tat irrated me alot. even though it no BIG deal for me to go home myself. but it a BIG deal to me on monday. because i noe. on monday ppl in those performing group will stay back. yah. but who can i blamed. i didn't chose the cca in the first place. freak. and back . speech day and cultural night. that loong loong night hab past. and when i come back from malaysia. which was pretty early. mL & me went for buffet at sukura. yah. later he keep me informed wif tat *girl. freak. dunno she will go to such a extend. and then the whole journey i keep quiet. VEry quiet. and show mL my fcuking attidute lo. xD SORRIE mL. i was not angry wif u. i jsyt feel very uneasy. yah. and i was really thinking wat to do at that time. xD past past past liao. nah mind. kies.

then the sunday. - mean last sunday. i went to see MR THAM KOK KOENG de doctor. which is at the dr soh family clinic. that one is a skin specialist. yah. went in wif my mother. and i was sort of "glued" to his eyes. his eye is so big and bright. wa. cnanot resist his eyes. he help me face up . tilted here and there which i dun like it. and then use magnifying glass and see my pimples. and found out tat i am very SERIOUS. he decided to gib me a very very very very strong medicine. which is purple in colour. sweet-smelling. and nid to sign the form one. luckily kk told me before. or i wll be shock to see tat. yah .here . i wanan thank THAM KOK KOENG. for not thinking me very troubleosme. cause i asked him a lot of question hope he visited my blog. i bet so long never updated. it abondoned. xD .then my lip started to break. i dunno is becasue of the medicine or cause i eat too much heaty things. but it sure that my lip break. ALOT too. and my pimple did nto seem much lesser. but look worst. everyday i see my pimple i start saeing to myself. my in the hell am i so troublesome. people around me does nto really hab any pimple problem but i hab. tat bad. xD stupid. and i stop going faacial. i making a bet. hope i succed this time. or i will be CRYING out loud. i am WAT i am . i am a girl who wannas flawless skins on my face and step the *** down on my feet. because they are very realistic. yah. stop saeing. - i am realistic too. xD pimple ppimple. 4 years of pimples life and it taste bitter and very bitter. i going back to see the doctor next week. look forward to his EYES.











the following moirning. morning. was the most loong mornign. go parade square mdm oen start saeing things on cultural and speech day. i hae it. and then friends around me start chatting. kies. seriously. i am balming them. i noe is unreasonable. but i can't help me. but tat dsay. i think i was too happy tat i went to see the pimple doctor so my mood was liek. - quite good. i wondered. if my mood was very bad i would just sae - shut up pls. xD but then i didn't. xD ahya. just liek tat . i hear everywhere saeng how good is the cultural night and all this. but then is my fault tat i go malaysia not to do cip . but i bet. even if i go cip. i dun really hab a wonderful time there. doing cip. is fun . - but without close friends around. is not fun. and NEVER fun. i need to do 3 hours of cip. i think so. hope i not the onli one doing? the performing group. but to the worse. onli one TOH LILING From class 3c doing- i duno wat to do liao. xD then lesson over. i was about to go back to school. when mdm siti sae about geograpghy project. walau. hai me stay there do do until i terrible headache lo. dunno y la. xD ahya. i dun like it lo. and then ym and kok Leong was disscusing about tat cca coucil thingy. it was fun in orangising. it not lengleng. i like it. but too bad i was not nomintated to be inside the cca council.and then i wanan to tell mr chia. but i dun dare. i ask desmond for suggestion - he sae will be rejcted. and then tat make me lose confidence. but then tat day we decided to help out in the taiwan thingy as ym sae need helper. so was enthu. ahya. then in the end dun hab - i was totally DISAPPOINTED wif it. but then i mentally perpared for it. u will not belive it. - the night before i dream about tat. and then i woke up from tat nightmare. wen tschool. yy tol,d me tat. i was disappointed then. first- becausei never help out - second because of myself. i am totally DISPPOINTED IN MYSELF about nto joinging the cca council. and they organising the sport carnival next. xD and i can't help out. bad bad bad. i am wired. dunno y. when i had a chance to organise things last year. i hate to organise. - but this year i hab not take part in anything- and then i start to miss the day. xD - treasure it when u got it. and that day- i also ask sumone *Sumthing. if u guys got notice my nick .- one time i got a nick tat is - i dun gib a damn if u hate me. i onli gib a damn when u influence other. TAT right. i hate her for pointing me fingers at my back. telling everyone who is near her* about how she hate me and everything. hate me just sae. i dun mind to let everyone in class 3c or even the whole level to noe u hate me. it not a bad thing either. and then just stop pointing fingers at me me me when i dun even o about tat thing. can u jsut reflect on urself on wat *GOOD* things u hab do. xD i hate lot of verison. and i duno which one is right and which one is wrong. which one is acting just to entertain TOH LILING. but i cannot blame them either. if i was them. i would act too. it is common sense. but then i noe who the mastermnd. just stop it pls. i hab FRIENDS around to tell me wat u guys are doing lo. xD stop gossiping os much behind my back. GOSSIp can. - i understand, cause i also like to gossip. but dun overdo it pls. i hab do LOTS of reflection on myself. - i noe i am wrong and unreasonable sometimes and i can sincerely apologise to u guys. just stop it. and yah. i just came out of the bath room and start saeing again. it a long pos. so will be taking a loong loong time. and freak. at shower. i think of oen thing- bonding. this word BONDING is so commonly used but ti a stranger to me. bonding comprise of two parties trying to bond together. but if only one party make the effort in bonding. the other is not. - no use bonding . even tat ** ** is not bonding. alway taking the same people. ahya. i hate it la. my is like tat ar. am i alway looking at the bad side or wat? . sec 1 life was good sec 2 life was ok sec 3 life is bad wat about sec4 life worst. i dare nto think so fast. just think of the gradutating day. and i will go to singapore poly and take tat mangment course where no one noe me. - tat it. - or maybe it will not be so good afterall. i need to overcome my father's idea first. i was now thinking . - who in the class is as leng leng as me. ? no one LOL. stupid. can anyone gib me sumthing to do especially to occupy my monday so tat i will not feel very pathetic of my life in fuhua secondary school. and so as NOT to let me feel leng leng too? . pls

