because i was such a well-maintained isolated island that we sat down at a deserted road pavement
The wind was strong but damn cooling
We brought out the chips, munched and drank caslberg & taiwan beet
The feeling was great, away from the crowd, the emails.
Just the trees and probably a few birds around
We used our bags as pillow, put on the pavement & laid down in the middle of the road.
The sky was blue, sun was strong, so i lent a straw hat to cover my face
& i cant believe the island belongs to Singapore
I told my friend, even the pavement in an isolated island of Singapore is much more well-built & structured as compared to the one i saw in Cambodia
& i felt disgusted by it, in a way the global poverty.
Thursday, April 30, 2015, 10:22 PM
I am not positive &funny.
I just made myself appear to be.
I guess sometimes its to mask my real sadness in my heart;
because I am proud
so proud that I cannot stand myself
Fight or flight?!
I always chose flight
I will always shut off / place a protective shield if I senses that theres trouble #lucashonda
A story to share
5 people entered the company at the same period
After two years......
1 first quit
2 got sort of promoted and internal change of job
1 then quit and decide to head back to japan
1 was seconded to thailand and then eventually quit....
Really, I started to wonder, after two years ,how will my batch people be?
Promote one promote
quit one quit
Wednesday, April 29, 2015, 8:24 PM
today seriously i had a bad day
1. being inside an event committee with two experience people. the chairman constantly reminding & kept telling you " supporting role suporting role . they ask question, you just need to take pictures" . maybe its harmless. but back in my heart, my translation is " doing the saikang"
2. being asked in a aggressive manner when you sent an email to them just to keep up with the progress. like wth?
3. brazil business going to close. I really have no motivation to continue with this business 4.#lucashonda
I end work at 5.45pm sharp. Reached home before the sun is down. & then i thought " when is the last time i was like this?"
I hope all these de-motivation will go & please work hard & support and proof yourself.
buck up buck up
screw that chairman
today my friend told me " you will be a good career women"
i replied " no i dont want"
my friend: "then what do you wanna be? "
i replied " a good person"
sometimes its really so hard to be like that. A demotivated self.
I am working hard to be a good person, be it with my business partner or friends.
i am so tired , tired
Tuesday, April 28, 2015, 8:30 PM
I went into work today, still feeling disheartened by the big bomb news
But at the same time, i kept reminding myself not to put in my emotions & feelings anymore.
I dont know what things should i followed up & what i should not follow up.
that's the best expression now because i dont want myself to sink into a "no floor hole", if you translate it back to chinese........................
To admit, i struggled a bit because i dont know/wonder & ponder how should i face this news.
Monday, April 27, 2015, 9:23 PM
My brasil business is gotta closed down. It's like crumble. Sorry, I know I am being emotional. You know, it's my first country, you put in a lot of effort , learning business culture/nature of people , bring comfortable about the people &&&
After all that
The bomb email came. For huge tax rebates
Tax rebates :( :( :(
Friday, April 24, 2015, 9:53 PM
because everything happens for a reason.
, 6:14 PM
Today i went to the dental & have my cap put on top of my screw.
Scary, now i am transferred back to the normal dental clinic for crowning.
I went through alot of physically mentally & financially stress.
The process can never be described in words.
Only the two dentist understood
I;m going to post a detailed experience of my dental implant when the whole process is done.
Because i hope one day someone/somehow in the world will find it useful when they googled things like " implant process", " is implant painful? " "dental implant dentist recommendation".......
I really hate people to ask me about dental implant. last time i took leave, they asked once. now i took leave they asked me again the same question. I dont want to explain because its just a normal concern & within 24hours i bet he/she will forget. I dont put fault at them because afterall we are not dentist #dentist
Sunday, April 19, 2015, 5:13 PM
I think i become less cheerful.
I looked into the mirror & i actually wondered why am i look so unhappy.