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Saturday, January 31, 2015, 10:58 AM

i think i am incompetent in my job. :(
i dont like to have war whenever i opened my mailbox.
Some peace please.

Wednesday, January 28, 2015, 8:50 PM

A really bad news dropped down today in the office. - My group leader received news that my Brazil business most probably will broke off our business tide with us. I read the email that i wasn't cc inside. It was a simple email but it's pretty bad one and definitely have a huge impact on me.

I dont know why, maybe i put too much emotions in my work or perhaps that's the first country that i handled, it kind of made me felt at loss. Like, i tried to understand all aspect of the business nature, business route ( pardon me, no one understands what i was talking about ) , quotation reviews, culture, dealing with people that i need to work with, country but in the end....... its more of like all the effort you put in gone down to zero.

Will I be jobless? I dont know

But i really need to reflect on myself because i think i really put too much of my emotions into my work. Most importantly, what attitude should i continue to faced with my Brazil business everyday? when i walked home today, i just thought this battle is lost before i can even fight. because there's nothing much i can do about it. It all boils down to the top management, again.

See only during work, i understand how powerful emails can be.
&& look, how work totally affect my emotions now.
come on, work is just work. please get this into my mind

Saturday, January 24, 2015, 8:12 PM

I supposed its been a lonnnng loooong time that i lazed at home the whole day.

No work, ok, i admit i checked and read emails ( as per mentioned my previous email, i cannot put down) No work means didnt go back to the company. hahhahaa!

i did some reflection & I thought i put too much emotions in my work. I shouldnt be like that. I need to stay objective.Its really hard.
when the time comes, it will come. Just do focus and do your job scope well. I fell in love with my best friend? Lucas, Lucas, Lucas
if you ever know this joke.

Thursday, January 22, 2015, 9:15 PM

Probably my closer working mates. HAHHAHAA.
Anyway, nowadays i start to wonder if it is worth to sacrificed your private life just for your work life. I mean, i know that your work can just pile up till you cant breathe because i am experiencing it sometimes. It's like, i don't konw. whyy are we all somehow pushing away dates/ getaways just because of work? cannot take mc, no time, tight deadline , cannot put down... & other etc.
Like, come on, we all know work is never ending. But i admit i am guilty for it. Especially when i am working in a industry where it never sleeps / stop even during Christmas or probably Chinese new year. I can't help but to check my email sometimes before sleeps & perpahs the first thing when i wake up in the morning. Why?
Just one sentence,
"My heart cannot put down the weight"
as though i directly translate to chinese.
Sometimes, i wonder if my brazil & Eu counterparts feels these way too. because my industry never sleeps.
the world is round, everyone living in different timezone, different culture, ships sail no matter what day it is...trade happened...

Sunday, January 11, 2015, 9:17 PM

If something are meant to be, it will happen somehow. You don't need to push, you dont need to fret because when times come, things will fall together in a way. I really think like this nowadays. is this good or..
I am becoming more passive?

Saturday, January 03, 2015, 9:30 PM

the best thing is to accept it. because probably you yourself is changing too.

, 9:18 PM

"Passionfruit white chocolate buttermilk waffle with vanilla ice-cream topped with strawberries & grated coconut"
sound nice right? It is damn sour, I dont ever want to eat again. The strawberries are sour, the passionfruit sauce was sour. I was desperately sweeping away the sour sauce, like seriously.
Nowadays, i have deep interest in brazil, as a country. When my friend tell me about numbers in three-s, the first thing i came to mind is " what is this car model? " LOL . i think i'm kinda crazy , corolla, efc, imv & lotsa.
LOL sometimes i really hope if my parents can be not that traditional. but it's okay! jiayou. :) everything gonna be fine
Someone told me, " you can try to buff the whole world even yourself, but when your heart feel sad/uncomfortable then you know the truth."
One of the new year resolution for myself was perhapss, I need to learn to be more truthful to myself. I can bluff other people with a smile but i know i can't really pass through my own heart.