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Wednesday, May 31, 2006, 6:26 PM
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dear diary. i



SUPER LOVE


dr soh. hahahs. looking at my forehead. i got very very PLEASED. all tat was left was scar. and red patch of scars. xD i eaten the medicine 2 month plus 3 days. and dr soh sae i will need to carry on eating for just 1 more month and there come a newer treatment. i think is to make my scar and red patch look less obvious and better. he going to put vitmins c into my face. xD YEAH. he use valcanoe erupting to describe my pimples. x( this show how serious is my pimples. x(

and i rmb sumthing. yesterday. i went out wif sinyee and beesuan. this is the FIRST time in my pimple life to sae this - if u spot a blackhead on my nose... i forget wat i sae. sumthing like tat. then beesuan go spot. and SHE CANNOT FIND one pathetic single blackheads. AND. when i wash my face. the part on my nose there is not red anymore= no pimples. i love love love love love love love love love love love love SUPER love dr soh.

sae so much. i should mention cyn already. i went to see doc wif cyn and went to cut her hair later. went we went to the clinic there no one. LUCKY. i dun nid to wait so loong just like the last visit. we step in. dr soh just stare at us very long. i wonder wat wrong wif us. xD LOL. his eyes was still so BIG and bright. and cyn was asking - dian dao le mah?

after tat went to cut hair. yeah. before going down. cyn come up my house. we discuss wat she going to cut her hair. hahahs. and then she went to cut the hair. i can see v-shape la. but not so obvious de v-shape. not bad la. overall. BUT if it is more obvious and is better. then i told her make the best out of the worst. sumthing like tat. i DEFINTELY NOE the meaning. cause.- i alway make the best out of the worst. cyn also gib me maple card. IT FREE. think back. i got kind of guilty. tat card WORTH 10.50 lei. xD anyway. i went to redeem the ms money already. xD

thank cyn.


friday going to bake cake SOON. yeah. hahahahas. i will NOT miss the chance. friday is cyn birthday too. LOL. should i buy sumthing dditional for her? and i yet to mention yesterday. short short one then. not much time already. xD kies. went far east. shop. then buy one necklacce. nailart. i going to paint my nail wif cute cute stickers soon. hahahs. xD kies end here. so short. i going to take picture. to put in.

i suddenly feel tat my i lead a much more happier life than sum *ppl.

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, 3:03 PM
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i finally understand tat i am summone who really like every single story of my life and the things around me to hab a happy ending. but i noe. it impossible. watching at tian guo the jia yi. start to make me feel very irrated. it so drag and so many evil and mean ppl around. it make me really feel like skipping the whole big part. it wasting my time seeing this kind of mean and evil. but in reality. i am indeed another mean and evil person here. x( i got freaking piss off my marcus low jun long. x( . cannot blame him either. xD i will tell u guys wat happened when my mood become better,

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Monday, May 29, 2006, 4:09 PM
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this one. FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE BAKING COOKIES.- most of it are eaten.









my brother 's pottery. he made himself. xD


dear diary. update. update and update. the weather was hot todae. i feel hot. and it REALLY. i was sitting there on my sofa and i was sweating. this show how hot the weather was. todae was tv day. i storm in front of my tv. watching the tian guo de jia yi vcd. and it was NICE. watching tat remind of me and wat kenneth sae. my character is JUST like the girl in the show. even though i not as pretty as the girl in the show. but the character is almost SIMILAR to her. i will alway sae sorrie to ppl onli when things turned out badly. i will not try to do my best UNTIL things turn out badly. x( and i was always SO forgetful--> this cause me to malu so many times. xD i watch 6 cd at one go. one cd 71. plus min. after tat. i feel so amazed of myself.

no one at home. x( it left me alone. xD LOL. i wanna go out. actually todae is going to a good day. i actually going to cyn house to bake cookies and cakes. BUT. beacuse i yesterday went out till SO late . not late la. i never tell my mother before hand. and they where angry wif tat. so in order to make sure myself to be able to go out on tuesday i HAB to stay at home. no choice. there goes my chance of baking my cakes and cookies. x( but i was ENJOYING tian guo de jia yi. i was crying. my eye noe so pain now. xD the story was too sad. x( cannot help it. so i found myself storm in front of the tv crying.

tml will be a busy day. XD FINALLY. morning go school. date wif mL . date wif sy and beesuan. i going SHOPPING tml. yeah. i wanna a new newbie polo shirt . a new bag. a new beach short. i suddenly rmb. u noe. this year. i finally REALISE. sumtimes to sum ppl.- breaking a promise is a grave mistake u can NEVER make. when i realise it. i got shock. xD i finally understand how keeping a promise is so important to ppl. so this time- i will try my best not to break any promises i make wif ppl around me. really.

i going to do sum reflection on myself soon.- to understand my life better. and i am still finding out wat is the reason i living for.

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Saturday, May 27, 2006, 6:12 PM
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dear diary. i LOVE tian guo de jia yi. hahahahs. got 19 disc and i am like cyn ADDICTED to it. hahahas. my sis brought it. at first i thought not tat nice. and todae i was so bored tat i went to see the first disc. and it NICE. i keep wanna to see now. x( just got scolded by my sis. so i hab to stop. i will continue tml. hahahas. ~ laalalalas. anyone going to sch on monday. i need to help mich to hand in the opp fund form and MINE too. ahya. HOW? i dun wnana go there specially to hand in the form. anyone going back to school? went to jp brought stuff then when back home. kind of sian for todae. kies . OFF for now. i am looking forward to next monday or tuesday. xD i going to bake BIG BIG BIG cookie for myself. LOL. my sis is nagging beside me. @^*#$)*%&*@^ . she gone. xD ahya. i going to stone at home tml to watch this show. i going to lend da chang jin and full house soon. ~ i WANNA BUY NEW BAG and CLOTHES.

