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Monday, September 27, 2010, 4:45 PM

i think one of my friends is so good at bootlicking.

& i am so disgusted by it. { to be honest }

she certainly noe how to draw connections with the helpful ppl.

Sunday, September 26, 2010, 9:25 PM

this picture was taken sooooooo long ago, but cynchong just tag me. HAHHA.

okay, i just watch finish a japanese drama &&& then i feel so unsatisfied because the plot was good, but the ending was so weird. i couldn't link everything together ne! and i feel so -.- when i did't catch wat they are talking. like totally sometimes, maybe bcause of the vocab they used or something like that. after the waseda uni exchange trip,i thought what i learn was so minium, like a fish in the sea. (sounds weird but... ) but seriously, i want to learn japanese well, to handle it well, to talk well, i squeeze out time to do the homework. the speed of the class is getting faster! :D

i want to do jlpt , but i have no confident to do so. :(

tohliling, please be smart!

, 3:40 PM

if you are so not going to like ur leader, you are going to feel very dismay.

but u gotto learn to cope with it though. :D because maybe he might not like you too!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010, 10:29 PM

{i think the japanese guy beside me is :D HAHHA }

anyway. i think i smoked my way thorugh during the YEP interview today. i thought i won't be so nervous because i am very tired already. but who noes, i got nervous and started to )(*$(*%& and speak un-normally in from of 3 interviewers! OMG. 3! i don't expected to be so many.

anyway. now i understand why so people in university went to join certain activities alone. because there's so many activities u can join in uni, and it's very tired to keep asking ppl to join with you. &&& u can get very tired when the closer friend of urs have a different character as u. -.- especially when u are at a totally frequency as you. u will get to left alone in sch sometimes. -.- this is so frustrating.but what can i do?! to learn to apdat i guess. and getting stressed out in sch. i have friends / tons of uni friends tat are so freaking clever, they may be sleeping in lecture, but actaully they noe what it is going on. so scary. i feel so bad for not listening in lecture today because everyone's doing so. feel so interior when u don't noe how to do a math tutorial question because everyone u noe seemed to noe how to do it, feel so guilty for not doing ur tutorial during the weekends. u have to count on urself, there's no one to rely on. or i should simply say, there's no one that u can rely. or maybe i am just as over-sensitive as i used to be. maybe i gone a far too much lazy after the A levels, where i don't have the pressure that " I NEED TO MAKE IT " in my head. no motivation. i was talking to kc today, he was saying about the education system too. yah, we somewhat think alike but then in some way, different.

Monday, September 20, 2010, 9:49 PM

Waseda University ( JAPAN) exchange programme with NTU! :D
okay. i am happy, honoured, proud to be inside this exchange programme trip! HHAHAH.
bringing japanese around singapore, from kampong glam, arab street, chinatown, clarkquay, marina square.... okay it's a hot day everyone was very tired. but still fun! :) and most importantly i can speak japanese to them! hahaha. but sadly, the japanese don't understand my japanese. this is sad. -.- SUPER SAD. then i was wondering if i am studying japanese intermediate II. maybe i dind't get to practice much japanese, only learn the theory part, that's why.idk. but well, i think the students are really very very very funny. { if u noe them well btu they can be very shy at first, } okay so, that's how i burnt off my weekends, and send them off at the airport on sunday!hahah. it's a great experience, this is the first time i did this, been wanted to do this kind of event last time.

but back to reality. when i went back to sch,seeing so many of my friends asking" HAVE YOU DO UR TUTORIAL...... " i totally sian-ed. okay, i think i am getting too playful.
and sometimes, i don;t noe i should envy or get jealous with people. :( it's just tat i got so inferior, even though i always try to persuade myself tat "everyone is good in their own way. ":(((

Friday, September 17, 2010, 10:58 PM

finally weekend came. i am very look forwaed to tml! because i am able to meet the japanese. i hope i have a chance to talk to them! { because i miss the bonding session with them today! } but well! this is so gonna be my first time talking to japanese! :D { outside of work & lesson! } i think i will be bad at it. HAHAHA.

anyway, sch was very hectic. last time i rmb i used to grumble about the notes in jc not good && how i rmb hearing ppl commenting that some tutors are simply........ but well, when u reach uni, ironically, i find myself opening up my chem notes, math notes in jc to refer. lecturers in uni is very good in their subject that they don't really teach the basic stuffs. lectures, u can experience them skipping slides tat are considered very basic, and when i attend physics, i totally... because the lecture just jumped into the main point, assuming that u should already noe the basic. okay, sorry for grumbling again, i think i just have to learn to adpat to survive in the notes & lectures i am having to attend.

