mixed feelings. today, today, today , today i thought everything isn't that bad , but the fact that it is worse. much much worse first, it's the guy at the opposite store, then masa san, now, igar san do u noe how fcuking miserable i feel today at work?
why am i always the substitute?
Friday, February 26, 2010, 8:05 AM
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heh! i just realise that this saturday is the last day of cny, =/
well , i feel so tired & i'm having all those muscleache from standing the whole day yesterday.
yup, i worked from 10am in the morning till 9.30pm at night, masa san never come yesterday, i feel more relaxed! i mean, cause when i'm working with him, i would be very very scared like tat i will do this & that & that wrong & tryin my best not to make any mistakes. okay, anywya, i just realised that i don't like to make the first move to date some ppl out { even though i used to do it } .but i guess times change, & i don't do so now cause of various reasons.
okay, tat's all .bye!
yesterday, i can't help but kept staring towards that direction. this is soooo bad. i need to restrain myself from doing tat. & i was kinda disgusted by the guy working at the opposite store.
there's much more things to worry now.
Monday, February 22, 2010, 8:59 PM
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i don't noe how am i going to accept, just tat i noe i am truly, frigging scared.
to me, i'm just like a contestant inside the drama " Liar Game" it's just that the consquences i have to bear is different from what's in the drama but the impact made to me is definitely as great as it is illustrated in the show. i'm dead serious
, 1:24 PM
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all because of my injured thumb that i am going to switch my off day with yuko, which mean i didn't have to go to work for three consective days, sunday, {yesterday }, monday {today } , and tues {tml}. i am looking at my injured thumb now && i still think it look kind of fragile, like the wound will burst again any sooner or later. seriously, i feel so bored at hme, didn't noe what to do, want to bake also cannot { cause my thumb cannot touch water }, all i did is to play computer & computer. my brother's going to china on the 2nd of march for 6 weeks for a exhcange programme&&& i told my brother that it was quite a good chance. when will i have a chance to go to another country for 6 or more weeks? seriously, i don't noe why, i have the urge to see how the world is like, & not just stay in a country only.
maybe, i 'll spend alot of my money on travel next time when i grew up, cause i have the mentality that ur life willl be kind of wasted if u don't step out & look at the world.
i don't noe if my thinking is navie. well, maybe i'll change when i grew up, when i step into my working life though...
no, i should start to think of ways to earn alot alot of $$$$.
the starting point is always $$$, money. that's how the society works heh.
Sunday, February 21, 2010, 2:07 PM
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great! today is sunday. i went to work as usual, but after one hour, i came back. cause i cut my finger using a penknife and i nearly burst out crying just now. hahaha. now kind of calm down already. cause the cut was deep & the blood keep bleeding,i was like OMG with yL in the morning. so igar san brought all those cream to sterlise my wound & treat me a super nice ice-cream. now i kind of don't dare to open the bandage. zZz. anyway, i'm at home afterall.
&& it's been 1 & a 1/2 month since i work there, and m,y parents still continue to show dismay over my choice. they wanted me to find the typical office job && of course quit this job asap and then those job tat can work on weekdays from 9 to 6 & can shake leg. air con , sit down those kind. but i noe at the end of the day, i will be feeling very empty, so what for? i kind of unhappy afterall and i;m pretty contented with my current F & B job after work everyday. i noe i am kind of rude to agrue with them about that, especially i always repeat back " IT'S JUST A HOILDAY JOB", and i just walked away like that. so rude.
been walking past singapore river on my way to work, and then as i walked past, i always thought about random stuffs. like, what is my future is like? and then i start to get scared, afraid over my future path. been asking myself the question " how? " , or thought about " die lar, die ", "soceity view this this this & that that that " , . this is so bad, but i'm more practical& realistic, so i would think that way though.
i wodner nowadays, if anyone would relaly read word by word when they are reading through my entries, cause i'm been whinning & whinning.
been watching Liar Game nowadays. { i noe for a japan drama fans, this show is like years ago} just finish first season. going to start second tml.super nice, twist and turn, mystery. the idealogy of this show is that " humans, in order to win will try to decieve, harm each other to ensure their survival " this show, full of unexpeced stuffs, that left u feeling excited after everything & guessing what will happen then. shit! there's movie for this show on march 06.
okay, bye people!