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Friday, May 26, 2006, 5:08 PM
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LOL. i got so boring. not much ppl online. and i dunno wat to do. i dun wnana play MS. i went in just now and die. x( kies. anyway. i going to cyn house bake cakes and COOKIES again. hahahs. anyway. i suddenly really really really missing him. it just the VERY VERY VERY start of school hoilday. i wonder how i going to survive. x(

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, 4:16 PM
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big face me. my brother sae very zhuai. i also dunno. x(

i suddenly hab an uneasy feeling. i wish to noe y. BUT i dunno y. i think i should stay back in sch.

dear diary. i back to update. hmm. camping camping CAMPING. i suddenly feel like going to camping. can i go camping. and then i dun play the high and low elements JUST the night activity. I REALLY REALLY cannot stand it la. going under the sun will make my skin miserable. it pain. and REALLY pain at night when ur face redden up. applying the pimple cream will make ur skin pain. and i dunno y. i hab dry skin on the part of the skin under my mouth. called chin right? i NOT tat sure. but it like the skin peeling off. it disgusting. my HANDS. just apply a small little fritcion between the surface of tables and chairs all tat can really really gib me leave a scar there. and it sumtimes bleed. x( nah mind. as long as my skin get better. i am kk wif it. i am DESPERATE now. and i finally understand tat i really need to be away from the sun or i will really pain. i going to see DR SOH again. hahahs. actaully is this sunday. BUT i left wif medicine. so i going to visit him on wednesday. wif CYN . i going to ask dr soh to gib me an excuse from camping again. xD so sad. i wonder will the school accept my letter anot. i think i need to go find the "head" of the camping oraganiser.

miss foong is leaving sch todae. xD i will MISS u miss foong. she just call and sae wat activate the rely system or sumthing. then i need to call 6 person. i call. then i msg cw and wenbin tat i already called. xD hahahahas. then like tat la. and then kind of stupid la. i call bs and yenyee and tell them i called them already. one short word. xD sad. MISS foong going. she getting MARRIED. LOL. i dunno is true anot.

and i wanna thank bs. xD he let us put the book in the cupboard and make an effort to arrange a space for us to put our books. LOL. thank bs. xD lesson was quite sian la.

sch term close. i dunno y. i suddenly hab the feeling of going to sch. AND i dun wanna hoildays. WIRED. y suddenly i enjoying sch life?

and. i suddenly really really REALLY miss him. LOL. mL bringing me out again. YEAH. he hoilday soon. one week after me.

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Thursday, May 25, 2006, 6:15 PM
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soon. my pimple will be GONE.

dear diary. i am back to update. EVERYTHING is over. over and OVER. hahhas. parent meeting is over. kind of more relief now. my dad just go there for 15 mintues i think. hahahas. he wear till formal formal. and FROM wat i heard. i can see tat my dad wanna me to go JC. x( keep asking mr ng about jc stuff. and THANK MISS FOONG. she never sae anything bad about me. mr ng too. hahaha. mr ng just keep stressing about my a maths. i was standing there sort of "eavesdropping" wat they are saeing. and then at tat moment when mr ng keep stressing. i was thinking. SURE ask my parent go see chia. and in the END. no. hahhas. before tat. i dunno mr ng recommended sumone's parent to see miss wong. i thin. should be la. then so nervous. then the talk went smoothly. hahahs. sorrie chia. LOL. before tat. i thought is he WHO wanna see my parent. x( i was chatting wif wanzi before tat. sae about christian. their belief and all TAT. so. kind of interesting. but i think i will stick to the same as my parents. and then wanzi kok koeng me was so nervous and uneasy down there waiting for our parents to come. xD hahahs. and kok keong parent came first. he was SO hiong. drag a chair for himself to sit there to hear wat mr ng and miss foong will sae. and then wanzi father came. so they chat chat chat. hahahs. wanzi was SQUEEZING my bag. hahhas. xD. this show tat not ONLI i will be uneasy. LOL. kies la.

and todae ZS come and ask me y like my complexion become better liao. YEAH YEAH YEAH. i am so happy. hahhas. BUT. however. i dun think it got better. it the same is't it. i dun see MUCH improvement. or am i too demanding? i dunno. i still can recall wat zs sae. - he ask me y my face complexion become better. hahahahahs. i am LAUGHING OUT NOW.

and todae. cookies. ALOT ppl ask me for cookies. sorrie. i hab to gib to my family members. i noe is NICE. and YES. it is la. hahahahas. xD.

anyway. cyn todae never come. so pei her till school gate. cause i noe maybe she will feel uneasy la. cause last time i like tat time go home also like very uneasy. sumbit the opportuntiy fund form to miss yip. and then like tat la. xD

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006, 7:46 PM
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dear diary. i am back to update. start to feel uneasy. BECAUSE tml is parent metting day. x( i wonder chia and wong will call my parent to see them anot. xD ahya. god bless me pls. 24 hours later. i will be happy. cause the parent meeting will be OVER. and todae was not bad. i went to PE. cannot stand la. i got 2 month never pe. so happened tat there is NOT much sunlight. so i just go play. after tat my face got VERY red and pain. xD the parts near my mouth all like got dry skin then alot of skin got peel off. it DISGUSTING. and yes. it is very disgusting.

went to cyn to bake cookies. tat was AN enjoyable experience. i admit i am clumsy. but when it come to rough stuffs like MIXING the ingredient all up. i am nto bad. EVEN yL praise me. LOL. hahhas. anyway. make lots of cokkies. derek and ym one was different. they are extra LARGE. hahahahas. anyway. i got very clumsy when trying to do the cookies shape out. i put choclates chips on the cookies. and when the cokies was done. yL me and cyn EAT it. hahahs. i dunno is nice anot la. but because WE OURSELVE do it. sure is NICE la. hahhahas. gibing cookies to ppl around me. OH SHIT. i forget one person. ahya. nah mind. i gib the person* mine will do. eat bisuits as i do. hhahahs. and it FRANGANCE.one look at it. i feel like eating.then eat chocolates. FIRST TIME in my lifetime i eat alot of chocolates. i wonder wat will happened to my pimples the next day.

and YAH. i forget to eat medicine. xD i dunno wat now. i cannot eat now. cause t,ml morning i need to eat two pills. so no pimples pills for me.x( who ask me forget to eat. and. anyway. thanks guys. i got alot of comments tat my pimples got better. i dun noe it true a not la. BUT i just happy to hear it. i dun see any better on my pimple. it just as worse as before. just recovered a little tiny bit. LOL.

i got 33/44 out of the class. not bad la. i got my target. IT NOT LENG LENG. xD kies. i just happy and satisfied wif my result and position. xD anyway. i typing out wat my remarks i got from the teacher from the report book. FIRST time i got this kind of remarks.