anyway, to be serious, uni i met a friend, a friend that really make me go gagagagaga on all the small little stuffs she/he did. :D even though we might be sarcastic to each other, sometimes naturally we went shy , sometimes he/she just hear my grumbled, sometimes he/she tolerate. sometimes, i just think we are on the right frequency, very right in fact.

but, looking forward to tml! will update mroe about japanese tml! i hope i won't be left out! japanese please come talk to me! :(

Wednesday, September 15, 2010, 11:05 PM

Lesson learnt today : the proper route is not always the route to walk, u have to go underground sometimes.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010, 9:07 PM

{sorry people, but this post might sound offendful for some people , but yah i am now supber angry and fustruating. }

i noe results are important,everyone is here for a degree. or maybe i came from a different jc background from other ppl. but seriously, i don't noe why. i hate to compare, complete with my peers when it come to acdemic stuffs. what i experienced till now was, you can really see a 180degree change when they come to studies. the change was so vast tat i was wondering in lecture today if "he is my friend anot". everyone in my course was so freaking smart. if u ask them if they have done their tutorial, they will say "no la, i only noe some, then not very sure." if u ask them u noe how to do...... no matter how hard the tutorials are, they could do, even right before the lecturer taught, they already noe how to do. last time, my friends only do the tutorials one day before, but in uni. it seemed like everyone doing 1 week before. can u imagine tat u have to do the tutorials even before the lecturer teaches. i am not tat hardworking & seriously i have a hard time to follow their ultra fast pace of studying. with the first lecture, people start making their notes, looking though the whole pile of thick reference book. i cannot imagine i myself inside this bell curve, the bell curve that i have to be in for the next four years. in lab, i was doing the washing part most of the times , because i didn't noe what to, what chemical to add. sometimes, i really wondered, wondered if there's something wrong is the grading system in our sch.

& lastly, what i need is friends in uni, not competitor.

Sunday, September 12, 2010, 10:47 PM

just heard something from jessica chan about uematsu sensei.

hope everything gonna be alright for her! :D

Friday, September 10, 2010, 8:40 PM

i didn't noe stella ng will see this anot, but i will make her see this! { what am i talking about}
eh! sorry, forget to wish u happy birthday! but u enjoyed ur day, i guess, saw it on fb. :)
i was busying adapting the new enviroment and having a bash at DXO then.
sorry about that stella ng, stella!!! :S

anyway. school getting very very scary. i don't noe if i am gettin parnoid about it anot. but there's definitely alot of things i need to handled. subjeects wise, i am still studying the typical sub i did in my sec sch/jc - physics { :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(} , chemistry, biology , maths for sem1. i am trying to adpat the new enviroment , the big sch whereby u will sweat just by walking to ur class venue, the busy canteen where u have to chop place agressively { HAHAHA }, the new people, the new friends, the new culture { it's definitely different from my jc }, walking to sch and sweat like mad when i reach the school, the way how notes are printed. && every single thing. there's a bank in my sch. :) okay, by reading from this paragraph, do u think i'm having a good time now? lol! i hope i am thinking alot, but i think i'm getting very sensitive nowadays, jumping on every single thing.

Saturday, September 04, 2010, 8:09 PM

"different people have different viewpoints. there's nothing much we can do but to learn to accept this even though sometimes it might be hard to do so."

i so missed my fulltime japanese class! really ! really ! really! and uematsu sensei, even though she always picked on me to answer question! OMG. i miss her alot ne! { sounds wrong .. but still } but i noe i couldn't go back to fulltime lessons already. jessica chan, joesphine chan. i guess, i can only try to adpat. sch starting, i 'm getting alittle bit nervous, parnoid already. maths, chem, phsyics are all coming back.

Thursday, September 02, 2010, 7:44 PM

hello! :D today was freshman welcome day! for both my faculty and also the school.
realise that ntu is big. and then some of my seniors told me that they have to carry the map around for the first week or u will get lost in the sch! OMG. anyway, there's the NTU , SPMS bash on thursday and i didn't noe if i should go anot. i noe my parents wouldn't allow. but see how. :)

okay, bye! sch starting next week. i am so unprepared for uni life. :(

Wednesday, September 01, 2010, 9:43 AM

happy teacher's day!

thank you for all teachers who had help me in anyway , to make sure TohLiling pull through her PSLE,O lvl, A lvl. thank you so much! :D

and i rmbed some teachers that put in extra effort to teach their students.

thanks! :)