Thursday, February 18, 2010, 10:04 AM
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okay, i post this photo cause i thought it might be interesting to have Toh Beesuan behind. both sinyee & i didn't noe so, until after taking this photo.
well, okay.&&&&& i wanted to eat lunch with someone but i couldn't find the "someone " cause everyone's working. i'm thinking if i should start finish a 2nd job so tat i will be able to earn more $$$ and to enrich my life too. &&&& i don't really noe what i am tping now. btw, no off day today cause masa san have to go celebrate his 1 year anniversey with his wife and then he ask me if i can take over him anot; i am too paiseh to push away & now i have to go to work today but i'm pretty fine with it since i couldn't find someone to go out & i can earn more $$$$.
okay, well, i don't noe if i am too ambitous or what?
oh &&& i got job intro, if u don't mind working in F&B, msg me. :) partime, students on vacation are all welcome!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010, 8:59 AM
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{my skinny brother} hahha. work yesterday was super zzzz. cause instead of igar san, i'm working with masa san. so, yeah. so, heng there isn't much ppl today, and i was sooooooooooooo gald over this fact, except that there's a person who came and ordered pork and kimuchi at 8.56pm when i close shop at 9.00pm. :) & i realise that there is a bootlicker.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010, 11:02 AM
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{okay! pictures taken will be up for the next 11 days of cny! HAHHAHA}
V day falls on the same day as cny. cny , as usual,
angbao, sweets, pineapple tarts, tv, gambling, new clothes,
oh, but i went out to watch movie with ong zhixiang on 1st day of movie at The Cathay, & then went coffee bean to chill awhile, and reach home around 1am. well, pretty tired, but then maybe i rarely meet guys tat are much much older than me{ in other words, more mature than me }, so i kind of enjoy talking to him since he gave me a totally different prespective of life heh.
btw, my relatives are coming to my house later, & my mum is busying cooking for the lunch later. it's a once a year thing, and it's kind of the most delicious meal of the year! HAHAHA
made grass jelly first thing in the morning today. going to work later. kind of dread it, cause i can play, and after playing for two days, i don't feel like going to work tough. ;(
but then , then again, if i go to beesuan's house........ well. HAHHAH
Saturday, February 13, 2010, 11:59 PM
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Happy Chinese New Year!
hope to have a great year ahead! :)
&&& i can eat different types of pineapple tarts tml already! AHHAHAH
, 5:58 PM
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Thursday, February 11, 2010, 10:41 PM
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off day! thursday! watch Little Big soilder at vivo today! nice nice show. i mean, i watched this show cause of jacky chan { his movie is always nice} but well, this show didn't disappoint me though. not those very predictable shows. :) and starring wang lee hom { i guess he rarely act in movies } well, this is the first time i watched at vivo lo!
anyway, went chinatown after tat. didn't go there to buy stuffs, but just to have the cny atmosphere. chinatown as usual, super squeeze, eat like feel sample food, nice % yummy food there too. HAHHAHA. okay la, yL wanted to buy cny clothes, and then i met up with meiting to walked aroound, so three of us just walk arund chinatown, eat, eat eat. yL brought the super nice cream puff from tampopo. three of us was eating thtat delicious cream puff outside macdonald's..
there's goes my day! nowadays. been spending wonderful time. i rarely have this kind of chance. hope i would have more in future! going to slack around at home! :) cny cny cny
Wednesday, February 10, 2010, 8:38 AM
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lol! actually i didn't really noe what to blog about.
just broswed through photos & photos. realised that i took lots of school photos in my college days. been walking on the street, saw the college kids from different jcs. then i feel kind of weird, cause 3 months back, i was STILL a jc student, wearing the uniform
well, kind of miss sch days. lectures, tutorials, teachers, class, air conditioned school rooms, studying { but not the exam part } , PE { running away from PE } , running with classmates, eating in the canteen , toilet with clique { like we always run out quickly so that TT won't have the chance to tye hair }, sitting with TT at the same place in econ lecutures, laughing at banana & minnie lame conversations.... well. i miss school.
stumbled into xueni in fareast plaze yesterday, finally found stella lalalla in UNIQULO , visit to bugis at 12.00pm, was lucky tat the owner let me try a 10bucks dresss { cause i like it alot but i didn't dare to buy fearing tat i cannot fit in } , chinatown with yL after work {last mintue impluse } , fareast & 313 at night with toh beesuan, $7 bucks ice-cream , for the whole day , i have been walking walking and shopping shopping. i'm already used to standing.but still, tired at the end of the day!
and i realise that cny is like just this weekend! dumb i noe, but then this year i'm not really in the cny mood though. just eating pineapple tarts mood! :) HAHHAHA
bye people !
i 'm dead, going to work with masa san alone later at 4pm. shit. jianhong& yuko is off today, no one to help me when i made mistakes at work. { which i definitely will later } :( but i looke forward to working with igar san on the third day of cny! he seemed like a nice person, i'm sure i am going to smile at him! but i am getting sick of wearing jeans to work everytime!
Monday, February 08, 2010, 8:31 AM
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"Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too,
They live inside us, and sometimes, they win."
