You know, I have a crush of this same particular guy for 2 years.
Am i loyal or simply stupid?
& this guy has a girlfriend.
Totally what i look like now.
Or perhaps is is one of the emotional night i have.
Friday, April 07, 2017, 10:49 PM
Today is Friday night.
I am so down 😞😞
I just had my driving lesson and yet the instructor failed me for the baisc lesson.
I thought I could at least clear a single section.
Seemed that I retake that section
And now , at the back of my heart , I start to doubt if i am really good at driving.
Did I make the correct choice to learn ?
Or I shouldn't have even at the beginning.
Such simple topic and yet I failed .
Big bastard asshole Liling
Thursday, January 19, 2017, 10:06 PM
I don't know if it's my pre-period and thus I am feeling down
I felt really down now
Like, my job yet again .i went for this tarot reading that day.
She told me that I am internally not balanced and need to find my inner spirit back , start believe in yourself , learn to receive from god and get in touch regliously
I have to much ego talking and life is not just about my own.
I agreed to some extend . 😐😐😐😐
I kept thinking my job is unfair but prepahs the real reason is me myself?
Blinded by anger and decide to stop receiving .
26 this year and I don't want to felt restless this year again
Thursday, January 05, 2017, 8:30 PM
Many things happened & this is probably one of the days that i felt so down over work.
Ever since i changed my job rotation, i have been so down .
it looks glamorous from the outside, but the inside is like rot.
Today i heard that a guy who came into office about 1/2 year later than me is sent for placement in my thailand office.
my heart sank like real hard.
I kept wondering if its because of my incompetency and hence i am not selected (?) or simply due that i am a girl ( such discrimination do happened in my company even though this is 21st century_)
so now its only left with
2. car licence
hang on there, liling!
Sunday, December 04, 2016, 9:03 PM
Can a girl & a guy be really be pure friends ?
Now I am really doubting so.
Thursday, November 17, 2016, 9:00 PM
, 9:00 PM
actually when you are in a whatapp group chat,
your friends start talking about BTO, buying resale flats , double dates & wedding,...
your heart sank.
i cant help it but at some point of my heart, i felt 失落
but that day i realised how much i am worried to get myself a boyfriend and then get pregnant.
will i become really unmarried in my this life?
sometimes i really wonder.
Wednesday, November 09, 2016, 9:40 PM
You know I felt bad today about myself.
Today I went for an interview
It's a job that I wanted , the reporting manager is not bad I Guess
But what I don't like was
-small company (too small)
- far from mrt
-leave only 10 annual leave 😱😱😱
It was through an agency. So the agency asked me about my interest about this job due the hiring manager is keen to offer it to me.
& I actually reply. First ,
"Let me know the whole remuneration package"
From that second , until now, I felt so ashamed of myself
So much of what I have been saying , to do a job I like and stuffs
But at the end of the day
Look what i actually consider
But I think "small company" and "far from mrt" play some role
How materialistic have I thought to myself
I felt really bad about that Japanese manager. He is very sincere when he talked to me
I Guess he really wanted to hire me.