Looking through the sweden/europe photo.
the short daylight time, the freezing cold temperature, the knee-height snow, the swedes, the flexible education, the discussion, the slow pace, the freedom of expression, the red houses, the cinnamon buns, the fika, the work-life balance, the passion...
where the fcuk have all belief in flexibility and freedom of speech gone to?
Now i myself even look down on myself.
I <3 Sweden!
Today I get some shit from one of my friend. Well, it isn't actually a shit.
Usually, I will get really irritated if I bumped into such a thing.
But today, I am just a little pissed off at the beginning.
then
nothing
.
?
Friday, August 29, 2014, 11:07 PM
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Now that i think of the xxx, I don't feel much anymore
I started to feel neutral. It's like i don't feel very peace but yet I somehow feel peace.
Either it's getting better,
or..
I am just too disheartened or my heart just died.
But i am glad i don't feel much
I rather my heart just died from all the emotions than to be back it used to be.
I am such a timid asshole.
I am afraid to bet.
because i am afraid of losing
Thursday, August 21, 2014, 11:22 PM
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emotionless?
i am feeling a little freak out by myself now.
because thats the first time i encountered like that
, 4:31 PM
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I finally understood where my peace came from.
The once irritating guy that i used to think , isn't irritating anymore.
The unfairness,the being cheat feeling, the pissed off, the anger, the 无奈 i met during life isn't there anymore.
That's not peace, but rather, emotionless.
I sat at a corner of a cafe, feeling emotionless.
Emotionless inside yet living a normal life from outside.
I don't deny, i can even teh a guy now.I got a shocked myself yesterday
, 11:48 AM
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簡単な言葉だけど、私が理解できない。
理解できれば、自分の人生はうれしくになってきますした。
, 11:35 AM
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Today I woke up in the morning.
I felt exceptionally peace. I don't know why. But just peace.
Like your heart died and you can't feel much stuffs. like everything in your life that you are holding on doesn't matter now.
On a brighter side, I dont feel sad/stress nor miss.
But on the dark side, it kind of scared the hell out of me.
I know, for now, I am enjoying this peace. I controlled my mind in the way that I don't want to think so much.
I would rather become an emotionless person for now.
Monday, August 18, 2014, 9:23 PM
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Why is my life keep tumbling ?
What I wanted doesn't come, but what i don't want keep coming.
I wonder what the fcuk have i done nowadays.
& I have no idea how long i can stand up-right on the ground like now.
I grew so sick & tired of my motions nowadays.
or in the first place,
it doesn't belong to me at all? can someone tell me what are the things that exactly belong to me ?
, 9:17 PM
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私の夢は、何ですしょうが？
もう諦めた？
厳しい現実だ
今日は本当についてない日
Saturday, August 16, 2014, 9:56 PM
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That's my favourite action I love to do now.
How pathetic.
Wednesday, August 13, 2014, 4:02 PM
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i always get very stressed up by social expectations,
Happy Graduation! ( really happy?!) hahaha!
I look really happy in this photo. :) :)
but still lost on my future.
But thank you my friends/family that always been around and tolerate my bullshit.
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