Liling is warm and friendly, very likable indeed. Coupled with her good sense of humor, she relates well wif people and livens up the atmosphere wherever she is. Liling has been making good effort in her school work. She has achieved good results! keep it up!

the first few sentences. i dunno i sensitive. BUT. it seem like indirectly shot me. - nosiy. xD maybe i think too much. but mr ng will noe i very noisy meh? he like usually not in class one. maybe is MISS fong. hahahs. xD

math lesson. our group present first. ahya. not bad la. WINNE dun blame urself. it well-done. MUST hab confidence. and then i just stand there extra. DARREN ask me question. then i tell darren dun ask me question la. i AM SO SCARED later cannot answer the question. anyway. i was there extra. cause i onli sae like few sentence. u noe. FEW sentence. and then i ask one question. no one answer. so malu. thank kk for answering. cause i told him beforehand. and then suan cw. hahhas. sae my notes la. cause chia sae my notes done quite well. - LOL. and i start telling cw. hahhas.. FUN. ben. i BAKE cookeis especially for u. got ur eyes there one. and yL me and cyn hab think of sumthing before gibing u the cookies. tat is. -HAHAHA. hahahhs. xD very funny. alway ben was laughing. xD kies . end here.

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Tuesday, May 23, 2006, 5:59 PM
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dear diary. FREAK. i argueing wif my dad. xD ALL BECAUSE of the oppuntunity fund declare form AGAIN. and i listening to jq load de HAVE A BAD DAY. i really did hab a bad day. i went to ask mr ng y i got to go parent meeting. he sae- everyone need to be see one time. i DUN BELIVE it. LOL. i not three year old kiddos. not logical.

i feel so unwell suddenly. my hands got cold during math lesson and before tat i wanna vomit. SO. i did not go for restock. and then stay in the classroom. wait wait wait. for cyn.then after tat go jp buy COOKIES ingredient. YEAH. i going to bake cookies. FIRST time in my life i going to bake the cookies using oven. hahahahas. look forward to tat. kies. end here. ~
anyway.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENNETH LIM.

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Monday, May 22, 2006, 7:40 PM
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i got so bored. i am waiting for WINNE CHOO to online now. winne. can u pls online. god. PLS. dun let my sis reach home so fast. or the computer will be taken away from me. i need the computer. but she needs to do project too. x( WINNE pls online now. xD

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LOL. even my dad seriously dun wanna go for the parent meeting. i wish tat i hab the right to choice if i wanna to go anot. and the answer will be a NO. and is a firm one. i will NOT jump to any conclusion until i hab the chance to ask y am i going to the parent meeting day. and i WILL ask mr ng IF i got the chance. i DEFINITELY hab the chance. even though i now my mind hab start jumping to conclusion. but i am able to persuade myself to be neutral. if it is really the fact. i WILL get IRRATED and RMB YOU.
am i scary and evil? i think the answer is yes.

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dear diary. am i so STUBBORN? o. maybe.i missing out alot of fun durning the june hoildays. I DUN MIND. really. cause all i mind now is my face to be nice and spotless.- i am really relly really desperate for tat. x(

anyway. things turn out as i expected. i got the parent meeting form. FREAK. i keep figuring out y am i called for the meeting. LOL. but i still dunno y. i didn't score badly as i thought. i add up the total. and IT NOT SO BAD. onli the a maths. so maybe is. xD nah mind. stop tat. i gt kind of fed up and irrate when i got the form. reach home tell my dad. and my dad also very very sians. he EVEN wanna the teacher to call to my house rather than to go there. this show tat my father dun EVEN wanan go to this kind of event also. and i FEEL uneasy. i think. the night before. i will and IS will not sleep well.

going to cyn house BAKE COOKIES soon. hahhas. yeah. i first time bake cookies. and I DUNNO how it will turn out. hope it will turn out quite well. monday- the day i go home alone. x( so sad. i saw mich and adelene at the bsutop. so i joined them. YEAH. hahhas. i forget to ask them to wait for me. but in the end. I SAW them at the bustop. so kind of happy chatting. hahahas. kies. end here.

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Friday, May 19, 2006, 5:49 PM
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dear diary. MY tagbox is SO liven up by ppl. hahhas. THANK PEEPS. i wonder how long will it last. came and update.

yesterday. WAS so tired. and i went home late. cause of tat NATIONAL WEATHER STUDY thingy. we went to be the supporters. i was so bored there. xD did lots of stupid stuff and all these.

and CAN'T i belive it. just two days went past and al my marks are OUT. out. overall. everything is quite fine wif me. except a maths. and i DUNNO if mr chia going to meet my parents. i dun wanna. x( hope he find tat i am too innocent cute and good student and he decided not to meet my parents. hahahas.

anyway. can i REALLY really really DUN go tml. i dun wanna go to the sch for sport carnival. i am tired. and plus i will melt upnder the sun? hahhas. no. tat is quite a excuse la. i am too lazy to go sch. tat it. AND later malu there how? never catch the ball. onli become a flower pot there. x( then not fun already. xD I DUN WANNA GO TML. and mr ng. mistaken me as yL. still think he is right. until he see my test paper. xD so easy to get mix up har?

anyway. math project is coming up now. AND my group leader is WINNE. yeah. hahhas. xD i dun need to worry too much. BECAUSE i trust tat winne is a responsible cute and friendly girl. hahhas.

and then yah. i wanna sae i am NOT comparing marks. i am onli comparing rank. xD it different. cause i wanna be in the middle middle in the class. classs outing is coming. and i am quite happy about tat. BUT more excited about the beach thing. no offence. even though i cannot go. but i am joining them when the sun sets. hahhas. so should be can. and YAH. todae photo taking. i SIT ON THE BENCH. not fair. surrounded by me is sec 1 and sec 2. all i dunno.then i just sit there. feeling odd and wired.

todae miss yip come find me. and she called my name. and later ppl start telling me. she call until very very angry like tat. got meh? but maybe ba. it very TROUBLESOME to apply for the oppurtunity fund. needs alot of things. they are looking at ur cca attendance result slips all this. I DUN FEEL LIKE GOING TO JAPAN ANYMORE. but i already agreed in the first place. so i hab to keep the promise.

math periods. i am so slow. the whole e-math period. i am just doing the graph. and i NEVER listen to wat mr chia was explaining. and yL and bs see me draw until so pathetic. so come and help me. thanks bs and yL. xD

AND IT FUN to teach ppl things. finally i teaching kk sumthing. the feeling was GREAT. hahhas. no la. i was just telling him about netball rules and all tat. saeing about kk. i suddenly rmbb tat. i crap alot wif the whole row todae in class. xD and was FUNNY. especially on the red thing.

guys. REALLY. read this.
primary school- i am in red house
primary school- i hab my report book red in colour.
secondary school- i am in red house again. EVEN sec 1 and 2 now change house also in RED house
secondary school- my report book is RED again. xD
i sumtimes wonder. if red is my lucky colour.

i dun wanna go to sch tml.i am just too lazy to go.

