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Thursday, June 29, 2023, 9:59 PM

For the past 2 months, i gotten pretty stress at work,

Do OT, bad presentation, forgetful because there's too many tasks at the back of my mind, dealing with humans, communication breakdown, emotional boss, additional responsibility,

Then i thought, why should my life be like that? But part of me, i told myself its adaptation period, don't give up and build up the soft skills,

Yes, i should and i have to. But life shouldn't be so stress especially over work. Liling, you gotta learn to manage.

On the side note, here's the wedding photos Part 1! Loves the mountains in chiang mai. with the unedited view.

Thursday, February 16, 2023, 7:42 PM

I'm getting married,

I'm scared.

Friday, January 13, 2023, 10:58 PM

I hate farewell and goodbye. Colleagues come and go. When you stay too long in the company to see your friends/long time colleagues leave, it kind of hit me very hard every time. When i start to experience more and more, it get easier for me to put a wall Infront of my colleagues because I'm worried that I will get sad when they going to leave one day. Its life, i know. suck it up.

One of the last few closest colleagues of mine is going to leave. Ironically, i don't hang out with her often outside of work but there's some decent lunch meet up someetc. We talked, gossip, grumble to each other at times.

This time, she's leaving to a faraway country called C. I knew this time when she leaves, perhaps we won't meet again or i would say very difficult to meet again. As a friend, i admired and felt happy for her because she is moving to another faraway land to get love and wishing her that she will be living happily ever after with her husband.

Well, like what people says. People come in and out of your life in different stage. If you have fate, you meet. When you part, thats the time where your fate with them have ended.

Didn't want to go to meet her on her last day in office because i hate farewell. Probably one of the few hardest farewells.

Sunday, July 10, 2022, 11:23 PM

I brought a house, OMG.

Put that precious 1% , and the cycle kick in now. To celebrate and remember this day, may i huat.

Wednesday, April 13, 2022, 7:49 PM

He said i force him too much, he said when will i ever get tired of arguing & complaining,

are we really suit to be together?

Saturday, November 20, 2021, 5:36 PM

At the age of 30, particularly recently, when i woke up everyday

i keep reminding myself that i only live once and do anything that i wanna do. Been banging so hard on OLA and growing OLA.

I find peace and aim in OLA.

Funny enough, recently i kept remind me of my "ex-es", like how are they, do they remember me etc. I get sad not because i didnt get over them but its just that for every "ex" or "almost together " story, there was this regret. Regret of not clearing things up, regret of not saying proper goodbye, or regret of not being brave enough at that point of time to admit. Different story different regret, hidden way deep inside my heart. The more i bury, the more it surface out. especially in times of late night when there's no external interruption.

I know these regret can never be remove from my life.

Friday, October 15, 2021, 9:25 PM

Today marks the day whereby my "first" subordinate under me quit her job. As a friend, I'm happy for her to find something different because I knew that she is not suitable for the job scope. Being her boss was difficult frankly because every time when something bad happen, i will always have to think of many ways to report "positively" or follow up closely with her on the emails. It's probably a good for both me and her when she decide to quit. But, in some part of me, I still felt the tinge sense of sadness. Probably i put in so many effort in teaching her and "looking after" her but yet in the end I didn't expect that she will tender resignation yet so fast. Probably a sense of disappointment on myself too?

Perhaps.