____LoNeLy

2012-01-27T23:17:00.004+08:00

今、心配する。新しいレポートをして、先輩のレポートがないので、いらいらする。もし先輩のレポートが持てない場合、自分で書かなければなりません。でも、私が無理です、できません。難しいそうです。誰も伝えてくれない、マークですから。自分で書けかな。。どうしようかな、どうしようかな。。。。。。祈る、祈る、祈る

2012-01-27T15:24:00.002+08:00

Hello hello hello everyone! it's still chinese new year, the 5th day. :D

ok, i got a heart attach on wednesday, which is the 3rd day of chinese new year. because i had been playing/slacking & jumping around since friday and without touching a single thing about my assigement / lab report & cca stuffs. & so when wednesday reached, i almost want to tfaint with piles of things to do/complete/attend to. & then i start feeling irriated on wednesday and thursday. && now the cycle may be repeating because I AM so demotivated to do stuffs now, without deadlines around the corner. sian.

COME ON! be motivated!!!!

why am i so demotivated when i go uni. even my brother says so.

& tml i had my japanese test, yet again. but i only look forward to reading passages. reading comprehension is nice. but learning japanese is not all about reading passages!!

如何して今日本語をう？理由は？笑う。５年間に日本へ行かない。私は思う。

2012-01-19T22:22:00.002+08:00

i always care so much about what people think about me, the external environment i'm in,
to the extend that sometimes it's bothering me alot, like alot
& creating new problems for myself.
not only that, what people is doing really really made me feel upset about myself.
i will suddenly lost my own monentum or so.
this is very bad, i'm trying hard to not care/see/siam whenever i can at least i thought that will be the best solution for me.
but sometimes, it's kind of hard.
&&& not only that,i realise that i am so demovitated to do stuffs. last time i'm pretty ok with doing my cca stuffs. but now, i start to feel more and more lazy in doing it and jcf is coming up.
like, HOW?!
omg.

2012-01-17T19:52:00.000+08:00

they come in a package, they always do. Even if no matter how hard I tried. I still can't get into their package.

2012-01-13T20:45:00.003+08:00

hello hello! it's the first week of school, i'm officially year2,sem2 student! haha.

anyway, first week of sch is always still considered as hoilday to me. stare blankly at lectures, especially during my core subjects & being distracted by alot of other stuffs. anyway, I seriously feel happy to have so many Unrestricted Electives that i can clear. Electives are always the one that i looked forward to everyweek, & i will listen to the lecture. I feel very happy after attending elective lectures. hahaha, i dont know why either. Memorising is bad, but studying part is interesting. Like, when i read my notes for electives, i read not only because of exams, but because i find it very interesting. But, on the other hand, i always start to stare blankly during my cores & feeling guilty about not listening during CBC lectures especially when you are surrounded with coursemates that listen very attentively & i clearly noe myself that it is a core mod to me.

For the past 5 days, i did not come home for dinner. Lessons till 8.30 on both days, the rest are meeting && my japanese class starts. I'm taking N2 Prep course now, but i dont intend to take N2 end of this year though. But N2 isnt tat stressful as i thought it will be ( or issit because it's just starting?! I dont know) But i very scared/worried about the N3. :((( I have lots of cca stuffs to do & i'm been walking alone in school. sometimes, i feel pretty sad to walk alone in sch especially when i see ppl around me walking with a group of their friends. but, i just need to adpat and learn to be independent.

&&& i finally get back my own laptop after 1 month & 4days. I have to call the service centre to "hasten them to repair my laptop." if laptop was something that had emotions, I will tell my laptop that " I miss you! & i am so gald to see you just now when i pick you up at fujitsu centre"

HHAHHA. i think i'm going crazy.

that's all for now! bye bye!

2012-01-05T09:24:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, I wondered if time is an enemy or friend to me. merely, two months & so many things have changed. look, how fragile relationships can be sometimes, it's better not to put in to much effort in certain relationships that you know it's not going to last. because i'm simply just wasting my time & end up feeling kind of disappointed at the end. i'm not emo now though. just felt amazed at how drastic changes happened in my life & how fragile relationshps can be.

2012-01-03T19:28:00.002+08:00

hello everyone! this is the first post of the year 2012! i hope i will huat this year!

&&& of course meet happy stuffs & be happy!

that's all! bye bye

XOXO

(hahahha)

2011-12-30T16:08:00.005+08:00

Hello everyone! it's already 29th Dec! this year is going to end soon!
& i'm going to get older soon && sch is going to start soon. :(
i met up with alot of ppl this hoilday, maybe it's because i didnt manage to work & hence i had more time for myself to do leisure stuffs. I'm not using my brain & i'm avoiding activites that require the use of my brain. so, I'm a lazy bum now. :(

This year is a preety tough year for me. started my second year of uni, pick up the courage to sit alone in lecure,learn how to walk/eat alone in school, learn how to do things underhand both acedamically or for my cca, manage semester exam stress,manage relationships, manage subcomm/working parnters, taking JLPT test, really thought about my next step after uni...

this year christmas isn't exciting. both tanyy and me went to orchard road for christmas FOR the first time on the day itselfs.and the crowd was horrrible. we were gald that we are wise enough to leave orchard at an earlier time to avoid the peak hours. warm vanilla latte in the cafe was great, especially when it's raining outside. everyone's around me is working hard to achieve their goals. i should not be nua-ing around. in the first place, why should i let myself to nua around?
I hope 2012 will be a better year for me!

(knowing that some of my friends will be graduating next year in uni. )

2011-12-22T12:45:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone! ( i wonder if there is really someone! ) HHAHHAA.
ok ok ok, it's hoilday! (for two weeks already.) I didnt really find a job. & its like the first time in "dont know how many years" that I didnt get a job during hoildays!
one month hoilday will soon be over. :( then the competitiveness/kaisu-ness among coursemates will start all over again. I was literally slacking for the whole of last sem. i have no motivation. -.-
opps. oh ya, my fujutsu laptop died infront of me on 8th dec 2011 when i was happily watching my hongkong drama. -.- & it will take at least one month before i can get back.
& i'm missing my white fujitsu laptop now. :(
I miss my laptop, i reallydo. ;(((((

I went to different place/do different things/good food/eat ice-cream during these two weeks.

madarin hotel's buffet lunch isnt nice,

except the "one mouthful soba" (which i added alot of seaweed). :) not worth the price if there's no groupon to happened with

& of course, since i have n source of income now, i am broke!!! ok, anyway, i feel very happy that i went to butik timah hill &&& henderson brigde ( that one no really explored though, &&& i will want to go again if anyone ask me)butiktimah hill was fun except for the tall,rocky steps that can make me fall down easily. but as long as i followed how tay yl's path, & be extra careful, i wont fall. hahahaa. Henderson brigde, i didnt noe such bridge exis in singapore. it tall & pretty! lol

oh, anyway, we went to see the Doraemon at CCK that day. & i happened to see the garfield performances at Jurong point with tanyy. lol kids shows, kid shows.

what i hadnt done yet is to go shopping & really buy some clothes.
OH YA! and during the outing with my course mates, we BBQ in the rain using longlasting charcoal. & i only had 4 marshmallows because only a small packet of white marshallow was brought. -.- & i lost my ezlink card ( i dont know where i had drop it) and got complained by my mother but my dad only show me his annoyed face which made me more uneasy.