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Wednesday, May 17, 2006, 11:56 AM
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HEY GUYS. thanks for THOSE WHO CARE TO COME AND TAG my taggie. xD anyway. i am happy tat so many ppl come and flood my taggie. FIRST time so many tags. xD. SO PLS LIVEN UP MY TAG BOX ALWAYS. xD. i did thinking of ending my life. BUT i never went to take tat knife. xD because. tat moment i feel tat. i was SO tired of my life already. xD i wanna thank jasmine TOO. cause. she rush to me after school. RUSH.

hmm. i am SURE this time tat i am ALMOST recvered TOTALLY. xD cause after tat big cry on monday. i hab not cry over it yet ANYMORE. even when my parents just ask me y i fail all this. they noe tat i am the ONLY one failing. xD LOL. and then i dun feel like crying. nah mind. and i told them tat this term maybe need to see chia. x( so sad. go see chia. xD. my dad just signed on the paper. just the smae as he sign for other paper. and sae work hard. fullstpo. TWO simple words. i will be BACK to normal on thursday. mentally prepare to take back unexpected marks for others subjects. anyway. now i wish to noe WAT FUCKING hell stupid mistakes i hab made. it DAMN SUPER easy a math paper. thursday wil be sitting back to the same sitting arrangment. YEAH. and i will be sitting at the back AGAIN. xD not the front. sitting at the front make me so uneasy. xD

todae MORNING. mL brought me to the BEACH. we just went there for 1 hour. cause he having lesson at 11. xD so took taxi there and back. EXPENSIVE. we just went there. sit oon the beach. and i just stare there. LISTENING to the sound is NICE and peaceful. suddeenly i LOVE beach. xD AND there not much sun. so it kk. hahahas. and ML WAS SO CUTE. hey. thanks. he took his secondary report book to let me see. AND ESPECIALLY HIS a-maths. xD dun comment much. hahhas. anyway. it BEST to go beach if u are really unhappy and stress up. BEACH IS GREAT. so i woke up early todae. so tired now. later going to watch movie SOON. i DECIDED not to waste my time thinking of a-math and CHIA for the time being. tml see the paper. then tml then think la. xD JUST AS kk sae. SMILE always. xD leng leng for a time being then.? tml i will be a school alittle late. AND maybe on the dot.? i hab a serious flu again. the medicine DON'T work. xD

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Monday, May 15, 2006, 2:04 PM
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I AM GOING TO type this in real big words.first time maple cnanot destress.i shoudl type like cyn. *for this entry onli.

freak. first time ms cnanot destress.
when to play ms.
in the end my tear keep dropping down
i dun feel any better
not EVEN a tiny little bit
even though i am typing now. i was like crying already
how can i get my mood well ?
i dunno.
sorrie to ALL PEEPS. expecially my mother my father
my class and lastly.
mr chia. xD eventhough. *hmm*
so guilty over tat.
sumore after the math paper i tell them tat i WILL not faikl this time
math this time was super EASY
and i fail.
AM I REALLY HAVING SQAURE MIND.
after the test. i count liek 16 mark fly away.
I NEVER EVER THINK OF FAILING
there. seeing the reality of having one pathetic red mark on the class list.
u noe.i wanan BURST OUT crying
but i dun dare.
i noe there are *peeps tat think i deserved it. - or maybe i think too much.
but it REALLY REALLY DISAPPOINT ME and myself.
even though my parents will not scold me.
i dun dare to face them. and i dun dare to let them sign.
DUN DARE.
one ppl in the class fail mean tat test was easy. SO?
y do i fail?
i going to cry out LOUD.
and
i am REALLY CRYING OUT NOW.
FIRST TIME.
FIRST TIME IN MY LLIFE.
i cry as i am playing maple.
akway when i fail.
no matter how sad i will be
i just play ms
and
EVERYTHING IS ALLRIGHT
but it different now.
because i am the one failing.
and
I REALLY REALLY CANNOT TAKE THE STRESS.
i feel like jumping down the block
AND
just die like tat .
it not onli maths.
is EVERTHING LITTLE SINGLE test.
so wat.
dun think about it since it over.
IT NOT TAT EASY AS U SAE TO URSELF
i keep telling tat
but i dun UNDERSTAND
y my tears stil keep dropping. NON STOP
maybe
there no one in the home
there no one around me.
and
LASTLY
i feel super disappointed wif myself.
i habing a knife in the kitchen
it tempted me.
i really scared tat i cannot control myself.
and do this foolish thing.
EVEN THOUGH i may look
VERY VERY VERY CALM when i just got the paper.
but i am NOT.
i am just acting.
ACTING.
i wanan get out of 3c as soon as possible.
who can i ask for help now?
i feel tat i am A LOST GIRL
standing in the centre of the shopping mall.
without noeing wat to do.
OR
can i just push the blame to sumone
i DEFINITELY cannot be too shelfish.
i failed maths
and i am useless.
I CANNOT ACT TO SMILE ANYMORE.
no more in future.
and lastly
myself.
SHUT UP UR BIG FAT MOUTH



FUCK




if u are laughing in front of the computer.
then
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE
freak.
stop crying liling
u are NOT A SMALL LITTLE GIRL now
i was crying still i cannot type now.
can anyone PLS console me.
i so sad tat i will cry in front of my parents later
when i let them sign their paper.
i hate everything in my life.
my pimples. my size my results.
maybe. i just let myself cry out loud NOW.
and no crying later.
i hab to msg desmond
to help me sae sorrie to mr chia CK
and
i hab to sae sorrie to my parents.
even though they are disappointed and will not sae out.
i noe it
and
i can FEEL it.
even though
i nownoe tat i am crying
BUT
i dunno wat to write now.
sumhow in my heart
i hab sumthing to sae.
but i dunno wat exactly i wanna sae.
i dun wanna go school on monday
i wanna to run away from lesson.
run alway from everything of getting the results.
i deserved it huh?
y i dun stduy hard before exams.
i learn not to be over-confident wif all this results
because being over-confident
WILL MAKE U SUFFER.
really
in the end.
the one suffering is U not anyone.
sorri mother father mr chia my class and my friend.
i sincerely apologise.
and LASTLY
i wanan thanks jq