i venting everything and everything out. xD . hate my life. - and i wanna end it too. - bs sae if wanna end my life also wait till my pimple problem is treated. yah- it corrected. wait till my face is nicer. i think i live for 14 + year now. i wasted. 4 years of "thinking of my pimple" . and tat the longest one. - i hab to make it come ture FIRST. i am WAT i am. - i am materialistic and i die die also ai mei one.- evn though i am not beautiful. tuesday my terrible headache continue. tuesday go cca. u noe wat . it so leng leng ever lo. i go there 2 hours. as the teacher in charge of us never come- we HAVE nothing to do. so we sit there chat for 2 hours. wif mich and mei xin. she is good. i love mei xin . hahahs. xD . and then go back. - the teacher sae at least u come here get ur attendance mark. freak. - i join cca is nto becasue of attenedance mark hor. even if there is NO ATTENDANCE MARK. - if i like the cca. i will GO . is WILL. and i will make it MUST for me. wednesday too.

yah. wednesday. my brother birthday. the cake is below. not much thing happened. i duno if it happened on wednesday not. o is monday. i think. monday so many thigns happened. monday was mr koh. we WENT HOME togetehr. take the same 99 bus. he was good. -and i LOVE him now- dun think anyhow. is the student and teacher - he alway think tat myname ish liting. wa. i am LILING. kies. xD liting liting. xD mr koh is good. and yah DARREN was good too, just as wat ym comment about darren. - i was quite ok wif him already. he teaches me chemistry even though he gib me a very sacastic remarks. and then hmm. he sit beside me hor. at first he sit one seat waay from me. then slowly. he sit beside me. the chair beside me lo. hahahs. he is good. - he dun really bother about last time* so i also going to be kind and dun bother tat too. -i feel so guilty now for being so narrow- minded. physic test. i score not bad la. even though i score rank in the middle of the class. but i was satified. ahya. this paragraph. mixed la. xD and yah. i hate *her for being so biased toward boys. biased a bit still can la. xD but then she like very biased LOL . wa. see he - i wanna cry liao. xD ahya. stop picking on other ppl - Liing. u are not so good either. and then hmm . let see. yah. i draw a sad face on the emath workbook - beside the title. then math teacher point the arrow ask me y frown and if i dun understand the topic or wat. i feel like saeing- cause i see ur homework i wanan sleep. ya. cannot belive . he got go and notice the face i draw on the mood one. xD . pls dun get offended.





















yah it wednesday night tat make me hab tat nightmare and it come true. my dream ALWAY COME TRUE. and i hate to dream.

thursday. - my sad day. taiwan people come. they are very shy. yah , i noe. coming into somewhere no one noes de. sure shy. they are cute. and i think our class guys are VERY excited in seeing the three girls. but i am also VERY excited to see the guys. -> since i see so many cute guys from taiwan before. ahya. dun get offended pls. xD and then saw the cca council leave to help out- sadness filled me AGAIN. and tat day. SORRI KENNETH. i was arguing wif him . xD and then like tat la. - he may or may not see it la. xD but then i write a sorri there is better. AT LEST i got sae sorri. - IRRESPONSIBLE girl out here. friday. i went home early too. the band is perforing for the taiwanese tat day. which is yesterday night. ym called me. he sae sorrie to me for showin attidute. got meh? he sae the afternoon one. i almost forget. i dun treat it as showing attitude la. cause i no clearly MYSELF hab more worset attitude than him. and he sae he found out tat i getting sianner and sianner everyday. yah tat true. told him. everyday i go sch - everyday i see same teacher- especially the math teacher - which i hate maths - everyday do boring lesson - everyday after school nothing to do. - everyday see ppl go cca and HOW busy they ar- and everyday reflect on how TOH LILING is so free and going home everyday . i dread tat feeling and my life. tat make me sianner and sianner. so dun irrated me. - i will be very easily irrated this few days. and guys. pls see the music beside. i atek alo of effort in getting the code for the songs.