& then we had our JAC christmas party/sushi making party. Fun laughing with these bunch of CCA mates though but i didnt really enjoy much due to various reasons. but still, sometimes, i wonder if i didnt meet these bunch of "crazy/lame" bunch of ppl in uni, my uni life can become more mundane. at least, when sch become really depressing/lab have been so bad &, there's at least a place where i can really get a good laugh. :)
i guess, that's what CCA are for.
if i'm blogging more often, i'm will post more pictures ok.
i think i blog very little nowadays. :(

2011-12-06T22:37:00.001+08:00

the face i had when everything came to the end ( at least for this year)

hoildays. can be very bored when u dont really have anything to do.

and i'm planning at home today what i should do. some baking, tidying, planning

2011-12-03T19:35:00.009+08:00

えっ！こんばんは。明日はテストが受ける。だげど、今は勉強しないのです。ちょっと、心配させてる。自分で、勉強するぺきると思う。ただ、なにもしないんです。テストのは難しいと思う。私の友達おかげで、日本語が諦めないです。試験こそ、合格が欲しいなー。資格が欲しいもんです。今日本語の復習をやめた。だから、ここで日本語で書きてる。できるだけか、教科書からなかなか言葉・文法を使う。そろそろ、始めましょ。

天気予報、昼から夜にかけて、多き雨がざあざあして、涼しくなります。傘を持ってない日に限って雨が降る。いつもタクシーに乗りたい限って、何台も見えない。時々、電話を通して約束した。時間がないに加えて、イライラする。

最近の状況だ。今学校で、試験を終わった。私にとって、難しいと思う。私の友達も思う。でも、友達たちはうそを話すかどうか、分からない。大学校せいて、今誰も信じられません。試験の復習の最中に、他の事が考えられる。悪いけど、自分のコントロールができない。私比べて、友達はよく勉強。その上、私より頭がいい。休み間、好きな事をするつもりです。ドラマを見し、運動し、友達に会うし、たくさんケーキを食べし。。。楽しみしてるね。休みを抜きにしては生活をつまらくなると思う。

去年より、オーチャードで、クリスマスの装飾きれいなー。昨日、クラスは１０時半まで終わった。いい先生ので、疲れない。先生の話のシュペーは早い。でも、私は分かるよ。合わせると思う。最後レスランから、チョコレートをいただきます。そのとき、クリスマスの装飾を見られた。ところで、何を続けるのはまだ分かるよ。日本語を諦めないうちに、習うだけ習います。もしかしたら、クラスをやめて、日本語どんどん忘れちゃった。もし、日本で文化交流すれば、上手になるかもしれない。でも、日本へいくを欲しないの。笑　

来週は姉を車を貸しるつもりです。嬉しい！いろいろ所へいけます。そして、遅く家に帰るができる。

今、雨は小さくなりそうです。

じゃ、また。今、気をなる。

2011-11-26T22:27:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i really dont understand wat the shit am i doing with my life at this point of time.
there's no turning back & all along i'm pushing myself to move on.
but i'm worried, tired & very unhappy.

2011-11-11T23:09:00.003+08:00

For the whole day in school, i kept telling and repeating to myself :

"this is uni, this is uni, this is uni"

see,saw,seen. somehow, the impact today was bigger.

but what do you expected?

"this is uni. and how uni works."

2011-11-04T09:33:00.003+08:00

Hello! i know i didn't post any photo for so long! HAHAHA.
ok, actually i am not very happy , i just wrote a HAHAHA. -.-
anway, hahahah let me booast abit ok. i very happy i can read the whole junk of japanese paragraph ~ ahahah I am very impress by myself. hehehe. X: X: X: && now it's left with the speaking part ! omg, so difficult to master. :( writing and readingis ok. speaking is diffucult. but i dont want to go japan during this stage of my life. hahaha

i will rmb-ed how i worte up at 6.30 to send Suguru san off. cause i woke up at 6.30am in the morning. lol haha. but i was late, end up. ehhe.
i have alot of such to write, but i dont want to write here cause it's public. X;OMG. later got mock mock mock mock test. sian.
i very scared hehehheheh. :(

2011-10-26T23:22:00.001+08:00

i feel so sad nowdays.
Dont ask me why.
Sometimes i feel like going to one corner and start drawing circles myself,
emo a bit,
and then get on with my life.
:( :(

2011-10-22T18:09:00.002+08:00

昨日は、ハロウィンです！私が分からない！

昨日は友達と一緒にビールを飲むつもりです。

ビールを飲むがほしいんです。残念、残念！

でも、行かない。プロジェクトがあるし、日本語の宿題もする。

JLPTクラスとてもストレス。たくさん宿題をくれるし、先生も早くしゃべるので。

宿題のは難しい。理解は５回読みます。いくら読むでも、分かりません！

学校で、もともと忙しい。化学もともと難しい。　

心配なー。

2011-10-15T22:58:00.001+08:00

i understood your japanese you speak,
but i choose to say " i dont know. "
i told myself
" i am not going to be harsh, not going to be harsh, not going to be harsh."

2011-10-09T22:31:00.002+08:00

最近は私の気持ちが悪いん。いつも、悪いニュースがたくさんあるし、難しい人間関係もあるし。。
最近学校へ行く時のは嬉しいない。一人あるいてから、たくさん物を考える。
いこまで、1ヶ月日本語のクラスをやめるので、日本語を悪くなるね。
卓さんに話す時、ちょっと？？？ね。本当に？？？？と思う。
ねねねねねえええ。大学校生は、本当に頭がいいですか、勉強が上手ですか？
でも、私の頭が良くないと思う。本当。
いつ私の頭が良くなりますか？
ね。
いま、疲れた。何も考えないと思う！
じゃね。また、また、また、またね。

2011-10-07T21:31:00.002+08:00

This week was really bad week for me.