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Sunday, May 14, 2006, 6:20 PM
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dear diary. todae was the day i LOOK FORWARD TO. hahahas. cause. i went to see dr soh again. everytime i look forward to see him. cause i noe tat my pimples will be better than the last visit. this time. adding sumthing on. flu. i hab serious flu NOW. my nose get completely blocked and i cannot breathe. i use my mouth to breathe instead. xD first time habing such a serious flu. went to see him. this time. i change medicine again. not change la. is appiled both pimple cream on my face AT ONE time. xD i really hab serious pimple problem huh? but my forehead is better now. my skin was not oily as before. NO. i should sae. OIL-LESS. i dun rmb touching my oily skin recently. the skin was smooth and more kind of "shine"and my nose. LESSER BLACKHEADS. onli big holes left. i think i onli got . hmm. a few blackheads on my nose. can count one. 1 2 3 4 5 6. hahahahahas. looking at this. i suddenly feel nothing or not tat sad when i see my lip breaking and my hands habing scar and dried blood anywhere. and as usual. his eyes was big and bright. and he was SO generous wif MC and pe excuses. i hab a flu. and actually he wanna to gib me mc for tml. but he noe tat i hab exam tml. so he didnot gib. xD and i got 3 MONTHS pe excuses. 3 MONTHS. first time so many months dun hab pe. so will grow fat ar? my running stamina will get worse. xD 2 and a half kg more to go. jia you Liling. i feel weak. xD and i got a excuse from phyiscal fittness test too. x( seem like i really not going to take phyiscal fitness test. at first was quite happy. but later. kind of sad. x( i also dunno y. maybe is because i am use to taking the test. xD he wrote a pe excuse using the mc type and a letter. the bill went up to 95 dollars again. this time. is because of the flu medicine. IT DIFFERENT from dr ling. i got two type of flu medicine. xD first time habing two flu medicine. anyway. WHEN IS CAMPING?

anyway. i will transfer the photo in tml. yah. i just now got quite stress up. maybe is becasue of ym ba. i called him. xD SO. no calling of ym during exams. maybe ba. then slowly slowly calm down when i decided to go to maple and kill the monster. my HEALING was good. hahahahas. xD no la. still can improve. saw the level 60 mage one. i will going to be level 60 soon. if i chiong. xD i dun really go and memorise chemistry. i just read through then understand understand. seem like i need to go mermorise sum. i understand mole. but i am not sure i understand mole.- do u noe wat i am toking about? but if dunno. then nah mind. xD anyway. GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE FOR UR CHEMISTRY PAPER TML AND ME TOO.

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Saturday, May 13, 2006, 1:45 PM
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hey. yesterday was FUN. went to bugis. and YAH. before i forget. mL use his big HAND and knock on my HEAD again. x(. 2 times. hahhas. i counted.
1. knocked on my head when he sae i too stress.
2.use his hand to knocked on my hand when he sae me country pumpkin. x( so sad.
tat was thurdays. after i updated my blog. i DIDN'T wanna to go out. but. but i cannot resist it. so too bad. i hop out of my house la. then went to the bugis cafe there. and i found out tat JASMINE told him tat i was weak. he start stuffing me wif food. x( and not quite suceefully huh? anyway. the bugis cafe right. it DIFFERENT from other cafe. u got a pencil a mnu an a paper there. and each dish hab it own number. and when u wanan a dish. u just indictate the number will do. then u go to the counter gib the person then pay money. and ur food will be served SHORTLY. waseh. xD and because i am on diet. so i eat the pasta and salad. x( i didn't eat finish. i pass to mL after tat. AND we are wasting the food~. the float. he brought two cups. but i conclude tat it has too much calrioes. i DIE DIE Also dun wanna drink. the float was left there untouch and the ice-cream melted. x( and i MUST RMB he will be release at 6 on THURSDAY not 7. x( i getting more and more forgetful. x( went to buy belt. and its nice. xD

yesterday. went to bugis gain. i was feeling unfeel. x( i feel WEAK. i think this is because of the low glycogen level in my blood- hahhas. biology. i stuff myself wif too little food. went wif my mother. there was SO MANY PPL. the temple there was so many ppl LOL. must squeeze in. and then raining summore. OG was OMG. first time see so many ppl. anyway. i went there and found a pmk collar shirt tat will match my tie. and i brought it. my mother paid for it la. $24.90. actaulyl i wanna buy two. my mother sae can. BUT i didn't wanna to waste too much of her money. if i really like tat another green shirt i will use my mother to buy instead. xD if i brought two. it cost $47.80 all together. xD so expensive. so.i eat bread in the morning. then eat nothing else. and yah. lunch i eat two peice of pophiah. i got forced to eat. cause i was shopping. need more energy to walk. or i will REALLY REALLY faint there. xD and night. went to eat jade cystal. i dun dare it those more oily one. anyway. thanks mother. she saw me so stress at home also. so she ask me out. xD anyway. i will be MEETING DR SOH again tml. hahas i look forward to tat. i wonder will he allow me to extend my pe excuse anot. kies. i will write about him on tml entry.i am at home todae. WHOLE day. cause i will be studying chemistry. todae study like 4 chapters. tm study 3 chapters. i am left wif the metallic bonding colvalent bonding and ionic bonding. xD then it will be done for the day. xD. kies end here. ~

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Thursday, May 11, 2006, 4:14 PM
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dear diary. i am back to update my blog. u noe. i was at home. todae chinese paper was horribly done. x( i dun score well this time. x( i went home. i got so sick. and so i lie on the bed for 2 hours. sleeping. wake up feeling better.i think not enough sleep. and i hab sore throat. alittle. i will drink more water. and todae. i feel so weak. yah. 3 and a half KG more to go. jiayou liling. i dunno becasue i going to sick or on diet. nowdays. eat VERY VERY VERY LITTLE. hmm. i dun dare to tell mL and my parent. see. if i tell my parent. they will start saeing. this and tat. blababababs and if i tell mL. mL will start stuffing me wif food already and use his big hand and touch my head and sae- eat well. x( so i decided to tell jasmine. so jasmine and i come up wif this plan.

LiLing diet.

morning. - bread.
any bread. not so high in calories will do. best is - plain bread. wholemeal bread also.












afternoon- sandwiches!
can get from three place.

not as delicious as this la. simple and sweet will do. afternoon and ea porrigde too. xD tat will do. anyway. is there any shop out there selling sandwiches. so tat i can go buy?

and DINNER- as usual. three ssccop of rice. two slice of apple. and sum veg and meat.

i was alone at home. so lonely there. still raining. raining SO heavily now. scared la. my parent went to work. my sis at poly studying. my brother went tuition. mL still studying. x( so sad. xD


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Wednesday, May 10, 2006, 5:23 PM
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LOL. EIGHT PPL online. hahhas. xD suddenly so many. so pathetic LOL. the king pepe and yeti 1
hit KILL me. xD just now went to play play ms. anyway. it obvious tat who i am refering to as the
pink
freak right?

i look at my lips. and it disgusting. x( looking at the dry skin peeling off my lips. sumtimes it just struck there. and i hab to peel it off myself. CAUSE it so irrating to have a part of the skin struck in ur lips there. but anyway.i derserved it right? i seeing doctor soh this week. and going to extend my pe excuse and pft excuse this week. when is the next pe lesson? i weigh on the weighing machine too. 3 and a half kg more. xD

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, 3:39 PM
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dear diary. xD ahya. i dunno wat to type NOW. anyway. PLS DUN WEAR PINK. are u a pink freak?

todae math paper was k. i did. e math paper 1 will make students happy. but when it come to paper too. it will make student nervous. alitt la. but paper i got mistake. BUT not so much la. xD not so tat physics. xD is mr ganesh NOT granish. SO kk was CORRECT huh?tml is chinese.i LOVE listening. ~ xD GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE for chinese paper 2 and listening comprehension and me TOO.

