Yesterday, i was trying to rush & finish my work at night . My mum was out of town, my dad & brother was asleep, my sis on other hand has yet to return. The room was silent, dead silent. As i was doing/rushing my work, ironically my mind was at peace. At that instant, I realised that unknowingly, I got lost in the fast-paced , ever changing industry
Nowadays, I faced with tremendous stress, stress & pressure. I start pushing people, get pissed off and whine and complain very badly.
Yesterday the silence was good, it made me realised that i got lost in the race.
Why do we got pissed off by our counterparts easily sometimes? ( ironically, we claim that we are "same company group" but located in other branch)
Simply because we never stand in other's people shoes enough to think of their situation. We aren't considerate enough
It's simple but yet most of us didn't realise that, or should i put it as circumstances left us with no alternative to chose.
Thanks for the dead silent last night
I always work well with silent, to fully concentrate and think of something.
I can't perform well with noise.
Work hard because part of me is enjoying my current work. :)
Saturday, May 16, 2015, 11:19 AM
because i was such a well-maintained isolated island that we sat down at a deserted road pavement
The wind was strong but damn cooling
We brought out the chips, munched and drank caslberg & taiwan beet
The feeling was great, away from the crowd, the emails.
Just the trees and probably a few birds around
We used our bags as pillow, put on the pavement & laid down in the middle of the road.
The sky was blue, sun was strong, so i lent a straw hat to cover my face
& i cant believe the island belongs to Singapore
I told my friend, even the pavement in an isolated island of Singapore is much more well-built & structured as compared to the one i saw in Cambodia
& i felt disgusted by it, in a way the global poverty.
Thursday, April 30, 2015, 10:22 PM
I am not positive &funny.
I just made myself appear to be.
I guess sometimes its to mask my real sadness in my heart;
because I am proud
so proud that I cannot stand myself
Fight or flight?!
I always chose flight
I will always shut off / place a protective shield if I senses that theres trouble #lucashonda
A story to share
5 people entered the company at the same period
After two years......
1 first quit
2 got sort of promoted and internal change of job
1 then quit and decide to head back to japan
1 was seconded to thailand and then eventually quit....
Really, I started to wonder, after two years ,how will my batch people be?
Promote one promote
quit one quit
Wednesday, April 29, 2015, 8:24 PM
today seriously i had a bad day
1. being inside an event committee with two experience people. the chairman constantly reminding & kept telling you " supporting role suporting role . they ask question, you just need to take pictures" . maybe its harmless. but back in my heart, my translation is " doing the saikang"
2. being asked in a aggressive manner when you sent an email to them just to keep up with the progress. like wth?
3. brazil business going to close. I really have no motivation to continue with this business 4.#lucashonda
I end work at 5.45pm sharp. Reached home before the sun is down. & then i thought " when is the last time i was like this?"
I hope all these de-motivation will go & please work hard & support and proof yourself.
buck up buck up
screw that chairman
today my friend told me " you will be a good career women"
i replied " no i dont want"
my friend: "then what do you wanna be? "
i replied " a good person"
sometimes its really so hard to be like that. A demotivated self.
I am working hard to be a good person, be it with my business partner or friends.
i am so tired , tired
Tuesday, April 28, 2015, 8:30 PM
I went into work today, still feeling disheartened by the big bomb news
But at the same time, i kept reminding myself not to put in my emotions & feelings anymore.
I dont know what things should i followed up & what i should not follow up.
that's the best expression now because i dont want myself to sink into a "no floor hole", if you translate it back to chinese........................
To admit, i struggled a bit because i dont know/wonder & ponder how should i face this news.
Monday, April 27, 2015, 9:23 PM
My brasil business is gotta closed down. It's like crumble. Sorry, I know I am being emotional. You know, it's my first country, you put in a lot of effort , learning business culture/nature of people , bring comfortable about the people &&&
After all that
The bomb email came. For huge tax rebates
Tax rebates :( :( :(
Friday, April 24, 2015, 9:53 PM
because everything happens for a reason.
, 6:14 PM
Today i went to the dental & have my cap put on top of my screw.
Scary, now i am transferred back to the normal dental clinic for crowning.
I went through alot of physically mentally & financially stress.
The process can never be described in words.
Only the two dentist understood
I;m going to post a detailed experience of my dental implant when the whole process is done.
Because i hope one day someone/somehow in the world will find it useful when they googled things like " implant process", " is implant painful? " "dental implant dentist recommendation".......
I really hate people to ask me about dental implant. last time i took leave, they asked once. now i took leave they asked me again the same question. I dont want to explain because its just a normal concern & within 24hours i bet he/she will forget. I dont put fault at them because afterall we are not dentist #dentist