I learnt alot of stuffs in a hard way again.

to those who had been hearing out, Thanks.

I had been going through a tough week. :(

I hoep everything going to be smoothly.

bye. i am going to do my project.

2011-10-03T22:21:00.002+08:00

hello! recess week was over.
Went back to sch. But i went back to sch two times during the week to do project. But it's just a short break. managed to went out with tay yiling in one of the days. Bukit timah railway station was a disppointment, it's just merely 1.6km left so there's nothing left to see, the house was locked & the place doesn't feel like railway anymore, island creamry 's ice-cream was nice( but tay yL don't like mine. ) I tried to find the photo that i took with S25 the previous time but i couldn't.
we got lost in singapore then. then stumbled to "farrer" ( i think) LRT which was not even open then. we didnt realise that it was not open yet because we just alighted after i pointed out to yL the sign. then we realise only when the mrt esclator was shield off. LOL. LOL. then there's no people walking in & out of the station! so we still manage to board a bus which lead up straight to holland v &&& we missed the bustop and have to walk back. LOL. when we were at holland v, both of us was so tired that we are too lazy to go buy food. ( & end up yL was the one buying. LOL ) && to dessert bar. overprice, i dont think i'll recomment to anyone though.

JAC subcomm picnic outing. Not alot of ppl turned up. ( as you can see. ) many challenges facing ahead. working with new people, either subcommers or main-commers. I learnt alot of stuffs.

for now, someone have been in my mind sort of in a negative way for these few days. so vexed over it. but it's over. i am still vexed because i'm still thinking. OMG. I CANNNOT THINK simply it's just over ne. &&& i truly understood how difficult it is to master well a lang. writing, speaking, listening to a new lang is very different. every different aspect ( wrting, speaking listening) requires different tech, skills to do so. now i noe why we are tested in these three areas in sch. i always thought the way lang was tested was just a manner.

& i was totally wrong all along.

That's all. bye. i am not happy as i am typing this entry.

2011-09-30T22:50:00.002+08:00

i didn't want to play taiji with you anymore.
because i am too tired to play taiji & all i want is to solve this problem.
&&& your directness freak me out yesterday night.
&& made me think of a plan about how i should go about doing it.
OMG
i just hope i'm oversensitive. but if you touch on this topic,
i'm going to say it striaght.

2011-09-25T21:32:00.003+08:00

According to the BIG FIVE used to measure your personality traits,

I am consider as conscientiousness, emotional unstability, not openness, agreeableness & extroversions. according to MBIT , i am extraversion, thinking, intution, judment. OMG. -.-

for successful managers, u need to self-monitor, self awareness , know to be senstivity, adpatability to social cues so as to tackle with to external environment. &&& of course to possess emtional intelligence to deal with/evualate/control with yours & others emtions.

Organisation commitments behaveiour is something i have to take note.

i find motivation to work hard for my postition :D

on a side note, i realise that my japanese test is on 4th dec. OMG. -.- i should really get into some real work. talk japanese to my own self, think as much as possible in my head using japanese, and evasdropping ppl talking japanese.. that's what i do whenever my school's entry test is nearing. but this is not just barely entry test heh. JLPT heh. -.- OMG.

2011-09-24T22:11:00.001+08:00

i think the whole organisation very cui.
i start to wonder if i am very cui also.
-.-
but i dont want to be cui,
i will try my best to do my job well, because i dotn want to be cui.

2011-09-22T22:11:00.002+08:00

being in a maincomm is very different from being a subcomm.

eating dinner with ppl that you dont really know well,

or ppl who when they are unhappy, but they wont show out in front of you & only complain behind your back

can be really very uncomfortable.

i have to watch my words, the extent of jokes i made,

the way i behave to ensure that the efforts i made before won't' go to waste.

even though we are close,

but still, you are my boss/ very good friends of my bosses, when it comes to postition,

i have the mentality that,

even if i am unahppy with some stuffs that are going on, I cannot express my anger, impatient, complains, dismay to you.

Even though u pour out some of ur thoughts to me, i cannot do the same to you.

&&& of course, i cannot let you understand my thoughts that well.

I still have to continue, because I 'm holding that position now.

2011-09-17T22:19:00.002+08:00

& still angry over how i got fly kite from them.

2011-09-13T22:44:00.003+08:00

i dont fcuking understand ppl like to change here and there
and they dont tell me tat they couldn't make it when i gave them so many chance to do it.

chew.
please recall what u learn in ur managment mod. -.-
reality.
-.-

2011-09-07T14:17:00.005+08:00

oh great, this is how i'm feeling now. doing something that i noe it's wrong. i just finished writing the stuffs that i ought to write. i write, stop, write , stop and write and stop, and then i finally i finished. i'm feeling very irriated because i know it's wrong but i'm forcing myseld to do something that's wrong. i met another senior, and the senior told me something similar.

it's going against my own ethnics this time, my 原则 this time. that's why i'm so vexed these few days. but i always believe my own 做人的原则。even though i did evil stuffs here & there, i dont cross the line that i deemed unacceptable. && it's the first time now.

but, if u think another way, how much does ethnics really value?

i'm very unhappy and uneasy now.

take the risk, & pray hard.

2011-09-07T09:39:00.002+08:00

sometimes, when i talk to him, i feel like i'm stupid.

like, sometimes i really wonder if he treats me like an idoit.

but, at least he will help me ( only after he finish his stuffs. ) :(

just feel so screwed up nowadays.

2011-09-03T18:59:00.000+08:00

the more polite i sounded,

the more pissed i am actually.

2011-08-28T13:25:00.002+08:00

i went jurong bird park yesterday, & it's free. because it's my birthday month. good deal. LOL ;P
jurong bird park, chinatown & then beer market again.
we are lucky that yesterday the weather was cooling , no sun. good for walking around jurong bird park & the queue at koi was not long at all when we buy.
i went with natasha, masa san and surugu san. they are exchange students that come over to ntu for research, going to stay for 2 months though.
of course, we let them try some food &&&& also durian. hahaha
it's always very interesting to see how japanese ppl react to when they eat durian.
nice experience,good cultural exhcange with them yesterday. :)
& of course even though i dont speak fluent japanese, but i can sense that my japanese improved since last year. :)
it's always the speaking that's the diffuclt.

2011-08-27T10:51:00.002+08:00

I very sian ah, sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian .

but nevermind, i just very sian.

2011-08-26T10:03:00.001+08:00

i always feel so pressurize typing emails in japanese to the japanese ppl. -.-

just like how you have to check and check and check and check and check and check

when i type emails to Mr Roger Winder last sem.

2011-08-24T10:06:00.001+08:00

like, what the fuck.