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Tuesday, May 09, 2006, 4:23 PM
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dear diary. i am back to blog. nah mind.~ i was so sianns. left wif two more capters will do. so i decided to come and post on entry here. xD not much to sae. LEETING come and CHAT WIF ME. so loooong never chat wif her already. hahahas. i suddenly miss mL. x(

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, 11:33 AM
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UNREASONABLE ENTRY- strictly for unreasonable people ONLI.

i am in a very very very very very BAD mood now. and so I AM SCOLDING every little thing i SEE.
PHYSICS
SUCKS. y in the hell the whole got physics. where very very simple thing u can make it into difficult and hard one. to let those SQUARE-minded ppl like ME to suffer in MY LIFE. xD physic is simple. OH REALLY? . liling. face the fact. u going to get the lowest in class AGAIN. xD even though how u chiong the homework the sae BEFORE. u still get wrong. and
8 MARKS
just flew alway. EVEN tat easy tiny resultant force also dunno how to do. u can go bang tat white big wall in front of u. and wat mr low will start sae. our class score all 80 marks and above except one.- do u wanna me to gib the marks from highest to lowest or by resigter. i got so sickening wif ur words. can u change sumthing else. AND YOU. can u dun come and disturb me in the MORNING. i got so irrated by seeing ur face. and YOU. PIMPLEs. dun u just leave me and let me get on my simple life. xD u RUIN my whole life. 5 YEARS. u should be happy tat u already live in my skin for five years AND plus when u leave u will leave a scar. U HAB DONE enough. DUN pester me AGAIN. and u. TWO GUYS. do u feell urself very honoured to scream to the people outside the bus and EVERYONE on board look at u? xD it a FOOLISH act. and MR LOW. can u sae tat tys will be MORE important. not as IMPORTANT as the notes? and YOU. MR GANISH. i dunno ur name is spell like tat. BUT. can u dun sae so much things and let u us to start the paper. and you. nah mind. I GOT ENOUGH TO SEE all this pathetic things in my life and lastly i am fed up wif my square- mind. xD nah mind. i just get too fed up.
CAN"T U PLS BE CIRCLE A LITTLE?
i going to revise my e-maths now. xD anyway. good luck everyone for ur e math paper tml and me too. xD

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Sunday, May 07, 2006, 3:49 PM
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i AM CHATTING WIF DIONA. YEAH. thank DIONA. hahahs

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, 3:21 PM
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dear diary. y in the hell no one ONLINE again. i am so IRRATED by the fact of that. i rmb tat last year. there are ppl who online. or maybe. - be neutral. they onli online at night. x( looking at the contact list under 3c chatters AND not a single soul online. sian. this make me thing of sumone. i am SCARED and AFRIAD of *you. a sudden change in ur behavior during exam make me at lost and DUN NOE WAT TO DO. i got stress up. everyone chionging homework. i going continue chiong for the plant nutrition at night. x( or later this afternoon. so i done wif my biology. tml look through tys again. and i done. xD hope tat it dun gib too much of tys quetsions. yeah. zuiyoung online. x( i done wif my biology. left one last chapter.- plant nutrition. and i was so tired of looking through the notes trying to understand and looking through tys. xD i decided to look into my mirror to see my pimples. and I SAW A DEMON in there. - just like wat kenneth sae. my pimples. x( can u just disappear from my forehead. LEAVE me alone la. xD and the medicine. i eaten for 1 month and 1 week already. y dun hab start clearing up a tiny little bit? xD and my pimple on my mouth there. getting worse. STUPID la. xD i look at my nose. except for sum blackhead. the rest are just big spores. all thanks to the pimples. when can tat pimple get lost in my life. x( i am so bored tat i went to ask diona if she is there. but apparently she never reply me. xD CAN ANYONE PLS ONLINE. i wanna CHAT wif u . xD or i go maple chat wif other ppl. xD i hate it and MATH TEACHER.

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Saturday, May 06, 2006, 5:56 PM
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i went around ppl. xD got kind of disappointed when visitng *sumone blog. xD hmm. for such a tiny LITTLE thing la. xD dun wanna type out. cause u will think i am very EVIL and unreasonable.BUT is the fact tat i am. and i saw derek BLOG. comone. my school got this kind of teachers i also dunno. and DEREK dun BE SAD. xD u will change class soon. this year. just bear for half more years~ i sure u can find better friends. THINK of me if u are sad. xD hahahs. -_- ignored tat. xD this is a very extra post la. x( derek would not see tat. x(

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, 4:12 PM
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dear diary. i am back to update. NO ONE ONLINE. except zuiyoung. WAS SO sian. xD. anyway. todae was a good day.~ mL accompany. x( even though i get knock on my head by his big hand. but i ENJOY it. xD. studying biology. xD he DEFINITELY can help me out alittle. hahahs. xD i got so tired. after doing tys and understanding through three chapters. ONE more chapter to go~todae i study 4 chapter and tml will be 4 chapter too. xD tat done wif my biology. i am aiming to me in the MIDDLE of the class. xD. and i will try to touch alittle bit on the physic. i DUN WANNA be last in my class. x( anyway. back. my lip was horrible and TERRIBLE. guys. dun look at my lips hor look at my nose instead.the blackheads on my nose can count already. last time grow too much tat cannot count. now can COUNT. hahhas. looking at my pimples. i will not feel so sad. xD it like very disgusting. sumtimes. when i am doing my stuff. i will touch my lip and then a layer of skin peeled off. x( look liao kind of sad me.and my hand. i am scared tat my hand would be itch. cause i cannot go scratch it. the skin will peel off too. x( dry skin on my hand. xDit terroble. i am now looking at my hand. x(. anyway. i derserved it right? - if kenneth would see this. he will think this. RIGHT HOR? I DUNNO WAT TO TYPE NOW. next week going to look for doctor again. and my side pimple get all INFLAMED. u noe. even though it disgusting. but get better now. i added new songs in the list. anyone noticed? or no one really gib a dman no tat. x( and i lost 1 MORE KG. 1 more. hmm. soon going to reach my target LOL. hmm. 4 more will DO. xD i dun demand much. so not eating lunch and dinner does work sumtimes. xD kies. i end here. since i dunno wat to write. going to UPGRADE my playlist. xD thanks mL.

