Hello hello hello everyone! it's still chinese new year, the 5th day. :D
ok, i got a heart attach on wednesday, which is the 3rd day of chinese new year. because i had been playing/slacking & jumping around since friday and without touching a single thing about my assigement / lab report & cca stuffs. & so when wednesday reached, i almost want to tfaint with piles of things to do/complete/attend to. & then i start feeling irriated on wednesday and thursday. && now the cycle may be repeating because I AM so demotivated to do stuffs now, without deadlines around the corner. sian.
COME ON! be motivated!!!!
why am i so demotivated when i go uni. even my brother says so.
& tml i had my japanese test, yet again. but i only look forward to reading passages. reading comprehension is nice. but learning japanese is not all about reading passages!!
如何して今日本語をう？理由は？笑う。５年間に日本へ行かない。私は思う。
Thursday, January 19, 2012, 10:22 PM
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i always care so much about what people think about me, the external environment i'm in, to the extend that sometimes it's bothering me alot, like alot & creating new problems for myself. not only that, what people is doing really really made me feel upset about myself. i will suddenly lost my own monentum or so. this is very bad, i'm trying hard to not care/see/siam whenever i can at least i thought that will be the best solution for me. but sometimes, it's kind of hard. &&& not only that,i realise that i am so demovitated to do stuffs. last time i'm pretty ok with doing my cca stuffs. but now, i start to feel more and more lazy in doing it and jcf is coming up. like, HOW?! omg.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012, 7:52 PM
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they come in a package, they always do. Even if no matter how hard I tried. I still can't get into their package.
Friday, January 13, 2012, 8:45 PM
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hello hello! it's the first week of school, i'm officially year2,sem2 student! haha.
anyway, first week of sch is always still considered as hoilday to me. stare blankly at lectures, especially during my core subjects & being distracted by alot of other stuffs. anyway, I seriously feel happy to have so many Unrestricted Electives that i can clear. Electives are always the one that i looked forward to everyweek, & i will listen to the lecture. I feel very happy after attending elective lectures. hahaha, i dont know why either. Memorising is bad, but studying part is interesting. Like, when i read my notes for electives, i read not only because of exams, but because i find it very interesting. But, on the other hand, i always start to stare blankly during my cores & feeling guilty about not listening during CBC lectures especially when you are surrounded with coursemates that listen very attentively & i clearly noe myself that it is a core mod to me.
For the past 5 days, i did not come home for dinner. Lessons till 8.30 on both days, the rest are meeting && my japanese class starts. I'm taking N2 Prep course now, but i dont intend to take N2 end of this year though. But N2 isnt tat stressful as i thought it will be ( or issit because it's just starting?! I dont know) But i very scared/worried about the N3. :((( I have lots of cca stuffs to do & i'm been walking alone in school. sometimes, i feel pretty sad to walk alone in sch especially when i see ppl around me walking with a group of their friends. but, i just need to adpat and learn to be independent.
&&& i finally get back my own laptop after 1 month & 4days. I have to call the service centre to "hasten them to repair my laptop." if laptop was something that had emotions, I will tell my laptop that " I miss you! & i am so gald to see you just now when i pick you up at fujitsu centre"
HHAHHA. i think i'm going crazy.
that's all for now! bye bye!
Thursday, January 05, 2012, 9:24 AM
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Sometimes, I wondered if time is an enemy or friend to me. merely, two months & so many things have changed. look, how fragile relationships can be sometimes, it's better not to put in to much effort in certain relationships that you know it's not going to last. because i'm simply just wasting my time & end up feeling kind of disappointed at the end. i'm not emo now though. just felt amazed at how drastic changes happened in my life & how fragile relationshps can be.
Tuesday, January 03, 2012, 7:28 PM
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hello everyone! this is the first post of the year 2012! i hope i will huat this year!
&&& of course meet happy stuffs & be happy!
that's all! bye bye
XOXO
(hahahha)
Friday, December 30, 2011, 4:08 PM
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Hello everyone! it's already 29th Dec! this year is going to end soon! & i'm going to get older soon && sch is going to start soon. :( i met up with alot of ppl this hoilday, maybe it's because i didnt manage to work & hence i had more time for myself to do leisure stuffs. I'm not using my brain & i'm avoiding activites that require the use of my brain. so, I'm a lazy bum now. :(
This year is a preety tough year for me. started my second year of uni, pick up the courage to sit alone in lecure,learn how to walk/eat alone in school, learn how to do things underhand both acedamically or for my cca, manage semester exam stress,manage relationships, manage subcomm/working parnters, taking JLPT test, really thought about my next step after uni...
this year christmas isn't exciting. both tanyy and me went to orchard road for christmas FOR the first time on the day itselfs.and the crowd was horrrible. we were gald that we are wise enough to leave orchard at an earlier time to avoid the peak hours. warm vanilla latte in the cafe was great, especially when it's raining outside. everyone's around me is working hard to achieve their goals. i should not be nua-ing around. in the first place, why should i let myself to nua around? I hope 2012 will be a better year for me!
(knowing that some of my friends will be graduating next year in uni. )
Friday, January 27, 2012, 11:17 PM
Hello hello hello everyone! it's still chinese new year, the 5th day. :D
hello hello! it's the first week of school, i'm officially year2,sem2 student! haha.
Sometimes, I wondered if time is an enemy or friend to me. merely, two months & so many things have changed. look, how fragile relationships can be sometimes, it's better not to put in to much effort in certain relationships that you know it's not going to last. because i'm simply just wasting my time & end up feeling kind of disappointed at the end. i'm not emo now though. just felt amazed at how drastic changes happened in my life & how fragile relationshps can be.
This year is a preety tough year for me. started my second year of uni, pick up the courage to sit alone in lecure,learn how to walk/eat alone in school, learn how to do things underhand both acedamically or for my cca, manage semester exam stress,manage relationships, manage subcomm/working parnters, taking JLPT test, really thought about my next step after uni...
I hope 2012 will be a better year for me!