2011-08-23T22:43:00.000+08:00

我已经很烦了。

2011-08-22T21:36:00.003+08:00

the only place i want to go - HOME. i want to go home. like once i step out of the house, walk down the streeets, walk to sch, i have the feeling of going home. I know why myself, but i am just too scared to admit that. bye. I am back home now and i am very comfortable.

anyway, just now i met xingying lim and jun xian at canteen b. xy was saying tat she couldnt get into a certain cca community. then i was passing comment about :

me: this kind of committee need connections to pull you in one.

xy & junxian: no la, based on merit. cause their need to find those ppl who know how to use photoshop

me: i dont believe in merit. you dont have friends to pull you in?

junxian: got, but i tell her dont pull me in. i want to go in based on merit.

me: i dont believe in merit.

junxian: you dont believe because you seen too many of times ppl pulling strings.

somehow, this conversation somehow made me think alittle, or maybe at least made me feel something. i dont know what either.

2011-08-21T16:30:00.003+08:00

It's Week 2 of the school, had lab work after 4 months of not doing it. totally got a culture shock then. it's like No-one-really-cares-about-you in the lab. everyone do their own experiment & things got worse when u got a TA that dont really teach you the correct things when u ask him questions. and so of the stuffs, i totally forgotten how to set up. i dont know how i am going to survive in the labs in my cbc course, but i still got to.

last day of add-drop&& i'm hestitating about my Energy Resource Management module, looks fun, but i was pretty scared. but i guess there's nothing i can get either. I realise that my timetable is so different from my clique's ppl & there's always like 1and a half hour breaks in between. maybe, i maybe too lazy to call them & i'll rot and stone somewhere in the school. i dont know. (maybe i'll try out next week. ) This week was the recuritment week & i was totally drained out. Because of the new management, working with the same ppl, but wat's change is the position in which i am holding now to work with ppl. of course, things changes along the way, either for the better or the worst. i'm trying to do my best & i'll pray hard that everything going to turn out well. && went over to natasha's 21th birthday and i started to think how should i really celebrate my birthday. (maybe it's a bit early. HAHA . but i cant help thinking about it. ) the cake was nice, but i was full to get another one. lol . went to natsumatsuri(the japanese festival ) yesterday with my jc cca mates. was preety tired frm queuing the food , the queue was damn long. &&&& kianyong was so tired.he couldnt stand crowds. met alot of ppl there, like my ex-japanese classmates, my cca mates, amine club.. just pretty so, maybe i'll go again next year soon. haha.

talking about this, i'm going to sign up for the jlpt test tml. I-K-O-M-A.

2011-08-14T19:31:00.002+08:00

へええええ。。。皆さん、こんばんは！

いま、気持ちがいいので、宿題をしないし、コンピュータも使いし、ころころし。。。。
学を始まります、頑張ってね！でも、教師を教える時は、難しいと思う。

それは、私の友達だ、

私の誕生日の祝賀、本とにありがとう。

いまは、私のクラスの時間割ですから、日本語のクラスはちょっとやめて。。。

十月に続ける。試験を受けかとうか、もちょっと考えます。

2011-08-09T22:09:00.002+08:00

i really dont know what to do already,
can someone just give me some assurance?
i need to have a sense of security now. :(

2011-08-07T22:18:00.002+08:00

明日は、学校を始まります。

挑戦を迎えるんですから、心配する。

私も考えます。

しかし、何もできないんです

「スポーツがする。」と思う。

じゃ、またね。

2011-08-05T13:17:00.002+08:00

私は本当に貴方に頼ることができる？

i'm not going to put so much hope into it,

cause i'll end up feelin more disappointed.

2011-08-04T08:24:00.002+08:00

hello! i'm workin at my sch's new cafe now just for 3 days! :D

( to help out ppl's shift because most of them are either in hall camps. )

oh, anyway, i was merely asked to do dishwashing and stuffs there, suber sian.

because it's my fault not to ask clearly first &&& calvin introduced me, so it's not very good to say i dont want to work.

anyway, there's like 7 maangers there. I met like 5 of them.

one is damn bossy, one is keep quiet ( got anything will indirectly tell ppl to tell me) , she's still nice, another one knows how to order/teach/ask ppl to do things poiltely, one is sporty and smart (as in, he seemed to know what u are doing/thinking) , another is very good(more suibian), &&& he's in charge of the kitchen.

LOL.
okay, that's all. ( but i dont want to continue working when sch's starts. )

bye.

2011-08-03T08:00:00.002+08:00

I think i very slow, my recent craze for CNBLUE and Kenji Sakaguchi.

LOL! eh, but nevermind. HAHHAH

but i still like Takuya Kimura!

HAHHA. nevermind.

i dont feel like dragging myself out of the house now. very sian.

today will be a long day. & i still need to go to the cafe as a dish washer.

sian. -.-

2011-08-02T09:12:00.002+08:00

リーリンさん、おめでとう誕生日！
貴方は私が馬鹿だと思う！でも、大丈夫ね！

今日は、嬉いので。

今日は、うちでころころしいるつもりです。

でも、昼ご飯は、父と一緒にたべる、私が扱う！

働いたお金があまりもってる、最近医者はいったですから。

じゃ、またね！

2011-07-31T22:24:00.000+08:00

i really dont want to give up.

please hang on there.

2011-07-31T09:36:00.002+08:00

it's kind of weird now to see two kinds of situation in my facebook.

graduation & foc.

i have friends who are graduating,wearing the hat,posing smartly for the photo

&&& i have friends who looked so dirty but happy inside the foc photo.

then,come the bash,peagent event.

all these, i'll been through myself last year & then now i see,everything's repeating. LOL

mixed feeelings.
everyone's going to pass this stage.

i want to graduate,but i'm scared the stuffs i'm going meet after graduaton.

what's more,

do i want to be a chemist?

tat's an unknown answer.

i already got a clear answer in my heart now, just tat i dont noe i'll change my views 3 years down the road.