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Friday, May 05, 2006, 6:25 PM
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suddenly i think ofmy a math test. got kind of stress up liao. xD and recall all my answers and EVERYTHING. alots of things wrong. x( sad. how. xD i am DAMN afriad now. and i set myself lower target for my myself. 50 will do. xD cause i suddenly found out a lot of mistake in my paper. xD I AM SO STRESS UP now.

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, 4:43 PM
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dear diary. i am back to update. WAT a god timing. a very EXCITING time huh? hahhas. xD anyway. hmm. it happened in the morning. it was raining SO heavily. and i hab to bring a BIG bag to sch. x( so sad. and then sit the same bus wif the liqing. i think. - tat one like tat spell- she my primary school friend and I DUNNO how to spell. x( then after tat. we jaywalk. wat a GOOD jaywalking experience i HAD for three years. and then reach school wet. i reach school at 8. HAHHAHAHS. tat as close. 5 more mintues and i will be late. i usually reach school very late on friday. and MR GOVIN is a GOOD discipline master. he stood outside the viod deck there and gib umbrella to those who never bring! !! i hear liqing sae tat one time rain so heavy tat he went to the coffee shop. xD i LOVE fuhua teacher. except one. xD kies. todae. chinese paper one was not well done and social studies TOO. x( i wrote one the newspaper report one. die liao. last time lots ppl write tat and they got LITTLE marks. even sumone* crap also get little marks. x( nah mind. put it aside. BS- wish u good luck and dun FAIL. bs WAS good. even though he not sitting beside me. he come and talk to me too. hahhas. YEAH. last time he never one. this show sitting beside sumone can help to hab friendship. CYN. i never talk to u. onli go home. pathetic. TOK TO ME MORE. ss. i at first leng leng. later no time. x( and quick rush. i left 10 or 5 mintues i think. and. mr chia. was the first teacher i see in the morning. xD kind of spoilt my mood but not so much la. he WORE black. hahhas. this mean tat. ---- hhahas. xD mr chia todae took over our class. xD not good. i see him almost the whole day. and u noe. my unused paper. even got my name he took it away and liquid it. xD usually teacher will not collect paper tat hab already had their names on it. and sumthing i SWEAR i not purposely. when mr chia is collecting paper. HE had to cross his hands. the sight was quite funny. cause i think i put the compo and formal reading opposite to wat his hand is taking. and i saw him crosee his hands. xD and IS my words SO small or he.? ahya. he hab to bent down and look at which one is SBQ and which one is structure quetsion. x( dun gib me writing paper summore. xD. - be neutral. MAYBE he not purposely one. miss out me- i so *** person sitting there. how can miss out. ahya. STOP. and MR ng.waseh. i saw him eating the "worm" sweet . tat hmm. i dunn how to describe. FUNNY la. first time saw a teacher come in. too boring eat sweet there. and summore the sweets is mean for students. x( he eat like wired wired. i laugh. but he never hear. xD hahahs. kies. hmm . take bus home. i never go jp to buy present wif yy because i was too tired. SORRIE YUEYIN. then went home. sleep till now. and YAH. i sitting wif this indian women on the bus. she like. gib me the whole idea lo. he take up her bag and ready to alight the bus. i thought she going to alight the bus. i stand up. but u actually she alighting the next bustop. and when she saw me stand up. she hab no choice BUT to come out of the seat and seat beside me. xD and the bus was SO noisy. and. hmm. i saw anson. he was tall and SKINNY. i wanna to. x( . kies. end here.

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Thursday, May 04, 2006, 4:38 PM
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dear diary. i am BACK TO UPDATE. start of mye . and i started hating it. u noe. i dun really can adpated to it. lots of changes. the content below does not mean to offend anyone.

  1. the classroom WAS cleared VERY fast once after school. i dunno is everyone rushing home after school or having lunch? last year also dun hab clear so fast. - not tat i not rushing home. i will rush home too.
  2. i saw no one from our class online. x( - make me mroe pressure and wanning to study HARDER -maybe they online-ing at night.
  3. ppl cried when they miss question tat are up to 10 marks. - breakdown. if i was *the student i will maybe cried too. - but i learnt from yL tat not to compare to ours BUT urself. xD - *the students should be comparing wif ours too.
  4. ppl get too stress up- tat i NEVER see before . i got scared. - not tat i not stress. BUT i am really REALLy stress- but also dun hab stress till tat extend.
  5. i saw another side of him. *hint* u noe who u are. I TOLD U. - cause usually u gib me a VERY LENG LENG image.
  6. is NOT leng leng to aim for pass or aim in the middle of the class la. - TO ME. i just dun wanna to pressure myself too much tat i skip menses for 4 months again.

STOP about tat. but . i stress tat. it is not TYPED TO SUAN ppl indirectly. so pls dun get offended. JAVIER. continue coming to mixed wif ex-2b ppl. THEY miss u. xD i finish 3 chapter already. 5 6 7 . at night going to study 2 and 3. and learning how to answer soruce based and structure questions. xD going to recall everything i memeroise AGAIN. todae a math paper was k la. and MR CHIA lied to us. the commonwealth test paper is MORE difficult than FUHUA A MATH 2006 paper. xD - be neutral. maybe to him IT more difficult. x( but anyway.- i going to learn to apperciate him. just like wat bs sae.- learn to apperciate such a GOOD teacher. i place a bet. - if he wear white collar shirt tml. i will tried my best to learn to apperciate him. REALLY. because - i feel myself being too unreasonable. anyway. back to the a math paper. i will not score very well. - but is a pass. around 50 to 62. should be there. but dun be too confident. or i will BREAK DOWN too. if i failed. xD wish everyone good luck for tml CHINESE PAPER 1 and SOCIAL STUDIES PAPER and me myself too. - i wonder how many people saw this. ~ off for now. i going to study chapter 2 and 3. xD

i am AS sian AS helena. hahhas. no one online in msn. except HELENA. xD *extracted from helena blog. xD


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Wednesday, May 03, 2006, 6:26 PM
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this one. - use to put on MY face. xD it is to inflame pimples.












