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#life
I am not positive &funny.
I just made myself appear to be.
I guess sometimes its to mask my real sadness in my heart;
my worries
my dismay
because I am proud
so proud that I cannot stand myself
Fight or flight?!
I always chose flight
I will always shut off / place a protective shield if I senses that theres trouble
#lucashonda

A story to share
5 people entered the company at the same period
After two years......
1 first quit
2 got sort of promoted and internal change of job
1 then quit and decide to head back to japan
1 was seconded to thailand and then eventually quit....

Really, I started to wonder, after two years ,how will my batch people be?
Promote one promote
quit one quit
thats life......


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 today seriously i had a bad day
#Seniority
1. being inside an event committee with two experience people. the chairman constantly reminding & kept telling you " supporting role suporting role . they ask question, you just need to take pictures" . maybe its harmless. but back in my heart, my translation is " doing the saikang"
#seniority
2. being asked in a aggressive manner when you sent an email to them just to keep up with the progress. like wth?

3. brazil business going to close. I really have no motivation to continue with this business
4.#lucashonda
I end work at 5.45pm sharp. Reached home before the sun is down. & then i thought " when is the last time i was like this?"

I hope all these de-motivation will go & please work hard & support and proof yourself.
buck up buck up
screw that chairman

today my friend told me " you will be a good career women"
i replied " no i dont want"
my friend: "then what do you wanna be? "
i replied " a good person"

sometimes its really so hard to be like that. A demotivated self.
I am working hard to be a good person, be it with my business partner or friends.
i am so tired , tired
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I went into work today, still feeling disheartened by the big bomb news
But at the same time, i kept reminding myself not to put in my emotions & feelings anymore.
I dont know what things should i followed up & what i should not follow up.


that's the best expression now because i dont want myself to sink into a "no floor hole", if you translate it back to chinese........................
To admit, i struggled a bit because i dont know/wonder & ponder how should i face this news.


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 My brasil business is gotta closed down. It's like crumble. Sorry, I know I am being emotional. You know, it's my first country, you put in a lot of effort , learning business culture/nature of people , bring comfortable about the people &&&
After all that
The bomb email came. For huge tax rebates
Yeah
Tax rebates  :( :( :(


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because everything happens for a reason.
#dontblameothers
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Today i went to the dental & have my cap put on  top of my screw.
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I think i become less cheerful.
I looked into the mirror & i actually wondered why am i look so unhappy.


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because the sky & the ground really split so define

#shouldiaddfriendonfbanot dilemma
i did some soul searching in my emails.


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Hahhahahah! got a shocked?

After three days of hoilday/ playing , slow pace feeling, i got damn sian to head back to work today. Need to start the momentum again.

Today morning i have this crazy idea. I thought i was crazy
But i need to be crazy
come on please.
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I started to realise that alot of people around me only know how to work. It's like we spend to much time to work till we are practically:

working to live
not
live to work

Sometimes i have this feeling from myself too. Work hard during your job is your responsibility, but the problem is sometimes there's too much work stacking on top on you that you need to work longer than expected. Or perpahs throw almost most of your time at work.

But once you do not have work, you end up thinking a sense of ___________. I dont know how to describe. but definitely, this is something i need to go learn how to brush up!

I signed up for an interesting volunteer activity today that i am really interested in! But i am not sure if i will be selected because it require interview session..........................,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,...................................................
As we all know, sometimes the society works in a way that you are interested but yet you cant get it.

Let's leave it to my fate.
bye
I love you.