2011-07-29T20:27:00.002+08:00

虽然很期待今天，5点45分的到来，

走出门时，我也很开心，

但是当我向我的同事说最后一次的再见时，我难免也会感到有点失落。

这种感觉是我每一次结束一分工都会有的。

但我也知道，人都要往见走，

这个世界不会为了莫一个人的不存在而停止，

或者，谁没有谁而活不下去。

所谓新的不去旧的不来。

有点离题了，哈哈！

2011-07-27T22:01:00.001+08:00

一场欢喜，一场空。

有时，不能太过期待，以免不必要的失望。

2011-07-22T20:03:00.003+08:00

ちょうど今は、母に以前は薬を飲む事を話てあげる。

今私が薬を飲む事のは、話ない。

母はいらいらしています。

見る時は、本当に怖くて、「すみません」と言われたいん。

でも、話させない。

2011-07-21T21:37:00.002+08:00

「悲しいんです。

家へ帰る、帰りたい。

いつも、思ってる。」

2011-07-20T20:35:00.002+08:00

{just like class photo.}

最近は、急がしくないて、ちょといらいらしています。

として気持ちが悪いですか、本当に分からないんの。

いつも急がしい生活だ、合わせないと思う。

あの。。。も一つ事件が書いたいんです。

今、毎日薬を飲んで、朝は１錠、晩後はも２錠。

私の顔のために。私の顔のために。

前は、いくら考えでも、薬を飲まなければならないと思う。

実は、毎日心配してる。私が身体の状態かどうか、分かりません、見えません。

今、若いですから、大丈夫ね。時間渡すと、だんだん年を取って。。。。

自分の状態は、私が知ってるだけ。

私今病気じゃないのに、毎日薬の飲む。身体の状態が悪くなるのは、心配してる。

しかし、今自信がぜんぜんない。。

後に、家族は、私の薬は飲む事、ぜんぜん分かりません。

2011-07-17T21:38:00.002+08:00

had durian buffet at goodwood park hotel today with tanyy & yl. :D

Happy! :D cause i like to eat cakes and sweet stuffs.

will post when yL send me her photos ne!

bye.

2011-07-16T14:28:00.001+08:00

hey! it's the EQ that's important.

2011-07-15T19:56:00.004+08:00

i wanted to end my work early, but i dare not tell my manager.

she's very good to me, like first time i met such an understanding in-charge.

& i enjoy crapping and evadropping with the japanese people.

this remind me that i have to do my japanese homework tml.

i'm intending to take the test, but can i cope?

seeing my friends who went for exchange programme now made me so feel like going. but i guess, at the point of time, i'll miss singapore. (i'm serious)

this is random, but yah.

bye bye, people! ;)

i just feel like nua-ing at home now.

2011-07-13T22:09:00.002+08:00

有时后，我真的，真的会觉的很惭愧。

为我自己的斤斤计较，小气，虚伪的假象，心计，好胜心感到很无奈。

刚刚出来社会作工时，我只是很单纯的为了不要被欺负。

但是，不知何时，我变的和他们一样。

有时，我在想，

是不是我所对人的失望，或者活在适者生存的世界里久了，

渐渐的，心态也变了。

还是，

这只是我给自己一个最好的借口。

2011-07-13T22:05:00.001+08:00

人間が現実的です。

2011-07-12T22:03:00.002+08:00

the more you put in your effort, the more you enjoy the event.

I was very tired ( due to the lack of sleep ) , sian-ed over the shrinking no. of ppl.

but still, afterall, i still have fun in the camp, playing the game .

(especially the yakyu with natasha. )

maybe, maybe maybe perhaps, perhaps ,perhaps

because i put in all my emotions into this camp afterall. :)

2011-07-07T19:58:00.002+08:00

for now, i seriously think that,
a guy doesnt really need to be rich, he just have to be good to the girl.
nowadays, i'm doing things according to my heart ( not brain anymore, like i used to.) i know it's wrong & everything's getting out of control soon.

2011-07-06T09:12:00.002+08:00

today i'm sick, as in i have pain under my ribcage (instead of stomach ) then extend all the way to stomach. ( i dont noe if you noe what i'm talking about. )

i called back to office to say i wont be coming.

&&& the japanese guy picked up the phone! ( cause Jasmine isnt here yet. )

i stunned, ehhe but act as if nothing happen.

then i put down the phone & thought,

"do i sound too healthy? "

LOL!

but i'm really sick & i got the queue number. then i feel so pleased that the clinic is just downstairs. cause i have number 21 & just now the number was only 7.

i'll go downn soon. :( :(

2011-07-02T20:52:00.002+08:00

今日、私の気分が悪いです。

私の努力が認識されていないと思う。

彼は上司です。

何もすることができませんが、

彼の指示に従ってする。

2011-07-02T20:35:00.002+08:00

if you're their customer, you'll feel thankful,

if you're their employee, you'll be damn sian, perhaps everyday you might -.-.

if you're their lover, you will then felt very neglected at times.

you always have to made choices & then learn to accept all their pros and cons.

2011-06-29T22:05:00.003+08:00

this ferris wheel is so so so so so so pretty!

(but it's smaller than the singapore flyer)

i saw this ferris wheel in the "Why Why love " show & got so attracted. HAHHA

good view up there , but taipei 101 can see much more clearly.

& i realise that SQ flight are good. I finally understood why it's much more expensive. SQ is really good. :)

&&&& hello! just have the urged to upload and update my blog! i think that this bubble tea (above ) is much more nicer than KOI. anyway, i drank bubble tea everyday and ate mister donut. & i realise that my chinese was really bad when i was there. i can speak chinese LA, just that i have to think three times before i speak to phrase everything into chinese not mixed with english!

&& there's a lot of japanese there & i went to follow a japanese tour guide. HAHHAA since we go free& easy, there's no one there to introduce the place, i'll just tag along & i understood like 70 percent of it! HAHHAHA

since this is the second time i went taiwan, not as fun as first time ( when everything is new. ) , i'm familiar. I brought 8 pair of shoes back! because i really regretted not buying more shoes, & it's really very very very cheap. :)

but i still like the bubble tea most. and the weather there was like 36degree, very hot. the weather isn't that hot when i went last time. of course, i also went to some place that i didnt manage to went to when i went there for the first time.

i'm so eager to go out & see the world.

but first, M-O-N-E-Y.

tat's the only thing that prevent me from quiting my current job.

even though it's very very very very very very bored, i would rather bored there (at least u earn $ ) , rather than bored at home & get no $.

in conclusion, i'm $face now. HAHA
it's really very bored.

2011-06-28T09:53:00.001+08:00

at this point of time, all i need is ur concern.

please at least make an effort to show that u care.

even if it's fake, i'll be happy.