cleanser. use to wash my pimple face. pH5.5












VERY VERY VERY strong medicine. use ONLY on my side pimples. the cheek there. and doctor sae can onli appiled for 5 days at most. once the pimple is inflamed STOP using. - i use it 2 days AND it really get inflamed.


dear diary. I am back to update. stop for one day. then come and update. tml is the start of MIDYEAR. AND i will be chiong homework. especially for phyiscs. i dun wanna get last in class. x( and other science. i dun wanna to get hmm. last ten too. in the middle will do. lots to update. hmm. i wanna to congulate the AIR INVESTITAGERS. they get into the finals. xD hahhas. hmm. too bad. our group never get in. my trip to europe CRASHED. x( hahahs. overall- i dun treat it as a competition. hahahs. tat wat yL come and tell me. and i tell bL. basically. i dun think it a competition. and we satart laughing too. xD and yah. MR KOH going le. ahya. even though his lesson is BORING. but still alittle bit sad to see him leave la. should let other one leave mah. -_-. he leaving on friday and still WILLING to stay back till 5pm. he is good. good and GOOD. kies. and gib us one sort of name design in the box of the periodic table. description of me is *inert. and kenneth snatch it before i could see anything. and start laughing. other start laughing too. wat so funny. i am INERT HOR. cyn. I AM. hahhas. xD no la. i am onli inert in from of teachers. need to write those feedback forms. mr ng and mr chia got distributed out. and then mr koh de. - i gib him quite GOOD things. when i was filing the mr koh feedback. i tell kenneth.- if mr chia would gib out. is better. xD and then after school REALLY REALLY gib out. start wondering it is really just happened. or he snese sumthing fishy. x( dun think too much. xDand kenneth sae. - see. sumthing like tat. i wanna to write alot of the dismay in the piece of paper. BUT. i forced myself not to do so. who got so stupid go write there. x( so in the end. i no choice. i do it quickly and quickly hand in the form. OR i cannot control myself and go write. tat will be bad. i noe the thing- it bad to pass bad comment of ppl when u URSELF is nto perfect AT ALL. and plus. mr chia didnot do any irrating things to me. so actually i hab no reasons to dislike him. but sumhow- he make me feel irrated. xD mr ng period was leng leng period too. he show us lots of things. YAH. and i forget to mention. - even though mr chia voice is softer now. - but i still can HEAR him. xD or i am too senstive. - cause i ask cyn and yL they never hear. btu I HEAR it. xD o. nah mind. forget it la. todae take taxi home. i bring a big big pile home. i going to take the photo and put in. hahhas. and mr koh presents TOO. took a photo wif mr koh after school. i think like half of the class stay. x( too bad not FULL class. and I NOT SITTING RIGHT IN FRONT OF TEACHER TABLE. hahahs. xD yeha. but i still sitting in front la. xD hate to sit infront. and then kok koeng was sitting right in from of the teacher's table. hahhas. kies la. i evil. xD still laughing at him. xD stop. tml a math paper. i DUN aim high. i onli aim to be the middle of the class. xD wish everyone good luck for mye and me TOO. yah. tml english funtional writing should be REPORT. REPORT. should be. xD

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Monday, May 01, 2006, 4:30 PM
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dear diary. i am HERE to blog. zD. new design huh? anyway. yesterday night i received a msg from desmond and got so irrated. i type in my blog as one entry and publish. but after tat i save as draft and i dun hab publish. i wonder will anyone see the entry anot. there are onli two ppl online. one dun go and look at other ppl blog. and another GOT. so maybe he saw it. or maybe no one in the world saw the entry. and it obvious tat wat the entry is about if u are CLOSE to me.
todae i stay at home. hmm. not much for todae. onli tat i went to googles to look for my medicine information and i find out ONE shocking thing. dr soh was celver. he dun or maybe NEVER tell his patients the side effects. i going to TYPE out.

SIDE EFFECTS

  1. skins at ur hands will tried to dry up. NEVER go scratch them. or blood will be seen coming out.- like me. i scratch also dunno. xD
  2. will cause pigmentation if u are under the sun- no wonder the doctor gib me pe excuse and STRESS tat i cannot go under the sun without any hestition. cause it is serious.
  3. lips will crack. - tat one i noe already. BUT more seriously. - sum ppl needed to put moisturer every 2 hours. x( too dry.
  4. it BAD FOR LIVER- this is the shocking news. xD
  5. it is a pill tat prevent ppl from habing baby. i forget wat it is called. BUT we hab learn before last year. deformed baby would form IF one get pregant during the course. the medicine will take 3 to 4 months to be out of ur body totally. sum sae 1.5 years.
  6. the medicine is given after there are liver and blood test. and given according to weight- I DUN HAB.i onli get to sign a form stating i cannot prengant.
  7. cannot donate blood to other ppl when u took the medicine.
  8. menses tend to stop- i already skip last month. x(
  9. advised to hab lots of moisturer aroudn.- cause u will get VERY dry. also must drink lots of water.

FACTS about that

  1. people who took it comments tat it is good and will cure pimples. BUT side effect are bad. x(
  2. a vitiman A derivative (generic name : isotretinoin), it is therefore teratogenic (harmful to fetus). Its action is to reduce sebum secretion and it's effective for normally refractory acne problems.
  3. IT a STRONG medicine. so cannot take it lightly
  4. people mention tat this is a bad medicine. and SHOULD be onli taking it as a last resort.
  5. sum ppl stop consuming it and pimples and oily skin came back.
  6. sum ppl does not. but those who DOES have occasionally pimple breakouts tat are managable.
  7. the whole course took 6 months.
  8. the pimple will get worsen suring the first three weeks.
  9. most ppl get clear and nice complexion.and they describe their skin as SPOTLESS too. - except for the scar after tat.
  10. the side effects depend on indiviual.
  11. sum ppl took too much tat the body is adpated to the medicine. x(
  12. ur skin will completely be oil-less. xD

means. - overall- i concluded tat the medicine hab alot of side effect. but ppl will still take it because it can CLEAR pimples.and i noe tat to those who habing pimple face for at least 5 or 6 years in their lifetime WILL eat the medicine even though of all those side effect. they hab low-self esteem. and alway trying to prevent social embarrassment. x( espacially ppl called them pimple girl/boy or maybe MOPANG face. just like me. i can TOTALLY understand the feeling. and the feeling was VERY BAD. trust me. i been through. seeing other ppl having clear and flawless skin will make u jealous. especially when u tell them about pimples like pus and all those. and they dunnoe wat they are. it irrating. x(