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Wednesday, March 31, 2010, 8:03 PM

bloody monnnnnnnnnnnnday. i watched like 5 ep today!

going to watch the last one tml! supber nice. okay, adventurous. can make my heart pump faster. anywya, my brother from china called me & told me that he went to go for the 360degree roller coaster ride at china. i'have been wanting to do, but i didn't dare to. the idea of flipping myself 360degree scared me to hell.

anyway, i was broswing through some fourm that mention about how japanese guys/ japanese guys thinks about women in singapore. well, some contents are hilarous, but true. i was laughing in front of my computer though. hahaha. cause i'm been talking to masa san at work nowadays.

saying about work, tml i'm workign the whole day shift, from 9 to 9.30pm. going to be a tired one. been sitting around & meeting up with tanyy & yL for planning. anywya, nice to cjhat with tanyy & yL though, and not forgettting, cynthia lim! :) lol! kind of update each other's life a bit & stuffs.

anyway, people, i noe my blog is getting boring to many ppl. heh. so sorry! :)

because yesterday, i was chatting with xingyong on msn, xy { who usually read my blog } didn't noe why i will be in town on weekdays. -.- well, nevermind. i thought, my blog is seriously getting boring. so sorry people!

Tuesday, March 30, 2010, 10:18 PM

I AM SO TIRED NOW.
so sick & tired of the work.
watching bloodymonday season2 since i got home.
finally, tml is my day off. { after $#(&#($%& months. }
bye. :) i am going to sleep.

Monday, March 29, 2010, 9:57 PM

today was my last day at NUH work! I am working with Auntie Susuan today, she is a very very chatty person, and she was talking to me from 10 am to 5.30pm. -.- i was so so so so tired but i still have to try to talk with her. =/ well , last day at NUH was boring as usual, cause there isn't much sales today. hope everything went well with Auntie Susuan still! :)

&&&& after one month of endless working days, i finally finally finally finally finally finally able to have a day off! { which is on this wednesday! :) } actaully, i didn't want to go out to any place on wednesday. i just feel like staying home & do whatever stuffs i wanted to.

anyway., since Yuko called me just now, she made me become angry with that Sunshine & pissed off with Masa on sunday again. piang. seriously. i was tired, hungry & thirsty when i met up yiling at jp after work. -.-

anyway, was watching Bloody Monday Season 2! finally! i went to check & it's uploaded. the whole series had just aired finish in Japan { i think so! } was waiting for it to finish AIRING in japan because i hate waiting for every ep to come up. and the standard is sitll great after two years, with the orginal casts. :) ]

& i start to worried about my full time japanese course next month after yL told me how difficult it is. =/ scary &&& worst still, i'm going alone. & i 'm worried that i can't cope.

Saturday, March 27, 2010, 8:57 AM

didn't blog for quite sometime. =/ well, life been pretty busy nowadays. working at DON & NUH. meet up with tanyy, yL, celebrate birthdays & stuffs. { of course, this include good food! } HAHHAHA .

anyway, major changes in the month of April. i didn't noe why, Masa San accept my riduclous timetable for next month & allow me to take off days on Friday, Saturday & sunday. { i am going genting actually, but not now. } & i told jasmine that i am quiting the job at NUH. i went to sign up a full-time in japanese course in town area after considering for quite sometime { pretty worrried though } . so in conclusion, i am cutting down my working hours, need for more leisure time. &&& i am such a noob for online application stuffs. i made a lot of mistake & i have to do all the procedures to covre up my mistakes. ;( called xingyiong , and lihuan , and yL, and zm with an anxious voice. lol! && went chinatown to eat good food yesterday at the FOOD STREET with tanyy & cyn. gonna be busy planning a trip soon! :)

i think i am getting veryvery very very very very very very very very very very paranoid nowadays.

Saturday, March 20, 2010, 8:15 AM

u noe, bananana, i really think ur camera is worth buying! cause the quailty of pictures that came out is really great! hahaha.

okay, well, lots of stuffs happening here & there , beside work of course. but i didn't really blog much about though. :) i realise tat i am lagging behind huanny & xingyong in Resturant city in fb cause i have been too busy with work & couldn't log in. =/

anyway, why did i wake up so early?

because i had a bad dream over something at NUH. seriously, i totally freak out & have the urge to quit that job at NUH.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010, 8:46 PM

seemed like i didn't update my blog for quite a few days though.

didn;t have the mood to do so/ nor do i noe what i want to comment about

lots of stuffs happening, been thinking alot till i headache, having to cope with work, drawing up lots of plans. don't noe where i'm heading to, my aim & stuffs. all i noe is i need to make $$. at one end, i told myself to chose something i like, & at the other end , i told myself to chose something right. if u don't noe me well, i doubt u will understand how big the difference between my definitation of right & like.

job at NUH was pretty great, just that i dreaded the part about taking the free shuttle bus { well, tay yL should noe} very boring especially when sales isn't so great on that day. saw alot of nurses, doctors, patient, social worker, mixed feelings. &&&& threre's this Sunshine coming back to DON on saturday & i didn't noe how to deal with her, cause this sunshine ah, don't like to wash plates & then i will become a dishwasher again. piang. SERIOUSLY. when yL was msh me & complaining about masa san { yes, finally she realised} , && then i realise that i was too sick & numb to masa san's attitude /character that i don;t really care about him now. all i do, is to pray hard that april 16 will come soon & i don't get myself into any trouble. if my manager is igar san....

i don't noe why, this time . i have an urge to find ADMIN JOB.

can someone please please please offer an admin job to me?!