2011-06-25T13:38:00.002+08:00

i dont like the way she does her stuffs,

but i noe, sht dont like the way i do stuffs too.

everyone's have different working style,

& all me can do is to just tolerate each other right? :)

2011-06-09T19:33:00.002+08:00

I AM SO MOTIVATED TO STUDY FOR MY JAPANESE NOW!!!

because i was listening two the two japanese talking in the office & i feel so pissed that i only noe very little of the content, they speak too fast. X3 than my listening in ikoma. i want to achieve more. (okay, i have been clearing my japanese homework quite a bit after my sem exams. :) )) )

i just want to master japanese well ( i noe it is very difficult to do so. ). maybe, if next time i have any chance of going to japan, i'll make sure i'll go. environment to learn japanese is very important, i'll get the chance to speak for myself.

but i noe, surviving in japan is difficult, very difficult unless you are a japanese of course. lol

anyway, work was okay. there's nothing to grumble about even though it's boring. but i will rather go do some work and get busy over the filing & scanning rather than staying at home because i need $ myself. at least i can sense that they noe my presence in the office. i was almost late today that i rush into the office & reach on the dot. HAHAHA. heng right. good that the person-in0charge of me is not that picky/bothered/leng-leng. & since i seldom communciate with the people there, i wont have to care about any person-toperson relationship, that's the best part. this is the first time that i dont need to care this kind of stuff. i felt more relieve, more carefree, rather than trying to put up a smile sometimes. i'll only talk if they approach me or something.( but i doubt they will. )

anyway, i am just contented with my results. to think back of it, the process that i have been though, i have nothing to grumble, nothing to complain & nothing to really whine about.

i am just happy that i have survived through a year in university.

3 long scary, tough years more to go!

what module i should take next year? ( i might have to take some alone. :(((( )

2011-06-05T21:54:00.002+08:00

the korean bbq buffet that we went. & everyone of us ( except zm ) was very hot due to the "radiation from the pot".

& we smells like bbq meat after the dinner. i can even smell it the next day when i sit near the bag i carried there.

the queue is so long. and then i asked one of the customer why it's so long & he told me it was a more authentic. there's a lot of korean there though. :)

it's considered cheap though u have to find ur way from tanjong pajar mrt station. but the ki-mu-chi is nice! like nicer than the ones i ate outside. ( i didnt eat before alot of kimuchi outside though.) but with rice, it's nice!

okay, i have to work again & i'll make sure i bring the thick thick jacket because i foreseee i will be scanned the whole day & the aircon there is subper. but i rather to be in the cold environment!

2011-06-05T08:20:00.002+08:00

hello! working on weekdays making me to spend my weekends more wisely.

HAHHAA.

okay, i think i have a big tummy now after i drank too much at timbre.

lol! anyway, now i understood why people always says that the branch near the SMU one is very bad.

but the live band for that day was really good. i wanted to stay longer still ( even though i am bery bery tired already. )

&&& the queue is long . so freaking long that we were lucky that we made reversation.

we just need to do some stupid stuffs even though our age added up to be already 46.

2011-06-02T19:50:00.002+08:00

hello! i have no pictures to put up.

because i didnt go out & play.

move on to the new job after food fair.

new admin job is okay.

no one in the office initate to talk to me .

and i also dont dare to talk to them

i only talk to the person who is in-charge of my work, that's all.

but i'm lucky that the peron-in-charge bring me out for lunch or i will have to makan myself. lol

my office is like all girls. only two guys i think. it's a japanese company.

and the girls there are all so pretty. :)

&&&& there a a few japanese bosses.

& my favourite pasttime in the office is to listen to wat the japanese guy talking on the phone. he speaks so fast that i could hardly catch what he is talk about.

i only understand like 20% -.-

okay, that's all ! bye bye!

2011-05-30T07:56:00.002+08:00

I noe i'm very irriating, but still, when i have no job, i grumbled like mad.

now i have a 5 day job i whine like mad also. -.-

seriously. i noe everyone there doesn't really like me, but i thick skin and i' ll going there everyday still.

even though though sometimes 我口是心非，but i can't stand ppl like them.

看到人说人话，看到鬼说鬼话。产品明明就没有这么好，却说到这么.

seriously, i can't bring myself to say this kind of stuffs to customers.

i seriously dont find myself wrong at all lo! bluffing ppl / con ppl to buy things.

this time, i really fully understood what they meant as "firms aim for profit maximising. "

& i always thought this kind of fair is just normal fair, and i didn't realise that it's also a good place where you meet new suppliers/met old suppliers & draw new connection.

got benefit = free tea/sauce

no benefit = everything also CANNOT AH!

after working for so many jobs, this is the first time i directly kinda complain, kinda suan the whole day by ppl around for like almost the whole looooooooooong day, i tell you. with rumors spreading fast , spoiling my reputation. damn.

i just can't imgaine that i got complained. damn. damn -.-

anyway, come on la, you complain about me behind my back, yet you smile at me infront.

the whole cycle just repeat.

damn.

& for the past few days, i was ignoring my bosses. i heck care them already. lol

see, how fake & dirty the society is like, just like my sch.

if i got a job that i like, like just giving out free sample, or at the cashier , or even packing some nonesense stuffs ( with when i walked arond, i saw many booth like that ) , i'm okay with it. and i thought i was given this kind of job in the first day, even if my working mates dont like me, i will still work hard for that job.

i just feel so miserable going to work nowadays.

and i have to endure for like 2 days.

2011-05-25T16:35:00.001+08:00

i am desperately finding for job.

but no one get back to me.

what should i do?

-.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.- -.-

2011-05-25T12:06:00.001+08:00

i see alot of my friends graduating fb.

i want to graduate too!

when's my turn?!?!?!?!?!

2011-05-24T10:27:00.003+08:00

ahya. -.-

i want to go Batam with my friend who offered me a free ride & meals there,

OF COURSE for one day though. ( cause ps also. )

but the problem is i have food fair on saturday.

-.- wasted. okay, i noe i am very playful now.

okay, i also wanted to go randang trip, but then it is expensive and currently i am not holding on to any job. ;(

& i am so broke.

pirate of carribean is nice! hahahahahaha.

heng it:s not though "struck in the middle" kind ending. lol

2011-05-21T20:18:00.003+08:00

あああああああ。。。。あの、学校で休むから、今毎日ごろごろしてる。

１９日は試験を終わった。

お金を持ちませんので、欲しい物は買うごとができません！

今多い物が欲しい！

仕事を探するのは難しいね。二月の時間たけ。

今、心配するね！

最近は、もし仕事をしないたら、どうですか？何にをしたがいいですか？と思う。

今も二十歳です、両親にお金をくれてばかりいで、困らせる。

でも、学校は始まる場合、も忙しくて、毎日勉強するので、ストレスになる！

ええええええ。

何にをしますか？

2011-05-20T14:02:00.004+08:00

hello people!

i am still alive

okay, i like the sch, but i dont like the studying part ( which take up most of it uh)

but, okay, i just finish year 1. big achievement ! HHAHAHA

anyone got job please offer me one. :(

no $, broke, need to find but two months is really....... (uhmm, uhmm. uhmm. ) :(

i am going to taiwan with my papa, mama, jiejie & didi next month. taipei 6 days. & i am going to plan somewhere that i didn't went before like last year. :() but my dad sign up for a tour ( but look partially tour for me ) & there's a day wherer the people bring u take public bus to sogo.