STEPHEN KING
saw this at pam's blog &&& i thought it's quite true.
weekends are now tiring for me.
business was great yesterday especially, there is so many customers that i couldn't really rest.
my legs have muscle ache, my hands are tired of washing , and my mouth is tired of smiling. { cause i was doing the cashier } SO SO SO SO SO SO TIRING
but.... sense of fillfullment is there.
of course , masa SAN continue to say me , and i sort of used to it already. so i just let him say & say & say & say & say & say & say & say & say & say & say & say & say & say & say
shannon came to say hello to me on sat! :)
chinese new year coming, &&& i want to go shopping on tuesday leh, but like no one is free { i'm meeting toh beesuan at night tjpugh ! } but i still want to shop in the afternoon cause i didn't buy any cny stuffs yet!
going to nanyang cc to look for courses to take {cyn chong say she signed up for ice-cream workshop}
my baking aim after cny will be durian puff durian puff. ;)
2/3 chance. yet, i fall in the 1/3 on catergoy bitch.
Saturday, February 06, 2010, 8:34 AM
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{mickey &&& chip } i almost persuade myself that appearance isn't anything. but apparently, it is everything.
Thursday, February 04, 2010, 12:55 PM
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off day.
stayed at home, facebook,watch korean/jap shows for as long as i want, laze on the new sofa my parents brought, looking through the tv shows, eating the cny 's sweets.
what a relaxing day i got. { it's been so long since i have this kind of chance }
well, going out for dinner with yL,zm, tanyy , cyn chong later.
till then, i will continue to laze around in my house.
msg my brother n&&& he hadn't reply me.
wanted to find friends to eat lunch with me, but all at work.
bye people! :0
no fear of masa san today.
Tuesday, February 02, 2010, 9:42 AM
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masa told me to call him masa SAN { ?! ?! ?! ?! ?! ?!}
& i was scolded for being late by 10 mintues for work. { understandable, it's my fault}
&&& i was said about not being able to wear slippers to work { but from what i heard from yL , the previous people, sunshine, jessie & the jap girl &&& yL wear slipper to work }
i seriously unable to figure out what masa SAN is thinking about.
yah, i was complaing to yL yesterdaynot only that, but alot of other stuffs.
well, i would quit, maybe work a month or two or so. :)
bye people! :)
Monday, February 01, 2010, 9:41 AM
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great! hello people! i have finally finallyfianlly apply sign up for facebook! okay, but i don't noe what to do, all i'm doing is to go add friends, see who i noe, then i add. okay, ps if i left u out, please kindly add me ! :) BBQ photos up, coup from Agnies from facebook! { now i noe why ppl always say upload from FB} i looked like so tired in most photos. =/ well, i think i still got quite a bit to figure out how to use. =/
job was not really okay yesterday. masa don't like pppl to stand there & have nothing to do,
i mean as in, when my work parnter is doing something & i have nothing to do, he will feel pissed.
but i seriously couldn't find anything to do. && everyone seemed to always able to find things to do, and i broke like a dish yesterday.
well, &&&& anyway, i was asked to go wash dish yesterday night.
of course, this time i was more than happy to wash dish, cause it's much more simple than doing cashier / packing & stuffs.
BUT on the other hand, i was kinda irrated/disturbed by the tone masa used. those sarcastic tone.
&&& till now, i'm still feeling very disturbed over it. wash dish is okay, not difficult, i can just dream at the sink there. so yah... but i don't like to be intucted to go wash dish
okay, stop whinning, i will go automatically go wash dish myself like today.
job in the afternoon again. this is so sian to face masa again.
heh! i just realise that this saturday is the last day of cny, =/ 
great! today is sunday. i went to work as usual, but after one hour, i came back. cause i cut my finger using a penknife and i nearly burst out crying just now. hahaha. now kind of calm down already. cause the cut was deep & the blood keep bleeding,i was like OMG with yL in the morning. so igar san brought all those cream to sterlise my wound & treat me a super nice ice-cream. now i kind of don't dare to open the bandage. zZz. anyway, i'm at home afterall. 
okay, i post this photo cause i thought it might be interesting to have Toh Beesuan behind. both sinyee & i didn't noe so, until after taking this photo. 
Happy Chinese New Year! 
off day! thursday! watch Little Big soilder at vivo today! nice nice show. i mean, i watched this show cause of jacky chan { his movie is always nice} but well, this show didn't disappoint me though. not those very predictable shows. :) and starring wang lee hom { i guess he rarely act in movies } well, this is the first time i watched at vivo lo! 
"Monsters are real, and ghosts are real too, 
{mickey &&& chip }
masa told me to call him masa SAN { ?! ?! ?! ?! ?! ?!} 
great! hello people! i have finally finallyfianlly 
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