{finally, i am back to the mainstream thinking. }

back to reality, i'm working from 9 to 9.30 tml at DON. sigh.

Saturday, March 13, 2010, 9:27 AM

extracted from Cynthia Lím 's blog :
" There are two types of people i know

They do things without thinking. Eventually they used up half of their life regretting their actions.
They think too much before taking actions. Eventually , they did nothing in life because they spend half their life thinking. Just thinking, alone. "

i am the second type of people. seriously, i like to think alot and then sometimes thinking alot made me upset very easily especially when things aren't going on my way. i think alot of my actions because i fear that once i made a wrong move, i'll regret my life. i think alot because i don't want to make myself caught in an unexpected situation. i think alot because i 'm trying to make everything prefect as the way i wanted to be. like what xy told me in MSN yesterday, there's always endless things for me to worry. seriously, sometimes i think i'm alittle paranoid.{ is it used in this way?! idk. }

seriously, i still have no idea what course i am going to take in uni. all i think is whether i could get into the course with a bad grade in my GP &&&& everyone is striving very hard. everytime i want to choose tat course, i start to wonder about my GP. many decisions were made & people around me are moving on with their life. then i wondered on the train ride home:

WHAT THE HELL IS TOH LILING DOING NOW?

Friday, March 12, 2010, 8:48 PM

can someone please tell me if SMU only take A level students with good gp grades?!

seriously, i'm having a panic attack now.

Thursday, March 11, 2010, 11:23 PM

Happy Birthday Tan Yue Yin!

{ so fast. known her for like 6 years already ! }

today working was tuper shiok! cause i'm am working with Tay YL for the whole day. so she brought her stuffs here to do , and then eat lunch & dinner on time. and we can stand there and do nothing since masa san have a off day today. okay, i just realise that i will be changed to the morning shift next week. and i don't noe how to schedule my job at NUH.

but something pretty worried me now,

my friends those i am pretty close with me,already noe what they are going to choose for their uni / how they are going to move on with their life. YET i don't even have a single clue about what i am going to do. seriously, i don't noe what to choose or what are my directions for now. seeing how beesuan & yL striving hard to get a decent portprofile{ i don't noe how to spell }, i started to get panic today.

that's all for today! bye. i still have work at NUH from 9am to 6pm tml!

Tuesday, March 09, 2010, 7:43 PM

i am so frigging tired now NOW NOW NOW!

okay, i am tired. i have been juggling two jobs at a time. one is the japanese job at DON && the other one is working with jasmine {again "} at the pushcart at NUH.

well, there's a Mr bean store at NUH! and i went there to buy lunch like for alot of days already heh. meals are provided for both jobs! so that i wont spend my $$ on meals outside.

well, i told masa san that i am leaving this job on 10th april but he insist that i should work till 16 april because he coulnd't hire anyone { i doubt so cause i am suspecting he don't really care about hiring ppl '} &&&&&, he got my parttime pay increase , and now my will of leaving is .... { call me $$ $ face la } talking about masa san, he's bringing us for dinner tm,l {after work} . i wonder how weird the atmosphere will be like, but whatever. i told yL to come early so that i won't be alone with masa san.

i need money now, because of many things, and i am working very hard everyday.

$$$$$ to fullifill all the stuffs i am planning to do.

Sunday, March 07, 2010, 9:19 AM

well, i seriously think i haven't enjoy my life out of it man. been busy working since dec cause i strongly believe that u need money first before u can do anything. now, when u have earn money { NOT ENOUGH YET } , u will think of how u should enjoy life. whenever i thought of this topic , i would then have the mentality that "after the release of A level results then say" . now, when i got my A level results, i should seriously think what i should do next....

alot of ideas yet to fullifull & stuffs. & i have decided that i am going to CHANGE job. going to quit that japanese job at clark quay & carry on with the job at NUH. yah, irony, i foresee tat i am going to juggle TWO jobs at a time for the next month. & i am looking forward to not working with masa san again because i seriously don;t like his working ssyle. and i don't wish to continue to work with him anymore.

oh &&&& i need to blog tat i went to watch Alice in Wonderland with Xingyong { LIKE FINALLY! } in cathay yesterday. we watch the movie in 3D on & it kind of cost us $14 each. hahhaha. xy was saying tat this will be the first & the last time she watch it. i was giggling though. we did took pictures of us wearing the 3D specs but then i couldn't be able to upload into this computer. & i went to eat subway with my collegue YuKo after work today

&&& lastly, when i went to chat with someone yesterday night { cause i was so happy yesterday night tat i went to msn & chat with 5 to 6 ppl at one time } , it really disturbed me when i realise that one of them have a mindset that is totally different from me. well, i guess, that's the fate & i am going to accept it. somehow we don't click like we used to be .

OH, and now i kinda become alittle bit siao siao already. maybe cause suddenly everything that i worried , the fear, the fustration, the panic, the countless sleepless nights i had for the past two years had came to an end.

Friday, March 05, 2010, 9:18 PM

i didn't have the mood for lunch in the afternoon today.

today, i was sweating real hard in the hall,

i was having a cold sweat in the morning despite the sunny weather outside.

i was pray real hard in the hall today,

when i see the statistics, my heart pumped harder& much faster.

& then everything came to an end;

Monday, March 01, 2010, 10:32 AM

being sensitive isn't tat great afterall.

noticing something that u shouldn't notice would make u feel miserable

or, maybe thinking too much is a problem too.

there's so much worries nowadays tat i could hardly stop thinking.

big & small ones.

after one problem, there's always another problem for me to thin