& i want to go drinking again! drinking at home isint fun because there's no atmosphere ( even though i can mixed the amount of coke and -OH myself. )

i am going to revise through my japanese soon, neglect it for quite along while , if i dont do it now, i will panic when the sch conduct entry exams for the next level! but i am too lazy to start. i dont deniedstudying japanese doesn't feel like studying because i read it like for interest just like econs & forsenic science i took last sem & this sem.

okay, main point is i need a job. :(

& my two months of hoildays starts now! i told myself to enjoy the slacking moment before sch starts, which may be a hugh jump! will go out later ! byeyeyeye

pairate of carribean!!!!

okay i think i am crazy and high now. aahahhaha

bye bye.

2011-05-06T12:39:00.005+08:00

Actually, you know University is a very scary/scheming,

a place where everyone seemed to be homogenous,

ppl may come in without knowing anything,

but they will understand everything when they complete their course .

a place where i wanted to get in so much,

but when i gotten in , i grumble and whine non-stop.
but when given a chance to be a 16year old student, to choose your path all over again, i think i'll still made the same choice.

whenever i felt this way, i always told myself to rmb,

to rmb how hard i worked to get into this sch

& I have to learn to cherish,

accept all cons & the pros.

i am just trying to console myself, you see.

lol

2011-04-22T22:21:00.003+08:00

HAHHA. i'll post xy 's photo only on sunday okay!

I was reading the thread about " How to chase Japanese colleague" in one of the forums and i found. i find it very funny when i read some of the comments/response she gotton. X:

well, but i admired the girl who created this thread, she has been "chasing" the japanese guy for a few years already. very determine & the jap guy also very determine. and she had alot of loyal fan reading her post! i'm one of them. because i first chanced upon it last year! { and now i'm going back to the thread} hahhaa. okay

bye.

2011-04-21T23:42:00.001+08:00

more photos up on facebook!

bye. i am not in the mood to update my blog now! :D

2011-04-14T20:42:00.006+08:00

私のプロジェクトの仲間です。

将来は協力を楽しみにしているね！

プロジェクトの協力したときは、本当にうれしかった。

ユージさん皆さんはマイクさんよに信じますした。

いまもいらいらいしてる。

あなたのいるから、私の大学生活のはストレスがあった。今日は試験をあった。

私は友達をみえるときのは、もともと怖がってる、あたまがいたいになった。

じゃ、またね！

2011-04-12T11:09:00.004+08:00

" to tolerate each other's weakness. because at the same time, other ppl are also tolerating my weakness. " & of course to constantly tell myslf to accept one another character.

i just want to say, i wrote a long post, but i deleted away.

if you see it, then it's too bad for me, but it's okay.

bye

2011-04-09T10:24:00.002+08:00

お誕お誕生日おめでとう、SHAWNさん！

友達はチョコレート買った。ケーキのはおいしかった！

私はチョコレートケーキがあまり好きじゃないん、いつもたべない。

でも、今回のチョコレートケーキのはいいですよ！

後でプロジェクトをするて、バブルティーを買うつもりです。

＜ｂｒ＞

今週は、私とイワンさんとミシェルちゃんとデビッドさんと一緒にシンガポール日本人会いきました。ブリーフィングがあった、Jenesis をもちました。でも旅行もキャンセルしますした。残念、残念！Jenesisは私たちに　＄６００/人をくれるね！

とにかく、デビッドさんがあまり好きじゃないと思ってる。

じゃ、また。ブギスいく！

2011-04-08T22:42:00.002+08:00

should i write i noe japanese when i am filling the form? I want to, but then where will my level be? I am afraid that if i put basic, my japanese standard is not yet to the basic. I am considering this factor because i want to create a "japanese environment " to practice my communicating skills in Japanese. Okay, maybe i should. but i am just worried that my japanese now is not up till the "basic level " yet. should i add in? please give me advise.　( アドバイスをあけてください。） HHAHA. bye

2011-04-02T21:51:00.002+08:00

Everytime on my way home, I feel like being a primary school student again.

At least, at that time, things are much more simple.

If i dont like you, I don't friend you.

why dont we still play this game anymore once we grow up?

2011-04-01T21:24:00.001+08:00

Hi people!

bye !

hhaha, because i have nothing really to talk about.

i just want to wonder around the net & wonder & wonder. hahahaha

2011-03-21T21:06:00.003+08:00

PS to ppl who come over to read my blog, nowadays, i just want to vent out my emotions and write in japanese.

いつも、よく勉強する友達をみるときは、本当にびっくりします。

いつも：大丈夫　とおもてる。

でも、私は　いつも　大丈夫じゃないて、お元気じゃないて、も超心配する。

どうしよっかな、どうしよっかな。。。

学校で、本当に嬉しないな。。。１年学校生だけよ。

＜ｂｒ＞

いま、私は；

化学と日本語が上手になりたい。

念のために、私が好きなお仕事は働くて。

そして化学のお仕事をしない。

大学校は卒業するまえに、JLPTがするつもりです！

できるかどうか、今分からないの。。。

2011-03-20T17:20:00.005+08:00

最近は、本当につかれだ。日本で地震あるけど。。心配する。

せっかく全部準備を終わったのに、学校は：ため　と言われてる。

残念、残念！

いつも、いつも、日本へいくて、嬉しかった。

いま、キャンセルすると思う。

がんばってね!リーリンちゃん！日本語が好きだのに、いこまで続けなければなりません！あの、学校で、PRE-ADV T2 もすくおわるの。。。私の先生はも日本へかえりますよ。気持ちが悪い、でも人生のはたくさん分別があるの。。。

今が今はYAHOOJPで探すとき、日本語よくなるよ！全部よく分かりたいて、将来はたらくて。

2011-03-19T23:10:00.003+08:00

actually, I am someone who is very diffuclt to live together with.

I have my own way of things, own way of doing stuffs, own way of living.

& I am very stubborn. ( I am sure some of you will noe )

I trust more on my own instinct. (which sometimes will land me into trouble)

sometimes, certain things i looked calm ( okay, at least I think so ) because i already made a big fuss at home.

sometimes, i continue to laugh ( okay, at least I think so ) because i have already grumble alot at home.

sometimes i appeared to take it easy on certain issues ( okay, at least I think so ) because i already fret over it at home.

when i was talking to one of my uni friend that day. i told him:

"actually i am a very short tempered person"

he answered:

" really? you dont look like"

then i replied:

" just that u didn't see it."

everyone always have some things in their hearts that they dont really want to share, even to their closest friend.

