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crap.
This job teaches me not to be unhappy about things that is out of your control.
I wont say i mastered it, but at least I am trying to master.
Sometimes, if you know more things, it might be good because you are mentally prepared. But sometimes, knowing more things can add on to more stuffs to worried.
I dont know what is good or bad.
I overheard sometihing, but not complete. I hope that they are not referring to me.
because if it is,
then
shit.
there's major change in my job.
& i reject want to reject this change.
But I am worried that its not up to me to decide to reject or accept it.
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because in life, you only live once.
& i am determine not to leave any regrets.
at least, try my best to leave as little regrets as possible


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when we are complaining about other people, 
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has my face looks older?
or
more 憔悴？
or
have i 太くなる？
or looks more like an OL?
lots to express about my job but i didnt want to because i am still adapting to the jobscope.
till now, i still felt lucky that i got this job which is totally out of my faculty, seeing how my manager reject the people who came over for the interview.

"Pulling away is natural, it keeps us from getting hurt. Sometimes we have to do that for self preservation"
i saw this on an online forum & I thought it was so fcuking true. It applies to alot of aspect in my life now. be it, career, love, friendship . because everyone's life is continuously changing
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it's been three weeks after i started  my job. like it's really my full time job. there's still alot of culture thingy that i havent gotton used to. and i tried to reflect constantly today. its really complicated. i don't really able to figure out clearly now.

but, i know for sure,i am trying to act too cheerful nowadays too much that i felt more terrible  and exhausted nowadays.

colleagues are colleagues and they wont be your friends. with this thought, i have another layer of wall placed in front of me.
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我在很努力的带着笑容一个人走我的路。


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omg. i think i am really weird and just weird.
I like older guys.

my older guys define as age 10-20 & above.
OMG
& i am 23 now.
do your mathematics and you know how weird i get

OMG