But, i am those extreme ones.

2011-03-17T21:36:00.003+08:00

tanyy, are you proud and feel honoured that i put ur photo in the front . first of the post? HAHHAHAH!

okay, fyi, from cynchong & zm's idea, we use donut (replacing the traditional cake ) to sing hapy birthday with tanyy! :D hahaha

but i still like the cake!

sometimes, i really feel happy to have this bunch of friends around, making a point to celebrate birthdays/ out just for simple lunch secondary school , seemed very far away. but i'm gald that i still have friends that i am still in contact with. espeically with them hearing my )$%*($$*% . I noe they will noe what i am saying/what i want to say even though i always say halfway.

I always tell them " how good if they are in NTU with me! " lol!

yayya, how wonderful it will be!

bye!

i can't imagine i am advisting a university, a very competitive, scary, connections place to the A level ppl. seriously.

2011-03-07T22:07:00.002+08:00

hello! went to eat steamboat with my japanese classmates & sensei!

{ spot my sensei, if u can/interested! HAHHAA }

she's leaving after finish teaching this sem,

my closer classmate is also leaving for her 5 weeks exchange programme.

some of us going to change to once a week class ( which i most prob is one of them )

everyone's going to split soon. maybe in a month time.

anyway, we were having steamboat yesterday

& i didnt realise that we can walk to sentosa entrance just by walking through a very nice bridge! :D

and i didn' expect that i will reach home late yesterday night & have to go do lab in the next morning. :(

certainly have fun laughing out with them. :) but going to jap class on weekdays can be really tiring. hahhaa. i think i will stone in class again on wed,

anyway, you know i was instill a exhange programme with the japanese student ( 1 day ) today.

i kept thinking that it's on wed and so i email the person-in-charge ( which is the president) that i have lecture. and then when i went to fb, i realise it's actually TODAY! omg, i feel so bad for last mintue pull out of the programme. and i cannot explain to them already. because it is reminded by them alot of times that it is on MONDAY . ( just that i skipped the details in the email . )

well, nevermind. i want to explain, but i doubt no one will believe. :(

& yesterday, i learnt to not to eat together with people that are ________. that's all!

sch's tml! bye! :D i always meet ppl tat i dont want to meet at public places, then i have end up avoiding them.

2011-03-05T22:53:00.002+08:00

tml i am going to eat steamboat with my japanese class 's friends!
because Maeda Sensei going back to japan. :(

2011-03-02T08:34:00.001+08:00

sorry, i dont trust anyone from that club.

because i think they all seemed so close with each other;

2011-02-28T22:17:00.004+08:00

I lost myself for the past two days. get pissed off, irriated & )(*$(%&%* at every single thing.

However, today afternoon, i suddenly sort out, & i guess i am getting back on track now.

it's very hard to embrace & tolerate someone especially when I have the character of a typical Leo. Seeing how my workmates behave in front of different people, seeing how my clique of uni friends behaving back to the same/ or maybe i should say getting more aggressive as last sem....

But at least, Now, i noe i am going to do everything, all aspect , at my own pace.

Things that are impossible, i have to stop daydreaming about it.

Things that i shouldn't know, will be kept quiet.

Be rational, and do whatever I know have to be done.

whether it is Japan Class, Japan Trip, CCAs or study.

that's all. I am going to sleep!

2011-02-27T22:31:00.001+08:00

I am giving up, moving on.

2011-02-21T22:09:00.001+08:00

so sorry! i simply loves all the yukata shots! { so for the next few entries, i guess it;s all the yukata 's shots! } AHHAHA.

anyway, theres nothing i want to update about because there's realy nothing much happening in school or any interesting in particular. but i think i had become more childish!

lol! iwonder when i can behave like a 19 year old !

there's days where by i feel like saying japanese.

but there's no one to practice with me.

2011-02-20T15:47:00.001+08:00

我很想问你:“你最近还好吗？”

2011-02-19T08:58:00.001+08:00

after reading the email,

i realise that i lost to a bootlicker.

shit. -.-

2011-02-18T23:39:00.001+08:00

more photos from Japanese Cultural Festivial coming up!

nice yukatas, alot of funs, sleepover, going crazy.........

I am not exactly happy over some stuffs happening in my CCA.

but nevermind, i already trying very hard to tell myself to close two eyes.

2011-02-15T21:50:00.003+08:00

i love working in an event,

building bonds in the process,

even though some dismay among people is unaviodable still....

JCF is considered the first event i did in NTU. not very big scale though,

painting onto the leggings, washing the brush, putting lots of masking tape , coming back to sch on sunday, decorating the booth, wearing yukata, ache here & there, sweating under the warm atmospher, stayin overnight in sch, seeing couples, taking photos..........

it's great to know that you are part of the team, especially when the people in ur booth are all working hard for the same reason.

2011-02-13T10:53:00.002+08:00

Uni is not all about studying,

it's a time to pursue your interest, to do something you really like, to expose to different other things.

i believe that, i strongly believe that, i strongly believe that......

however, sometimes i start to doubt it & i hate this feeling.

2011-02-11T22:50:00.001+08:00

what a friday night.

2011-02-11T12:24:00.002+08:00

today i was walking to sch, I suddenly wondered,

when kids are 6, parents tried to snatch a place in a good primary school.

when children are in primary 4, they fight to go for better class.

when they are in primary 6, they fight for better secondary schools.

when they are in secondary 2 ( not satisfied ), they fight for courses they prefered

when they are in secondary 4, they fight for better jc/their desired course in poly

when they are in jc/poly, they fight for places in university.

......................

however, in uni, (everyone seemed to be not satisfied still) , fighting for higher GPA.

when will this thing end?

( well, i noe i am just making a general comment. so, no offence to anyone out there.)

2011-02-10T20:15:00.004+08:00

i am feeling very comfortable now

so tired.

but i dont want to sleep.
my whole body is aching, due to the racing with salimah yesterday,

my OEP applicationg of japan trip is not done

emails not sent out.

but even after much gumbling & the latecomers ( seriously, wasted my time )

painting banner was fun.

very fun,

i just rmb the days i paint banner in JJC. i like the feeling.

staying in sch till late for the past three days is totally very tiring

fun, but now i am experiencing the aftermath.lol!

bye bye

xoxo irritated Toh Li Ling

*____LoNeLy*

____LoNeLy